so upset!!!!!!!

[Guest guest]

Hello, I hope you are all well! I am trying to cope w/ things, but I

have been yelling at my boyfriend and saying really nasty things....

This is new. I am so stressed about my health and my future. I have

tried therapy but it never seems to work. I want this to go away so

badly . i have started a new life w/ my boyfriend. We have plans of

getting married and raising a family. I want this more than anything,

and I keep coming up w/ more problems! I know you all have the same

deal as I do. I look up to so many of you for the way you handle this

yukky Horrible dragon of a disease. I hope to be as brave as you all. I

am so scared of what my life is becoming. It seems like more pain all

the time, more twisted joints and more damage to my body and mind. My

boyfriend is a saint. He does not deserve to be spoken to the way I

have been to him. I just get this horrible rage feeling , like there is

a volcano in my chest. I get so frustrated , and at the time it happens

there seems to be no reason. I love so much. I can't stop crying

and I can't sleep. I feel like I am ruining my life. I keep having

nightmares. I have been crying or sometimes screaming in my sleep.

has been telling me in the morning. I am always very vocal in my

sleep when I am flaring and in a lot of pain. I don't know who else to

talk to but all of you. I don't have hardly any friends left. Sometimes

I feel like I am surviving just to survive. I need to try and calm down

love,

Sharon

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 3/18/2005 7:29:17 AM Eastern Standard Time,

sharon@... writes:

Sometimes

I feel like I am surviving just to survive. I need to try and calm down

love,

done that, been there. Oh sweetie, as others have recommended, try for an

antidepressent - I made my husband (then boyfriend) sign a note saying that he

would NOT leave me as long as I was on steroids (they made me nuts - like

someone had a remote control on my emotions and it wasn't ME! One minute

laughing, the next screaming at Al. That poor man. No matter what he goes thru

with

the fibro, I will never forget what he had to put up with when on High

Steroids). It will get better and continue to vent to us as long as you need

to.

Love Carole in Hollywood FL

[Guest guest]

Sharon, keep one thing in the front of your mind.... obviously

understands or he wouldn't be there for you right now.

I know how you feel as I " leaned " on my wife pretty hard several times in the

last year. We got through it, and you will too.

One thing that seemed to help me out a lot was Zoloft. I am up to 200 mg/day

and really haven't become that pissed off since. I am also on Buspirone 30 mg

twice a day and that can't hurt either.

Maybe your Dr. can prescribe something that will work for you in this

matter. It took them a while to find a combination that works for me but they

did. Now if they could only do the same for the headaches and the rest of my

body.

Kirk

so upset!!!!!!!

Hello, I hope you are all well! I am trying to cope w/ things, but I

have been yelling at my boyfriend and saying really nasty things....

This is new. I am so stressed about my health and my future. I have

tried therapy but it never seems to work. I want this to go away so

badly . i have started a new life w/ my boyfriend. We have plans of

getting married and raising a family. I want this more than anything,

and I keep coming up w/ more problems! I know you all have the same

deal as I do. I look up to so many of you for the way you handle this

yukky Horrible dragon of a disease. I hope to be as brave as you all. I

am so scared of what my life is becoming. It seems like more pain all

the time, more twisted joints and more damage to my body and mind. My

boyfriend is a saint. He does not deserve to be spoken to the way I

have been to him. I just get this horrible rage feeling , like there is

a volcano in my chest. I get so frustrated , and at the time it happens

there seems to be no reason. I love so much. I can't stop crying

and I can't sleep. I feel like I am ruining my life. I keep having

nightmares. I have been crying or sometimes screaming in my sleep.

has been telling me in the morning. I am always very vocal in my

sleep when I am flaring and in a lot of pain. I don't know who else to

talk to but all of you. I don't have hardly any friends left. Sometimes

I feel like I am surviving just to survive. I need to try and calm down

love,

Sharon

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[Guest guest]

Sharon,

I can not remember if you are on pred. if yes, this may be the

lovely steroid rage some of us experience. My son definately gets

it. Please talk to your doc about it!!!