Guest guest Posted April 17, 2002 Report Share Posted April 17, 2002 Kim, I read your e-mail and please don't feel so badly about not responding quickly enought to others e-mails. You are feeling very ill and legitimately depressed about it. When I was at my worst I would lie in bed, and i was so weak that I didn't even go near my computer because just to get up and to sit up in a chair would have been too much for me. I love my computer and my tv, but I would even have my tv off at times and just stare into space. I feel for you and I really hope you feel better soon, Kim. It's so tough to keep your spirits up and hopeful at times when you feel so lousy. If you don't get to read this e-mail for another couple of months, I understand. Love, Eleanor Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2002 Report Share Posted April 17, 2002 Kim, I read your e-mail and please don't feel so badly about not responding quickly enought to others e-mails. You are feeling very ill and legitimately depressed about it. When I was at my worst I would lie in bed, and i was so weak that I didn't even go near my computer because just to get up and to sit up in a chair would have been too much for me. I love my computer and my tv, but I would even have my tv off at times and just stare into space. I feel for you and I really hope you feel better soon, Kim. It's so tough to keep your spirits up and hopeful at times when you feel so lousy. If you don't get to read this e-mail for another couple of months, I understand. Love, Eleanor Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2002 Report Share Posted April 17, 2002 Kim, I read your e-mail and please don't feel so badly about not responding quickly enought to others e-mails. You are feeling very ill and legitimately depressed about it. When I was at my worst I would lie in bed, and i was so weak that I didn't even go near my computer because just to get up and to sit up in a chair would have been too much for me. I love my computer and my tv, but I would even have my tv off at times and just stare into space. I feel for you and I really hope you feel better soon, Kim. It's so tough to keep your spirits up and hopeful at times when you feel so lousy. If you don't get to read this e-mail for another couple of months, I understand. Love, Eleanor Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2002 Report Share Posted April 17, 2002 Dear Kim, Please don't feel the need to apologize for not answering all the e-mails, or even getting all of them read. Maybe that should be a rule in the group.. " no apologies needed. " I have not kept up lately, and I owe several e-mails to some dear members...but, I'm not feeling up to much of anything, and it's normal to start to feel depressed etc. when not feeling hardly well enough to make it through the day. We who have had this disease for quite awhile understand. The days can sometimes become one big " blur. " Not even from the meds...just from not feeling well. That's a very kind and generous offer you have made with the calling card. I just bought one at Sam's Club for 600 minutes at less than 4 cents a minute, and they are great! I am sure that there are some members who would like to make a phone call, but just can't afford it...so even though I won't be using it. thank you from me. We have many members who are waiting for their disability claims to come through, and maybe some who are only able to get the SSI and not the SSDI, and have all they can do to keep hooked up to the computer for association, and contact with others. Also others whose circumstances whatever they may be, make it impossible for them to afford to make a long distance call. Thank you from me... for everyone who might use this Kim! Hopefully, you will get the right combination of meds soon. Somethimes, we think we have it and then wham! ..still wrong! I " thought " I had everything under control.. but now am not so sure. Must get to see a doctor soon with the " sleep apnea. Just another little bonus to work at. Going to see a therapist is a good move. Just remember hon, if this one doesn't work out (hopefully he/she will) there are others...they are like the meds.. you have to get the right one. There have been many times that I did not know the person whom I had become, and I didn't like her...but, this is the reality of what this illness can do to us...sometimes temporarily, sometimes for a very long time. sometimes we do need help, and it's okay (in fact.. imperative)to do so. Your husband sounds like a wonderful man, and that will surely be of help to you, as I'm sure you already know. It's just that sometimes a spouse *isn't* understanding or helpful when the other one gets ill. I too have been blessed in that regard. Please get yourself to feeling better first....*then* you can put more thoughts and energy into the rest of the group. We all love you too Kim!!! Love and prayers, tricia... (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs for Kim))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) -- Apology! PLEASE READ! I sent this once but I don't know if it actually worked...so sorry if you're getting this twice??? Dearest Fellow Stilligans: I have an apology to make. I am so far behind in email. I am just now reading some of the well over 300 messages in my in-tray. Some of them date as far back as the 10th of last month.. I have been such a horrible friend. Some of the messages were clearly directed to me and I didn’t reply or give any recognition of them because I had not read them. I have been so depressed that I have simply been consumed with thoughts of myself instead of others. I feel so horrible about that. That’s what depression can do to you though. I tend to isolate myself when I get depressed. I am so lucky to have you all as my part of my family and I’m certain I don’t deserve you. So many of you have gotten me through some pretty grave times since my onset last year. The least I can do is read your emails and send some sort of reply. If I was in such bad shape that I couldn’t get out of the bed, then I should have had my husband print off the messages and then ask him to give you all an update. At least then you would have known what was going on with me and not that I didn’t care. How rude! I even read an e-card this morning that was sent by Traci some time ago and I had not replied to say thank you. I do NOT know this person I have become lately. I have an appointment to see a therapist to try and get some help. It’s been a year and it’s time for me to accept that I have this disease and learn how to live with it. I can't run from it and I can't work it away...I can’t believe the denial I have been in. I love you all so much. I am so sorry for the way I have been this past couple of months. I promise to do better. I am very ill right now but I can at least check in with you all and read what has been written. Please accept my apologies. I do need help with something…if any of you notice that I am isolating myself or not being myself…will you call me. I have a prepaid calling card that I’m going to post as well as my phone number so that someone will hopefully call me and give me a swift kick in the as* if I’m not participating in the group. The card has around 800 minutes on it. Also, if any of you have an emergency and need to make a long distance call to a fellow Stilligan, but have no means to do so, please feel free to use this card. I have no way of knowing who uses the card and how many minutes they use and I have no intentions of attempting to track. Use it as needed PLEASE It makes me feel good to contribute in some way. I’ll just add minutes to this card as needed. Kind of like a crisis phone card. Sometimes we need a warm caring voice. Here’s the card number and instructions: Step 1: dial 1- Step 2: dial 1 for English and 2 for Spanish Step 3: Dial the card number: 8622-2105-8897 Step 4: Dial 1 for calls within the US, Canada or the Caribean, Press 2 for calls outside the US Step 5: Dial the number (with area code) you wish to call I hope you all will use it to call those you feel most comfortable speaking to. It does NOT have to be used to call me. I talked to my dad last night. He’s adding $100.00 worth of minutes to our card today. So, please reach out and get the support you need. The computer is excellent, but like I said earlier sometimes we need to hear a caring voice. Love and Hugs, Kim --------------------------------- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2002 Report Share Posted April 17, 2002 e-mail problems...if you got this already..delete..I did not receive it. hopefully this time. -- Apology! PLEASE READ! I sent this once but I don't know if it actually worked...so sorry if you're getting this twice??? Dearest Fellow Stilligans: I have an apology to make. I am so far behind in email. I am just now reading some of the well over 300 messages in my in-tray. Some of them date as far back as the 10th of last month.. I have been such a horrible friend. Some of the messages were clearly directed to me and I didn’t reply or give any recognition of them because I had not read them. I have been so depressed that I have simply been consumed with thoughts of myself instead of others. I feel so horrible about that. That’s what depression can do to you though. I tend to isolate myself when I get depressed. I am so lucky to have you all as my part of my family and I’m certain I don’t deserve you. So many of you have gotten me through some pretty grave times since my onset last year. The least I can do is read your emails and send some sort of reply. If I was in such bad shape that I couldn’t get out of the bed, then I should have had my husband print off the messages and then ask him to give you all an update. At least then you would have known what was going on with me and not that I didn’t care. How rude! I even read an e-card this morning that was sent by Traci some time ago and I had not replied to say thank you. I do NOT know this person I have become lately. I have an appointment to see a therapist to try and get some help. It’s been a year and it’s time for me to accept that I have this disease and learn how to live with it. I can't run from it and I can't work it away...I can’t believe the denial I have been in. I love you all so much. I am so sorry for the way I have been this past couple of months. I promise to do better. I am very ill right now but I can at least check in with you all and read what has been written. Please accept my apologies. I do need help with something…if any of you notice that I am isolating myself or not being myself…will you call me. I have a prepaid calling card that I’m going to post as well as my phone number so that someone will hopefully call me and give me a swift kick in the as* if I’m not participating in the group. The card has around 800 minutes on it. Also, if any of you have an emergency and need to make a long distance call to a fellow Stilligan, but have no means to do so, please feel free to use this card. I have no way of knowing who uses the card and how many minutes they use and I have no intentions of attempting to track. Use it as needed PLEASE It makes me feel good to contribute in some way. I’ll just add minutes to this card as needed. Kind of like a crisis phone card. Sometimes we need a warm caring voice. Here’s the card number and instructions: Step 1: dial 1- Step 2: dial 1 for English and 2 for Spanish Step 3: Dial the card number: 8622-2105-8897 Step 4: Dial 1 for calls within the US, Canada or the Caribean, Press 2 for calls outside the US Step 5: Dial the number (with area code) you wish to call I hope you all will use it to call those you feel most comfortable speaking to. It does NOT have to be used to call me. I talked to my dad last night. He’s adding $100.00 worth of minutes to our card today. So, please reach out and get the support you need. The computer is excellent, but like I said earlier sometimes we need to hear a caring voice. Love and Hugs, Kim --------------------------------- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2002 Report Share Posted April 17, 2002 e-mail problems...if you got this already..delete..I did not receive it. hopefully this time. -- Apology! PLEASE READ! I sent this once but I don't know if it actually worked...so sorry if you're getting this twice??? Dearest Fellow Stilligans: I have an apology to make. I am so far behind in email. I am just now reading some of the well over 300 messages in my in-tray. Some of them date as far back as the 10th of last month.. I have been such a horrible friend. Some of the messages were clearly directed to me and I didn’t reply or give any recognition of them because I had not read them. I have been so depressed that I have simply been consumed with thoughts of myself instead of others. I feel so horrible about that. That’s what depression can do to you though. I tend to isolate myself when I get depressed. I am so lucky to have you all as my part of my family and I’m certain I don’t deserve you. So many of you have gotten me through some pretty grave times since my onset last year. The least I can do is read your emails and send some sort of reply. If I was in such bad shape that I couldn’t get out of the bed, then I should have had my husband print off the messages and then ask him to give you all an update. At least then you would have known what was going on with me and not that I didn’t care. How rude! I even read an e-card this morning that was sent by Traci some time ago and I had not replied to say thank you. I do NOT know this person I have become lately. I have an appointment to see a therapist to try and get some help. It’s been a year and it’s time for me to accept that I have this disease and learn how to live with it. I can't run from it and I can't work it away...I can’t believe the denial I have been in. I love you all so much. I am so sorry for the way I have been this past couple of months. I promise to do better. I am very ill right now but I can at least check in with you all and read what has been written. Please accept my apologies. I do need help with something…if any of you notice that I am isolating myself or not being myself…will you call me. I have a prepaid calling card that I’m going to post as well as my phone number so that someone will hopefully call me and give me a swift kick in the as* if I’m not participating in the group. The card has around 800 minutes on it. Also, if any of you have an emergency and need to make a long distance call to a fellow Stilligan, but have no means to do so, please feel free to use this card. I have no way of knowing who uses the card and how many minutes they use and I have no intentions of attempting to track. Use it as needed PLEASE It makes me feel good to contribute in some way. I’ll just add minutes to this card as needed. Kind of like a crisis phone card. Sometimes we need a warm caring voice. Here’s the card number and instructions: Step 1: dial 1- Step 2: dial 1 for English and 2 for Spanish Step 3: Dial the card number: 8622-2105-8897 Step 4: Dial 1 for calls within the US, Canada or the Caribean, Press 2 for calls outside the US Step 5: Dial the number (with area code) you wish to call I hope you all will use it to call those you feel most comfortable speaking to. It does NOT have to be used to call me. I talked to my dad last night. He’s adding $100.00 worth of minutes to our card today. So, please reach out and get the support you need. The computer is excellent, but like I said earlier sometimes we need to hear a caring voice. Love and Hugs, Kim --------------------------------- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2002 Report Share Posted April 17, 2002 I so agree with Eleanor Kim and just wanted to add a big thank you for your post of the phone card. We know that you give of yourself to this group, as we all do, and that there are times you just have to concentrate on feeling better for yourself and your family first. We love you dear and are here whenever you need or wish. Till soon, :0) Melt Re: Apology! PLEASE READ! > Kim, > I read your e-mail and please don't feel so badly about not responding > quickly enought to others e-mails. You are feeling very ill and legitimately > depressed about it. When I was at my worst I would lie in bed, and i was so > weak that I didn't even go near my computer because just to get up and to sit > up in a chair would have been too much for me. I love my computer and my tv, > but I would even have my tv off at times and just stare into space. > > I feel for you and I really hope you feel better soon, Kim. It's so tough to > keep your spirits up and hopeful at times when you feel so lousy. If you > don't get to read this e-mail for another couple of months, I understand. > > Love, > Eleanor > > > Visit the Still's Disease Message Board > http://disc.server.com/Indices/148599.html > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 18, 2002 Report Share Posted April 18, 2002 Wow. That' phone card is awful sweet. Sometimes we just can't get to the computer and talk. No one thinks poorly of you. You HAVE to take care of yourself first. Try to go outside today and enjoy the Spring weather. Just smelling the air and hearing the birds sing can be uplifting. Love to ya. --Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 18, 2002 Report Share Posted April 18, 2002 Wow. That' phone card is awful sweet. Sometimes we just can't get to the computer and talk. No one thinks poorly of you. You HAVE to take care of yourself first. Try to go outside today and enjoy the Spring weather. Just smelling the air and hearing the birds sing can be uplifting. Love to ya. --Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 18, 2002 Report Share Posted April 18, 2002 Wow. That' phone card is awful sweet. Sometimes we just can't get to the computer and talk. No one thinks poorly of you. You HAVE to take care of yourself first. Try to go outside today and enjoy the Spring weather. Just smelling the air and hearing the birds sing can be uplifting. Love to ya. --Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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