Re: Being honest about Pain... Fairly Hard ???

[Guest guest]

> programmed to deceive ourselves and others about the extent of

> our pain and

> related difficulties.

Wow did I experience this today. I had 6 days at a company called AGL

working through a outsourcing Company called CNI.

I was called yesterday, Sunday here, and I jumped at the chance of another

weeks work when I had nothing happening. As it turned out I totally loved

the work because I was building PCs from GHOST PRO server ( Multi-tasking

packet send) and I did both laptops, just 8 today, and one desktop as well

as configure two basic setups of lotus NOTES.

I was in pain BIG time right from about 4.30am. I had slept bad, and I was

limping because I had and still have to some extent a pain in my stomach and

across my hips that, on top of my regular pain, feels like I have been

speared from hip to hip.

Honest to God I don't know how I made it when I was so close to collapsing,

but after a few hours I *think* some powerful endorphins kicked in.

I was lying to me, and I guess to others. But I did the job better than

good.

I don't like having to lie but, if I had told the truth I never would have

had a really fun day that I will be paid for.

Best regards

.

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" ...the only person I have to be better than,is the person I was yesterday. "

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/31/99 7:01:23 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

santeri@... writes:

<< was called yesterday, Sunday here, and I jumped at the chance of another

weeks work when I had nothing happening. As it turned out I totally loved

the work because I was building PCs from GHOST PRO server ( Multi-tasking

packet send) and I did both laptops, just 8 today, and one desktop as well

as configure two basic setups of lotus NOTES. >>

:

Congratulations on a job well done even though you felt horrible to begin

with. You did it; that was the most important for you.

{{{and pain-free wishes}}}

Carol

" In the little decisions of life, use your mind; in the big decisions of

life, use your heart. " [author unknown]

[Guest guest]

Hi,

> Congratulations on a job well done even though you felt horrible to begin

> with. You did it; that was the most important for you.

Thanks !! It has been good. But totally hard. I built 5 laptops today and

the config had faults, and I had to fix 5 in one hour, and the 5 were done

over about 4 hours previously. Wow, am I tired and in pain.

ALSO, please wish me luck at a concert tomorrow night , Wednesday night Aus

time, when I am backing a singer who is covering the song SLIDE. Not much in

terms of difficulty, but the extensive strumming may make my hands spasm.

And if things work out I may be doing the AEROSMITH armageddon song next

Monday, but that will be easy because it will be on electric guitar and much

easier to play ( except when I do the show off bits :-)

Regards

.

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" ...the only person I have to be better than,is the person I was yesterday. "

[Guest guest]

Hi everyone: It is great to be back, finally have a new computer, and

hopefully set up as before.

I would like everyones input. I finally had my appointment for a

" Re-Evaluation " with the Pain treatment Md.to say the least it was a TOTAL JOKE.

He wanted to let me know that there were " inconsistancies " (sp) in my

physicial therapy eval. He even was so brazen as to tell me that he feels

that I'm " gunshy " in that some movments I could do with the group of muscels

other movments I

could not do. DuH, when you move your legs, arms, or raise your arm palm up

compared to palm down for example, or swing your arm in front of you

compared to placing it behind your back.

He wants me to reduce my Mt Dew down to 2- 8oz glasses per day.

He wants me in Physicial Therapy, and Ot plus to go to Bio-Feed back.

All of which I have to drive 65 miles 1 way which in our area that is 1 1/2

hours. Then have PT / OT then an hour of Bio-feedback. Plus then pay for the

extremely expensive parking garage. $3.50 per hour

I had several questions written down, one was my last MRI of my Spine was 2

years ago, have not even had so much as an X-ray since, I am having more

discomfort in my lower spine, and I asked him if we could do an MRI to

compare it to my last one. " I really think that Physicial therapy and

possibly some trigger point injections will make things all better "

Yes this MD and I use that term LOOSLEY, has a Please forgive me

a " God Complex " He would not listen to my reasoning, in that we could

compare the previous films to the current film.

I also asked for a Sed Rate to see if I'm showing any blood work

inflamation. " I really do not think that is necessary "

I firmly believe that all this is based upon the fact that I have met my out

of pocket deductable for not only my Health Insurance, but also Medicare.

So the HMO is trying to save themselves money by Under treating their

patients. I have already asked for a referral to an outlying hospital, my

family practice MD told his nurse to tell me that he can not refer outside of

the HMO. Well I came home and phoned the HMO and they can refer outside the HMO,

with

a Prior Auth. So I am to return to the pain clinic on this coming Tues. and I'm

going in

with an ATTITUDE. Give me what I am entitled to. I deserve adequate pain

control,

plus approiate treatment for my conditions. I do not want to sit around and

let them save money while it may be effecting me physically as well as

mentally.

Jeff

jkeith@...

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 6/1/99 10:22:03 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

santeri@... writes:

<< ALSO, please wish me luck at a concert tomorrow night , Wednesday night Aus

time >>

Wow, :

I'm impressed. FOLKS, we have a wonderful talent in our midst. Sit up and

pay attention to THE man. Congratulations. You'll do wonderfully well. How

could you not with us all sitting right there with you to help?

{{{and pain-free wishes}}}

Carol

" In the little decisions of life, use your mind; in the big decisions of

life, use your heart. " [author unknown]

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 6/1/99 4:06:21 PM Eastern Daylight Time, jkeith@...

writes:

<< I have already asked for a referral to an outlying hospital, my

family practice MD told his nurse to tell me that he cannot refer outside of

the HMO. Well I came home and phoned the HMO and they can refer outside the

HMO, with a Prior Auth. >>

Hi, Jeff:

I am appalled at the way you were treated. Get that Attitude and take it

back there with you and tell them what's what. Also, if possible, get copies

of your medical records. Go get them.

{{{and pain-free wishes}}}

Carol

" In the little decisions of life, use your mind; in the big decisions of

life, use your heart. " [author unknown]

[Guest guest]

Hi, :-)

> I'm impressed. FOLKS, we have a wonderful talent in our midst.

> Sit up and

> pay attention to THE man. Congratulations. You'll do

> wonderfully well. How

> could you not with us all sitting right there with you to help?

Well :-)

The place loved my guitar playing, but the singer was not so well received.

Seems like I made an impression with the guitar playing.

Now I just have to hope I get a shot at doing the Aerosmith song next

Monday. Just as a backing Guitarist.

Regards

.

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Milton |santeri@...

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" It's About NOT Giving Up !! " , Robin in

the film WHAT DREAMS SHALL COME.

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 6/2/99 5:51:44 PM Eastern Daylight Time,

santeri@... writes:

<< Seems like I made an impression with the guitar playing.

Now I just have to hope I get a shot at doing the Aerosmith song next

Monday. Just as a backing Guitarist. >>

:

That's still terrific. YOU made the impression and you made it through the

show. Keeping fingers crossed about you're getting the Aerosmith song.

{{{and pain-free wishes}}}

Carol

" In the little decisions of life, use your mind; in the big decisions of

life, use your heart. " [author unknown]