Yikes

[Guest guest]

I've been listening to 's podcast for a while now. It's really

helped me to get things moving in the right direction again. I've

been trying to lose weight for about a year, and I've lost about 45

lbs. Still have about 40 lbs. to ultimate goal. Things have been

going really well lately- I am really starting to eat with much more

awareness and have been grazing much less. I love the podcasts, and

I have learned so much.

SO- the other day (wednesday) I took a pregnancy test because I knew

I was a little late, but didn't think much of it because I have an

IUD... turns out I am pregnant, but my hormone levels aren't

increasing normally and as of now it looks like it could be abnormal-

ectopic most likely. Wasn't planning on being pregnant right now,

but not completely against having another baby some day. My emotions

are a mess- I'm upset that I'm pregnant, I'm excited I'm pregnant. I

hope everything is okay, I'll be okay if it's not... I wanted to get

to my goal weight before getting pregnant again. I'm just recently

starting to fit into clothes that I've been saving forever (almost 3

years!) and now I might not get into them for another year! Or maybe

I will, but I won't be having another baby right away, which for some

reason is making me sad even though I didn't even THINK about being

pregnant before Wednesday. I ate almost a whole chocolate bar in the

past few days- they usually last me a week or two. Is it okay to

continue on a lower calorie intake until I know for sure that it

might be an actual pregnancy? Or should I bump it up a little until

I know for sure? I actually lost a pound this week even though I had

a horrible cold, didn't exercise for 4 days, ate about 300 to 400

calories more per day then I have been for a long time, and sat

around a lot. The IUD is out now, and nothing has happened yet, I

get another blood test for the hormone levels on Tuesday. I'm doing

surprisingly well, not feeling too much like I need to eat my entire

pantry in order to de stress. I DID run 4 miles today, my lungs feel

much better, and I feel SO much better now that I've moved a bit. Is

the good witch of the East? What is this spell that is cast

over me? Normally in a situation like this I would have already

gained 5 lbs!! This post is really just for me to get all this stuff

out of my head and down on " paper " , but if you do have any advice,

I'll listen!!

Karilee