a big vent - you don't have to read it all! (OT)

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well I just need to vent a small bit. I don't normally do this,

because I hate to be off topic, and I hate to hang out my 'dirty

laundry' so to speak or I just really hate to bring others down.

well this isn't really a terrible thing, I just need to get out some

of the stresses of this week.

So you all know that I've resolved to do Tae Bo more in prep for the

L.A. trip. My first frustration this week is that I have had

SOMETHING to do every night of the week, almost immediately after I

return from work. SO I haven't been able to Tae Bo since Sunday!!!

It's driving me insane.

The other thing is - I talked briefly about my sleeping problems and

the fact that I didn't know why I wa shaving them. Now I do, it is

severe stress and self inflicted anxiety. It got so annoying that I

made a doctor's appointment monday night to see what they could do to

help me. The 'best' part of all of this is, monday night is a school

night - and the only appointment available was at 6:30, when school

started. So I decided to take it and be late for class (stressful in

of itself). I rushed around after work, leaving early even - came

home ate some quick dinner, and ran off to the doctors. Got in, was

told it's stress, and anxiety because I keep thinking about how I

will not sleep, which makes it harder for me TO sleep. She gave me

xanax, told me to take it every night for a week, and then I should

be back to normal. I have, and it works. So I ran to drop off my

prescrip. to the store on my way up to school, get to school 45

minutes late, and guess what, my teacher got hung up somewhere and

NEVER showed up!!! So i rushed all around for NOTHING and then I get

to class and NO CLASS! I paid 300 bucks for 5 nights of this class,

and there's one down the drain....

Tuesday I was so tired because the xanax gave me a hangover, my body

fought it the first night and I felt overtired tues. Made it to

work, but felt useless all day. Came home, felt like doing

nothing... too tired to do anything. Then yesterday was the kicker.

I had gone through all this hell to get my husband's car to the

dealership early yesterday morning, to have it detailed as a surprise

to him. he is IN LOVE with this old car, it's his baby. I took it to

his most trusted place, the Toyota dealership to have it done

figuring I can't go wrong here. Well my husband was ALL excited

after work, when I told him where he had to take me and what I had

done. They drove his car around, and they COMPLETELY RUINED the

paint job on the front end of the car, and BUFFED a horrible circle

into his VERY EXPENSIVE wheel covers!!!! My god... what a great

birthday present! I felt like a complete piece of $hit. Not to

mention that the dealership said they couldn't do anything about it

until the guy who did the work came in the next day. And to top it

off, I had SCHOOL again tonight, and I was LATE yet again, had about

2 minutes to shove in pizza, then got to school half hour late...

I figured, well I've missed one class thanks to the teacher, half

hour of tonight thanks to me, and I have 3 more left. THEN I was

signing the SIGN in sheet for class, and I noticed that everyone else

had signed in THREE time, and I had only 2 including tonight. I

asked why, and was informed that classs had started LAST WEDNESDAY

and I MISSED IT!!! I didn't even know, I read the schedule wrong... I

could swear it said monday, but teacher said the rest of the class

showed up... MY GOD I've missed half the class! If I don't pass it,

I don't get reimbursed.

Sheesh guys, I'm so sorry. And to top this all off, I'm supposed to

have my highlights redone tonight before I leave saturday for a

wedding. My bro's girlfriend (it's her friend who's doing it) called

me at 10:30 last night and WOKE ME UP out of a dead sleep, only to

tell me that the hairdresser's mom found out she has cancer, and the

gal might have to fly down to se eher if they do an emergency removal

of the tumor... which means, NO HAIR APPOINTMENT FOR AMY! (i am not

at all belittling the gal's problems, I don't blame her one bit).

GREAT! On my birthday, NO hair apointment... no one that can fit me

in this last minute. So my bro's gf says she thinks her other

hairdresser can do it, but she charges TWICE as much!!! ARGHHH!!!!

Then my doctor's appointment for tomorrow called around 8 to tell me

my Doctor has a meeting and may not be out in time to see me (female

doctor) but they are going to 'chance it' and let me keep my

apopintment. CAN ANYTHING ELSE GO WRONG?? CAN IT??? IF IT DOES CAN

IT DO IT NOW?? PLEASE????? I have never in all my life had such a

horrible week, and a horrible birthday much less the fact that I

can't find 2 minutes to Tae Bo!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I am SO SO SO sorry this is so long, it felt really good to just type

it out. PLEASE don't feel like you have to give me some long winded

reply, I know this week will end soon. Just let me get thru it gals

and guys!!! Let me get my Tae Bo back... I need it! If you made it

thru this whole post let me give you a HUGE MEDAL!

Amy