Guest guest Posted June 26, 2004 Report Share Posted June 26, 2004 Randy, you just get thru one minute at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time. Wish I was closer so I could give you a big hug in person. When is your next doctor's appt? {{{{{{{{{Randy}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Faith is the ability to not panic. -----Original Message-----From: Randy Sent: Saturday, June 26, 2004 9:26 PMTo: HepatitisCSupportGroupForDummies Subject: Curious...It's funny how, with this disease, you can be sitting enjoying a television show then all of a sudden, seemingly out of nowhere a fear and/or panic grips you and all the implications of this illness grips you ever so tight and the reality of the situation comes to light. I feel all alone, scared, lonely and extremely helpless...not knowing where to turn I want to reach out to something or somebody and there doesn't seem to be anyone there! I know that I can't always have things just the way I want them but this is one of those times when I could really use a physical human being to reach out to and physically touch just for a little comfort and reassurance and maybe I would feel a little bit better but that "someone" is no where to be found! This is such a scary, scary feeling! Probably the worst I've had since I was diagnosed in March!!!!!!! I am completely lost and don't know what to do or where to turn!!! Why do I have to feel this way? Why wont this feeling go away? How am I going to survive this? I just don't know!But I do know I can't handle this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...............Randy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 26, 2004 Report Share Posted June 26, 2004 Randy, I know you don't know me, as I have not been around much, however I have been a member of this group for almost a year now. When I read your letter - I was so compelled to write. I felt the same way you did at first, I think allot of people do - so you are not alone in feeling this way. But in time and with many friends and the support that you will find here - things become easier and you find your way. The biggest thing I can tell you is I became much closer to my God and Jesus my savior - and I also learned that situations such as this - finding out we have hep-c, are far to great for us to carry the load ourselves. Therefore I had to learn to turn it over to my higher power and ask that he carry it for me. And I must tell you that this disease has been it's own blessing in disguise - for it has humbled me so. I have made friendships that I wouldn't trade for anything. And I learned allot about human beings, their compassion for one another. I learned to trust once again and to lean on others when needed. There is nothing pretty about hep-c, but we can handle it and we do. And more importantly - life does continue even with this dragon - I can promise that. You have chosen a great bunch of people here to help you and they will if you just let me. There is also allot of knowledge here too - which that is one of the best things that you can do for yourself is educate. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 26, 2004 Report Share Posted June 26, 2004 Randy, I know you don't know me, as I have not been around much, however I have been a member of this group for almost a year now. When I read your letter - I was so compelled to write. I felt the same way you did at first, I think allot of people do - so you are not alone in feeling this way. But in time and with many friends and the support that you will find here - things become easier and you find your way. The biggest thing I can tell you is I became much closer to my God and Jesus my savior - and I also learned that situations such as this - finding out we have hep-c, are far to great for us to carry the load ourselves. Therefore I had to learn to turn it over to my higher power and ask that he carry it for me. And I must tell you that this disease has been it's own blessing in disguise - for it has humbled me so. I have made friendships that I wouldn't trade for anything. And I learned allot about human beings, their compassion for one another. I learned to trust once again and to lean on others when needed. There is nothing pretty about hep-c, but we can handle it and we do. And more importantly - life does continue even with this dragon - I can promise that. You have chosen a great bunch of people here to help you and they will if you just let me. There is also allot of knowledge here too - which that is one of the best things that you can do for yourself is educate. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 28, 2004 Report Share Posted June 28, 2004 Randy, I absolluty understad how you are feeliing.. Athhena Curious... > It's funny how, with this disease, you can be sitting enjoying a > television show then all of a sudden, seemingly out of nowhere a fear > and/or panic grips you and all the implications of this illness grips > you ever so tight and the reality of the situation comes to light. I > feel all alone, scared, lonely and extremely helpless...not knowing > where to turn I want to reach out to something or somebody and there > doesn't seem to be anyone there! I know that I can't always have > things just the way I want them but this is one of those times when I > could really use a physical human being to reach out to and > physically touch just for a little comfort and reassurance and maybe > I would feel a little bit better but that " someone " is no where to be > found! This is such a scary, scary feeling! Probably the worst I've > had since I was diagnosed in March!!!!!!! I am completely lost and > don't know what to do or where to turn!!! Why do I have to feel this > way? Why wont this feeling go away? How am I going to survive this? I > just don't know!But I do know I can't handle > this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!............... > Randy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 28, 2004 Report Share Posted June 28, 2004 Randy, I absolluty understad how you are feeliing.. Athhena Curious... > It's funny how, with this disease, you can be sitting enjoying a > television show then all of a sudden, seemingly out of nowhere a fear > and/or panic grips you and all the implications of this illness grips > you ever so tight and the reality of the situation comes to light. I > feel all alone, scared, lonely and extremely helpless...not knowing > where to turn I want to reach out to something or somebody and there > doesn't seem to be anyone there! I know that I can't always have > things just the way I want them but this is one of those times when I > could really use a physical human being to reach out to and > physically touch just for a little comfort and reassurance and maybe > I would feel a little bit better but that " someone " is no where to be > found! This is such a scary, scary feeling! Probably the worst I've > had since I was diagnosed in March!!!!!!! I am completely lost and > don't know what to do or where to turn!!! Why do I have to feel this > way? Why wont this feeling go away? How am I going to survive this? I > just don't know!But I do know I can't handle > this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!............... > Randy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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