Amy

[Guest guest]

Hi Amy,

I read everything here with great interest! Thank you for sharing

it. It shows a little bit about how we are all connected even

though most of us cannot feel or see it as easily as you. It sounds

like a difficult place for you to be in sometimes, and I hope that

you have things that ground you and that bring you peace and

happiness. You have a gift! Maybe if you ever chose to write about

it, you could use a pen name?

>

> OOPS! I meant to say that Yeshua( " Jesus " ) is NOT exactly what

people

> in the religion box think he is. We're getting closer to the

Truth,

> though, as we are in a much more intelligent open-minded

generation,

> now. The Laws will provide the Truth when we make ourselves

ready. I

> don't mean to get all " religous " . It's hard for me to answer

> questions about my experience, without including the spiritual

> aspects, ..because it's really all spiritual. That's all there

is, in

> everything.

>

> I hate to get all " weird " on everyone here on this macrobiotics

forum.

> It sort of makes me feel bad, and I wouldn't mind stepping out, if

> it's really not what is wanted here, so please let me know if I

> shouldn't be talking about this stuff, k everyone?

>

> To be honest, I've had psychic abilities since I was very small. I

> think my mom does, a little, too, because I remember seeing a dark

> spirit in our home. He would show himself in our mirror, and was

> tall, thin and wore a top hat, ..sort of like Abraham Lincolnish..

I

> noticed him as I'd pass by the mirror, standing behind me. Then

one

> day, I overheard my mom describing a " ghost in our home that she

saw,

> who showed himself in the mirror, wearing a black top hat. " We

always

> had a lot of paranormal activity in our home. Pots and pans

banging

> in the kitchen.. We'd all be together in one room, and we'd hear,

very

> loudly, someone running down the hallway. I've had " visitors "

follow

> me all my life. My husband, who is not at all connected to the

Other

> Side, did not appreciate it when we got married and no matter

where we

> moved, light bulbs exploded around us, things moved, ..other stuff

> probably shouldn't get into here. On the Other Side, when they

> recognize that someone " physically alive " Hears and Sees them, they

> are extremely attracted to them. They want to talk and be heard.

> They want to tell their stories. I've said, they're just like us,

> here. Every personality you could imagine. My grandmother came

to me

> in the form of a small child and told me secrets about some abuse

that

> happened to her in her childhood. She said she couldn't move

forward

> until she released those negative memories, so she asked me to take

> them from her. That was a painful experience, because I had to

> witness what happened to her. Many years later, an aunt whispered

to

> me that my grandmother had been horribly abused as a small child.

I

> never told her I already knew. So, some of it is annoying. Some

is

> perfectly fine and I'm willing to be helpful if I can. I was never

> good at understanding why I had what I had, or how to control it.

It

> weighed on me a lot. I had a distant cousin who I'd never met,

come

> up to me upon meeting me for the first time, and she gasped and

said

> in my ear, " You have IT, too, don't you? I'm so sorry. It's very

> difficult, isn't it? " So, maybe it's in the family. I know I

have a

> number of cousins who also regularly experience the paranormal,

seeing

> the future, etc..

>

> I've had severe health problems all my life and tried a lot of

meds to

> help me with pain and sleep. This is really personal for me, but

waht

> happened about four years ago, is; I was desperate for sleep and

> relief of my pain. My doctor gave me something I knew was too

strong

> for me. If I even took a little, I felt like I couldn't breathe.

My

> nose would swell until I couldn't breath through my nostrils and my

> heart and breathing would slow so much I would struggle just to

take a

> simple breath. I was hysterical with pain that night, though. My

> doctor had laughed at me when I told him the med. was too strong

and

> said, I wasn't even taking enough, and that I could easily triple

it,

> and do fine. I was literally at the point where I didn't care

> anymore, and decided that maybe I was just being too dramatic and

was

> a wimp. So, I tripled my dose and went to bed. It was very

quick. I

> hardly even struggled. I think I was trying to get air for a

little

> bit, but it was too hard and I didn't even want to fight anymore.

It

> almost felt good to give in. As soon as I left my body, I felt so

> free. Not even having to breath. I don't know how long I was

gone.

> Neither does my husband. The reason I " came back " was because I

> started to consciously think about my children and how they needed

me.

> I didn't like the idea of being " dead " . It just felt completely

> wrong. I didn't feel that I was done at all, with my life.

Leaving

> my body was easy, but coming back was an intense fight. In fact,

it

> still amazes me how hard I had to try to get back into my body.

> That's a long story. Eventually, I got back in, but found that I

was

> in a coma. That was really scary. It's very strange to be awake

and

> aware, inside a body that is completely asleep, ..exactly like dead

> weight. I couldn't even twitch a finger. My eyes were rolled back

> into my head. My husband found me and was sure I was dead. He

picked

> me up and my body was completely lifeless. I was barely

breathing. I

> was only like that for a short time, so don't get me wrong and

think I

> was in a coma for a long time. My husband's energy, when he

touched

> me, pulled my body back into life, slowly. If I could somehow tell

> people who have loved ones in a comatose state, how important it

is to

> touch the comatose victim, ..oh my word! It is so, so important.

We

> have a physical energy that transmits from one body to another and

as

> we touch each other we give life energy and comatose victims

> absolutely must be touched to be awakened. The energy from other

> people is like plugging the body into an electrical outlet and

turning

> it back on. The victim can rarely wake the body on their own. I

would

> love to just go into a hospital and pick up a comatose victim and

hold

> them in my arms and rock them in a rocking chair for eight hours or

> so. But you know what " ward " they'd send me to, if I got caught

doing

> that. It's not good to have sick little infants left in incubators

> without being touched, either. They ought to pay people to stay

with

> the infant and keep physically touching them until they are healthy

> again. Human energy is unbelievably powerful and healing, as I

saw on

> the Other Side.

>

> I'm very open about my experience, yet, I'm careful, because I

grew up

> realizing that when you speak of things that other people can't

relate

> to, they either think you're crazy or " filled with the devil " .

This

> experience has been difficult for me, because it involved seeing

some

> very mind-opening things about the universe, that if I spoke about

it,

> would make my religion seem extremely incomplete and even way off

in

> some areas. It about makes every religion seem ridiculous.. except

> for Buddhism and gnosticism, I think. I get nervous to talk about

> what I was shown, because in my religion, we are taken to court and

> " disciplined " sort-of, if we say anything that doesn't support

> Mormonism. Personally, I'd have no problem with that, ..even

getting

> excommunicated, ..but I have a huge family with members, high up in

> the hierarchy of our religion. I also have in-laws who'd freak

out..

> Sigh.. Basically, everyone would go bezerko on me. My husband is

very

> supportive because he's witnessed so much. There's so much he can't

> deny.

>

> After I came back, we never went to the hospital. I didn't know

how

> in the world I'd explain. I also knew I was o.k. But when I came

> back, my abilities were about ten times stronger. I don't want to

go

> into it too much here, but I could basically See both worlds at the

> same time, all the time. Immediately, I was going in and out of

> visions, and beautiful things were happening all around us. My

> husband and children could feel it, too. It was so awesome. Hard

to

> describe. I had a certain " Messenger " come and give me about two

> hours worth of information. All four of my small children

witnessed

> it and were there for the whole thing. That's an experience I

should

> probably only speak of in private, as well. He told me a little of

> who I'd been in past lives, but mostly just directed me for where

to

> go and what to do in the future, and warned me of certain Earth

> changes, etc. My oldest daughter who also has similar " Abilities "

> knew as soon as she saw the Messenger that he was " of God " , as she

said.

>

> Very soon after my N.D. exp., I was in the kitchen trying to

prepare

> food for my family. I reached into the fridge and pulled out some

> frozen ground beef. The Spirit(Higher Self) was very strong and

> connected to me at that time. I was led/guided by it for at least

two

> weeks straight. As I set the beef on the counter, I was STRONGLY

> REBUKED. I felt that the Spirit was more than disgusted. It

> commanded me to never partake of dead flesh. I was overwhelmed

with

> confusion. I'd never heard anything like that before. I was so

> dense, I just stood there thinking, " WHY?!! " I really could not

> comprehend it. I was told that not only is it contaminated, but

that

> it would fill my body with " death " and disconnect me from the

> spiritual line that guided me. " That is death and suffering. " The

> Spirit does not condone killing animals for the enjoyment of their

> flavor, or to obtain protein. I was told to only partake of that

> which has life and to keep my body pure if I wanted to stay

> " connected. " This story goes a little further, but again, too many

> details for right now.

>

> I know all of this sounds so bizarre. Yah, that's my life-story.

> Sorry. I know others don't experience the same, so of course I

don't

> expect anyone to agree or even believe me, but I am what I am. I

am

> here, because I am shown that those in this forum are much further

> toward Awakening to the " Third Eye " than the general population,

and

> that what is studied and understood here, will be closely aligned

in

> many ways to what I was shown about order and sense in the

universe.

> So this is where I need to be for now. Throughout the next five

> years, there will be an enormous amount of others who will begin to

> Awaken and experience a connection to the other side. We are going

> through a paramount change in our little galaxy right now, and we

will

> all see some incredible things happen, as the " Veil " becomes

thinner

> and thinner. It's a necessary part of our human evolution.

>

> Thanks also, for your interest and respect. I don't know how I'd

pull

> off a book without revealing myself to everyone in my religious

> community and getting my butt kicked(so to SPEAK). That's a

> frightening idea, but we'll see what I'm guided to do.

>

> Blessings,

> amy

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