Re: Anniversary

[Guest guest]

HI ine...

You might consider checking out a Unity church. You don'thave to be

baptized to volunteer -- you don't even have to be a member. They accept

everyone

wherever they are in their spiritual walk. I have been happy in this church.

Love and Blessings,

Colleen @}-->-->---------------------

[Guest guest]

ine, I'm sorry this is such a tough time of reminder

right now about your brother's death. Lossing a loved one is

so hard and especially through suicide. Lots of guilt seems

to go along with that. If it's ok, I'm going to attach a prayer

with this for you...

Dear Lord, please be with ine during this difficult time.

Please give her heart rest and peace regarding the death of her brother

during this anniversary time. Please guide her as to what

church ministry you want her involved with. Her heart is

searching for you Lord and help her to be pointed to where

you want her to be. To have a personal relationship with

you. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

Love,

LeAnn

anniversary

I am trying to get involved in the Mormon Church to volunteer but I

have been told that they don't know quite to handle me because I

haven't been baptised. I have only been going to the Church about 2

months and am not ready. I have a water phobia-which Jesus must know

about, have trouble believe in the after life. I have never believed

in it. I just feel sad that my not being baptised could cause me not

to be able to volunteer in the Church. Jesus knows where I am at.

Why can't they? Thurs. is the anniversary of my brothers suicide 3

years ago. He had nothing to live for.He was sick and did the best

thing for himself. He didn't deserve to suffer anymore. I hope that

the Church and Jesus gives me more to live for. Like the sisters said

today-I will be alive but who wants just that. I pray that I can find

more of a purpose and more of a family than I have which is just

about nothing. I pray today to help me get through my brothers loss

today and my future. There are times that I feel like joining him

but having been a suicide survivor I couldn't do that to my brother,

son, or mom all of whom are of no support or do nothing for me. But

I know I am not alone there. May G-d have mercy on my soul today.

Luckily, my case worker is coming over today. Ironic. Maybe I'll

force myself to bake something and hand it out to help me. Sorry for

such a painful and depressing email.I don't know whether I am crying

now more for my brothers pain he suffered or for what I suffer and

have suffered my whole life. I am grateful my brother is at

peace.........ine

[Guest guest]

Thanks so much. I don't feel guilty. I did everything I could. I was very

involved with him. I just feel terribly sad that he was too sick to be helped.

I will read your prayer all day today and say it to myself. People ask me I must

miss him. I say-I don't miss the person he was because he was very hard to deal

with but I miss having another brother and perhaps the person he could have

been. His life was a tragidy. He would have died anyways. From nerves he

threw up 5 times a day for 3 years. There is only so much your body can handle.

Some people are abused and can get threw it. He never had a change. His life was

destroyed. But not he no longer suffers.......Amen for that. ine

[Guest guest]

ine, keep hanging in there! You are now doing so many things

right, and there are bound to be a few glitches still along your path! But,

just keep on trying each day, and things will get better overall. You have my

sympathy regarding your brothers' death. I'm sure that is a difficult thing to

live with! But, like you said, he is in peace now. Say a prayer about your

circumstances and see if things don't improve in a couple of weeks or so! Love,

PJ

shreiman wrote:I am trying to get involved in the Mormon

Church to volunteer but I

have been told that they don't know quite to handle me because I

haven't been baptised. I have only been going to the Church about 2

months and am not ready. I have a water phobia-which Jesus must know

about, have trouble believe in the after life. I have never believed

in it. I just feel sad that my not being baptised could cause me not

to be able to volunteer in the Church. Jesus knows where I am at.

Why can't they? Thurs. is the anniversary of my brothers suicide 3

years ago. He had nothing to live for.He was sick and did the best

thing for himself. He didn't deserve to suffer anymore. I hope that

the Church and Jesus gives me more to live for. Like the sisters said

today-I will be alive but who wants just that. I pray that I can find

more of a purpose and more of a family than I have which is just

about nothing. I pray today to help me get through my brothers loss

today and my future. There are times that I feel like joining him

but having been a suicide survivor I couldn't do that to my brother,

son, or mom all of whom are of no support or do nothing for me. But

I know I am not alone there. May G-d have mercy on my soul today.

Luckily, my case worker is coming over today. Ironic. Maybe I'll

force myself to bake something and hand it out to help me. Sorry for

such a painful and depressing email.I don't know whether I am crying

now more for my brothers pain he suffered or for what I suffer and

have suffered my whole life. I am grateful my brother is at

peace.........ine

[Guest guest]

ine, so sorry to hear what your brother went through

in his life. Not easy for any of you.

Anniversaries are tough. I lost a friend unexpectedly last

year who would have been 49 today. We always called

each other on each others birthdays for the past 14 years

although I no longer live in Houston where we met.

It felt so odd to not call him today!

Makes me sad but our loved ones do live on in our hearts

still!

Take care of yourself,

LeAnn

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Thanks so much. I don't feel guilty. I did everything I could. I was very

involved with him. I just feel terribly sad that he was too sick to be helped.

I will read your prayer all day today and say it to myself. People ask me I must

miss him. I say-I don't miss the person he was because he was very hard to deal

with but I miss having another brother and perhaps the person he could have

been. His life was a tragidy. He would have died anyways. From nerves he

threw up 5 times a day for 3 years. There is only so much your body can handle.

Some people are abused and can get threw it. He never had a change. His life was

destroyed. But not he no longer suffers.......Amen for that. ine

[Guest guest]

ine, so sorry to hear what your brother went through

in his life. Not easy for any of you.

Anniversaries are tough. I lost a friend unexpectedly last

year who would have been 49 today. We always called

each other on each others birthdays for the past 14 years

although I no longer live in Houston where we met.

It felt so odd to not call him today!

Makes me sad but our loved ones do live on in our hearts

still!

Take care of yourself,

LeAnn

Re: anniversary

Thanks so much. I don't feel guilty. I did everything I could. I was very

involved with him. I just feel terribly sad that he was too sick to be helped.

I will read your prayer all day today and say it to myself. People ask me I must

miss him. I say-I don't miss the person he was because he was very hard to deal

with but I miss having another brother and perhaps the person he could have

been. His life was a tragidy. He would have died anyways. From nerves he

threw up 5 times a day for 3 years. There is only so much your body can handle.

Some people are abused and can get threw it. He never had a change. His life was

destroyed. But not he no longer suffers.......Amen for that. ine

[Guest guest]

ine, so sorry to hear what your brother went through

in his life. Not easy for any of you.

Anniversaries are tough. I lost a friend unexpectedly last

year who would have been 49 today. We always called

each other on each others birthdays for the past 14 years

although I no longer live in Houston where we met.

It felt so odd to not call him today!

Makes me sad but our loved ones do live on in our hearts

still!

Take care of yourself,

LeAnn

Re: anniversary

Thanks so much. I don't feel guilty. I did everything I could. I was very

involved with him. I just feel terribly sad that he was too sick to be helped.

I will read your prayer all day today and say it to myself. People ask me I must

miss him. I say-I don't miss the person he was because he was very hard to deal

with but I miss having another brother and perhaps the person he could have

been. His life was a tragidy. He would have died anyways. From nerves he

threw up 5 times a day for 3 years. There is only so much your body can handle.

Some people are abused and can get threw it. He never had a change. His life was

destroyed. But not he no longer suffers.......Amen for that. ine

[Guest guest]

ine,

Tomorrow will mark my husbands death of thirty years. He passed away on

November 7th. He was a wonderful man and it was a horrible ordeal. I think

I have already told the group the story about my baby and my husband passing

within seven months of each other back thirty years ago. I too, still

remember like it was yesterday. I always wonder what my life would have

been like if he would have lived.

Take care! I pray your day is much better today!! Nola

[Guest guest]

Today is rough but I am trying to function. Will do wash. Continue to knit a

premie hat for a hospital. And I will call a hospital near by to find out about

volunteering with kids. Don't know if it will depress me but have to try. Will

also buy a couple of newspapers to look for volunteering. So I will not lay

still. And I will continue to pray for guidance and peace. The Lord knows I

want to do good and feel good. Until now I have been more angry and into myself.

I have finally learned to give. It is rewarding. This day is temporary and

shall pass. Thanks all for your support. This is truly the most supportive and

loving group I have ever been in!!! ine

[Guest guest]

So sorry for your losses too Nola....what a huge

loss you suffered. Your reward is in heaven!

Love,

LeAnn

Re: anniversary

ine,

Tomorrow will mark my husbands death of thirty years. He passed away on

November 7th. He was a wonderful man and it was a horrible ordeal. I think

I have already told the group the story about my baby and my husband passing

within seven months of each other back thirty years ago. I too, still

remember like it was yesterday. I always wonder what my life would have

been like if he would have lived.

Take care! I pray your day is much better today!! Nola

[Guest guest]

Thank you LeAnn, it is certainly all a learning experience in life, isn't

it? I am fine with it all, that was many years ago...take care...Nola

-- Re: anniversary

So sorry for your losses too Nola....what a huge

loss you suffered. Your reward is in heaven!

Love,

LeAnn

Re: anniversary

ine,

Tomorrow will mark my husbands death of thirty years. He passed away on

November 7th. He was a wonderful man and it was a horrible ordeal. I

think

I have already told the group the story about my baby and my husband

passing

within seven months of each other back thirty years ago. I too, still

remember like it was yesterday. I always wonder what my life would have

been like if he would have lived.

Take care! I pray your day is much better today!! Nola

[Guest guest]

Thank you LeAnn, it is certainly all a learning experience in life, isn't

it? I am fine with it all, that was many years ago...take care...Nola

-- Re: anniversary

So sorry for your losses too Nola....what a huge

loss you suffered. Your reward is in heaven!

Love,

LeAnn

Re: anniversary

ine,

Tomorrow will mark my husbands death of thirty years. He passed away on

November 7th. He was a wonderful man and it was a horrible ordeal. I

think

I have already told the group the story about my baby and my husband

passing

within seven months of each other back thirty years ago. I too, still

remember like it was yesterday. I always wonder what my life would have

been like if he would have lived.

Take care! I pray your day is much better today!! Nola

[Guest guest]

Thank you LeAnn, it is certainly all a learning experience in life, isn't

it? I am fine with it all, that was many years ago...take care...Nola

-- Re: anniversary

So sorry for your losses too Nola....what a huge

loss you suffered. Your reward is in heaven!

Love,

LeAnn

Re: anniversary

ine,

Tomorrow will mark my husbands death of thirty years. He passed away on

November 7th. He was a wonderful man and it was a horrible ordeal. I

think

I have already told the group the story about my baby and my husband

passing

within seven months of each other back thirty years ago. I too, still

remember like it was yesterday. I always wonder what my life would have

been like if he would have lived.

Take care! I pray your day is much better today!! Nola

[Guest guest]

ine, kudos to you my friend!

Volunteering is wonderful and gets your eyes

off yourself and gives so much more than you put

out! It's the best kept secret. Good for you

for doing it! It's so healing. Please keep us posted

on what you are doing!

Love,

LeAnn

Re: anniversary

Today is rough but I am trying to function. Will do wash. Continue to knit a

premie hat for a hospital. And I will call a hospital near by to find out about

volunteering with kids. Don't know if it will depress me but have to try. Will

also buy a couple of newspapers to look for volunteering. So I will not lay

still. And I will continue to pray for guidance and peace. The Lord knows I

want to do good and feel good. Until now I have been more angry and into myself.

I have finally learned to give. It is rewarding. This day is temporary and

shall pass. Thanks all for your support. This is truly the most supportive and

loving group I have ever been in!!! ine

[Guest guest]

ine, kudos to you my friend!

Volunteering is wonderful and gets your eyes

off yourself and gives so much more than you put

out! It's the best kept secret. Good for you

for doing it! It's so healing. Please keep us posted

on what you are doing!

Love,

LeAnn

Re: anniversary

Today is rough but I am trying to function. Will do wash. Continue to knit a

premie hat for a hospital. And I will call a hospital near by to find out about

volunteering with kids. Don't know if it will depress me but have to try. Will

also buy a couple of newspapers to look for volunteering. So I will not lay

still. And I will continue to pray for guidance and peace. The Lord knows I

want to do good and feel good. Until now I have been more angry and into myself.

I have finally learned to give. It is rewarding. This day is temporary and

shall pass. Thanks all for your support. This is truly the most supportive and

loving group I have ever been in!!! ine

[Guest guest]

ine,

You are such a natural at giving and caring, you should go online and find

the United Way and see what they have in your area and for what you are

seeking. They will set you up right nice. Have a good day. Chin up!

upside down frowns LOL Nola

-- Re: anniversary

Today is rough but I am trying to function. Will do wash. Continue to knit

a premie hat for a hospital. And I will call a hospital near by to find out

about volunteering with kids. Don't know if it will depress me but have to

try. Will also buy a couple of newspapers to look for volunteering. So I

will not lay still. And I will continue to pray for guidance and peace. The

Lord knows I want to do good and feel good. Until now I have been more angry

and into myself. I have finally learned to give. It is rewarding. This

day is temporary and shall pass. Thanks all for your support. This is

truly the most supportive and loving group I have ever been in!!! ine

[Guest guest]

Colleen,

I've also tried many different churches. Unity does seem to be very

accepting and loving from my experience (also). Hugs, PJ

august12@... wrote:

HI ine...

You might consider checking out a Unity church. You don'thave to be

baptized to volunteer -- you don't even have to be a member. They accept

everyone

wherever they are in their spiritual walk. I have been happy in this church.

Love and Blessings,

Colleen @}-->-->---------------------

[Guest guest]

Colleen,

I've also tried many different churches. Unity does seem to be very

accepting and loving from my experience (also). Hugs, PJ

august12@... wrote:

HI ine...

You might consider checking out a Unity church. You don'thave to be

baptized to volunteer -- you don't even have to be a member. They accept

everyone

wherever they are in their spiritual walk. I have been happy in this church.

Love and Blessings,

Colleen @}-->-->---------------------

[Guest guest]

No, I haven't heard that story. Share it with us sometime. I'd love

to hear about your husband -- I have heard you speak kind words of him, but not

any detail. I'd love to hear about it when you feel up to sharing it. Hang in

there on the anniversary. My husband lost his mom many years ago (very

suddenly), and it is still hard when the anniversary of her death comes around

each year. Love & Hugs, PJ

" Typing Fingers ^..^ " wrote:ine,

Tomorrow will mark my husbands death of thirty years. He passed away on

November 7th. He was a wonderful man and it was a horrible ordeal. I think

I have already told the group the story about my baby and my husband passing

within seven months of each other back thirty years ago. I too, still

remember like it was yesterday. I always wonder what my life would have

been like if he would have lived.

Take care! I pray your day is much better today!! Nola

[Guest guest]

No, I haven't heard that story. Share it with us sometime. I'd love

to hear about your husband -- I have heard you speak kind words of him, but not

any detail. I'd love to hear about it when you feel up to sharing it. Hang in

there on the anniversary. My husband lost his mom many years ago (very

suddenly), and it is still hard when the anniversary of her death comes around

each year. Love & Hugs, PJ

" Typing Fingers ^..^ " wrote:ine,

Tomorrow will mark my husbands death of thirty years. He passed away on

November 7th. He was a wonderful man and it was a horrible ordeal. I think

I have already told the group the story about my baby and my husband passing

within seven months of each other back thirty years ago. I too, still

remember like it was yesterday. I always wonder what my life would have

been like if he would have lived.

Take care! I pray your day is much better today!! Nola

[Guest guest]

May God continue to bless you, ine! May He support you, uplift

you, and send you encouragement and comfort! Love, PJ

shreiman@... wrote:Today is rough but I am trying to function. Will do

wash. Continue to knit a premie hat for a hospital. And I will call a hospital

near by to find out about volunteering with kids. Don't know if it will depress

me but have to try. Will also buy a couple of newspapers to look for

volunteering. So I will not lay still. And I will continue to pray for guidance

and peace. The Lord knows I want to do good and feel good. Until now I have

been more angry and into myself. I have finally learned to give. It is

rewarding. This day is temporary and shall pass. Thanks all for your support.

This is truly the most supportive and loving group I have ever been in!!!

ine

[Guest guest]

May God continue to bless you, ine! May He support you, uplift

you, and send you encouragement and comfort! Love, PJ

shreiman@... wrote:Today is rough but I am trying to function. Will do

wash. Continue to knit a premie hat for a hospital. And I will call a hospital

near by to find out about volunteering with kids. Don't know if it will depress

me but have to try. Will also buy a couple of newspapers to look for

volunteering. So I will not lay still. And I will continue to pray for guidance

and peace. The Lord knows I want to do good and feel good. Until now I have

been more angry and into myself. I have finally learned to give. It is

rewarding. This day is temporary and shall pass. Thanks all for your support.

This is truly the most supportive and loving group I have ever been in!!!

ine

[Guest guest]

Oh my I could have sworn you have heard it all LOL LOL Nola (well maybe

someday)

-- Re: anniversary

No, I haven't heard that story. Share it with us sometime. I'd

love to hear about your husband -- I have heard you speak kind words of him,

but not any detail. I'd love to hear about it when you feel up to sharing

it. Hang in there on the anniversary. My husband lost his mom many years

ago (very suddenly), and it is still hard when the anniversary of her death

comes around each year. Love & Hugs, PJ

" Typing Fingers ^..^ " wrote:ine,

Tomorrow will mark my husbands death of thirty years. He passed away on

November 7th. He was a wonderful man and it was a horrible ordeal. I think

I have already told the group the story about my baby and my husband passing

within seven months of each other back thirty years ago. I too, still

remember like it was yesterday. I always wonder what my life would have

been like if he would have lived.

Take care! I pray your day is much better today!! Nola

[Guest guest]

Oh my I could have sworn you have heard it all LOL LOL Nola (well maybe

someday)

-- Re: anniversary

No, I haven't heard that story. Share it with us sometime. I'd

love to hear about your husband -- I have heard you speak kind words of him,

but not any detail. I'd love to hear about it when you feel up to sharing

it. Hang in there on the anniversary. My husband lost his mom many years

ago (very suddenly), and it is still hard when the anniversary of her death

comes around each year. Love & Hugs, PJ

" Typing Fingers ^..^ " wrote:ine,

Tomorrow will mark my husbands death of thirty years. He passed away on

November 7th. He was a wonderful man and it was a horrible ordeal. I think

I have already told the group the story about my baby and my husband passing

within seven months of each other back thirty years ago. I too, still

remember like it was yesterday. I always wonder what my life would have

been like if he would have lived.

Take care! I pray your day is much better today!! Nola

[Guest guest]

I didn't think of the United Way. Thanks for the suggestion. ine