Just Venting

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Hello all,

Does it ever seem that your entire day revolves around OCD? Does it

seem like it will never stop? Some of us are right in the middle of

it, and seeking any help we can find. Some on the list are

conquering it. For those who are, and those who have, does it seem

like you wake up to it like a cold shower, and pass out with it like

a bad hangover?

To make matters worse, our dd seems to want to argue with

everything. " Please set the table and stay up here. " " You

mean I have to stay here? Why do I have to stay here? I set the

table, it's not fair she gets to watch TV while I have to be here

and be punished (which she's not). " When we're not battling OCD,

which is rare, we move into defiance.

I was exhausted last night. came down to tell me

goodnight, and then said she didn't want me to kiss her goodbye in

the mornings anymore (when she's asleep). She thought I was sick

because I was tired and falling asleep early. Tonight at dinner she

refused to eat any of the food that her sister touched, or even the

spoons used to dish out the food because her sister touched them,

and she's afraid she's sick, which she's not. My wife picks her up

from school, and before she says hello, she unloads about how a kid

in her math class coughed, and she's afraid she's going to get

sick. Funny thing - she now has a cold, but that doesn't bother

her. But she's deathly afraid of any virus that might give her the

exact cold she has - which she is not bothered by.

I can't count the nights my wife has just sat at the dinner table

and cried. It's frustrating, and exhausting. Knowing others go

through this is helpful, but you all know that when you're in " the

moment " , nothing else matters. You wake up with IT, you pick IT up

from school, you fight IT at dinner, and you put IT to bed. I come

home and IT is the first thing I hear about, and I struggle with IT

until SHE goes to bed.

We're doing the right things - in CBT and working on a new psych and

new meds. But for now, we're smack in the middle of IT, and

sometimes it feels like it will never end. I know it's hard on her,

but I believe that it's just as hard on the rest of the family too.

Thanks for reading...

FD