I did it!

[Guest guest]

I have been struggling A LOT with finding my way back to posititivity.

Some background . . .I know that I've mentioned before that my

husband can be a bit pessimistic (deservedly so, he's had an

incredibly hard life). I try and be optimistic, but struggle with

chemical depression.

Finding gave me -- for a while -- a new lease on life. I really

felt I had conquered my negativity demons. That was this past fall.

Winter comes along (shorter days and some S.A.D) and is coupled with

some financial struggles. My husband and I run successful marketing

and biz development firms and suddenly, clients are going out of

business right and left due to market conditions, which means our

base is " sketchy " right now.

BUT -- we have found an INCREDIBLE project. Truly a life-changing

opportunity in the renewable energy sector. Amazing technology. And,

as is our business, we are " shopping " the company for investment. We

have dozens of qualified investment leads.

So this morning, two of those leads " tanked. " They said " no " -- one

because their money is too entrenched in other projects, the other is

an old business " rival " of my husbands (who I loathe, but we could

not properly represent our clients if we didn't pursue every lead).

He's in England and, for many reasons, our representative there

didn't get a " go " on the deal. BUT I DID NOT WANT to " get in bed "

with this guy anyway. He's horrid!

So, when my husband came in to tell me this, calling it a " Horrid

start to the day " -- I said

" Honey? YAY!!!!!! First of all, we know that it's NOT because

company " a " is not interested, it's because their money is tied up.

And Second -- I did not want to work with that JERK. I didn't want

him to have a part of this at all. I don't trust him. We would be

constantly looking over our shoulders to make sure he didn't screw

our clients . . .I'm just so glad he's out of the picture and we can

move on. AND, on the bright side, these meetings forced us to produce

some new info, provide additional research, etc. ALL of which will be

beneficial to the NEXT dozen presentations we are lining up. "

And he said " what are you taking, happy pills? " And this is where I'd

normally cave but I stood up to him and I said " Yes -- if we don't

start looking at setbacks as OPPORTUNITIES we will shoot ourselves in

the feet. "

AND. HE. AGREED.

HUGE VICTORY for ME. And maybe a TINY breakthrough for him?

Woo hoo! It's made my morning and I am enthused to set my intent to

take care of myself the rest of the day!!!

I'm BACK!!!