Re: Realization this week...

[Guest guest]

First OF ALL BALONEY to the running longer distances is bad for you. I've

half marathons at 190, which is 70 pounds more than I am now. You find some

races with Athena divisions and slaughter the competition. Run as you can.

Don't let the skinny folk beat you. It's a mind game. I reel them in like

fish, although I am VERY slow. Just trying to build up to 6 mph, when I've

been a 5 mph runner for years. I'm like a turtle.

You should also NOT RUN WITH VERTIGO! That's your mind saying, " take a day

off. " Today's my day off running. I'm going to pop a dance video in later

(cause I don't' feel good without exercise of some kid for half an hour) and

boogie. You keep up your long slow distances, your speed drills and your

regular runs and the weight will take care of itself. I eat HEAVY whole

grain bread in the morning with some form for protein on the plate and that

helps.

I could run 17 miles at 190 and I anyone who told me I couldn't was welcome

to feel the tail wind coming of my back.

Oh, and STOP comparing yourself. LOOK WHERE YOU ARE!!!!!!!!! I wish you were

close, but you leave me in the dust. You should tri tri's. If you can swim

and like it. Biking helps your running. Running won't help your biking,

sadly.

Hugs

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From: insideoutweightloss

[mailto:insideoutweightloss ] On Behalf Of clmulligan

Sent: Sunday, February 15, 2009 12:33 PM

To: insideoutweightloss

Subject: Realization this week...

It's official: I'm full of crap.

I ran 9.15K this morning. I started my 5K clinic last October and

despite having 70 lbs to lose, I was faster than all but 2 in my group

because I work out all the time, spinning and step classes..

They moved on to the 10K clinic and I was all " dude! you can only

expect a body with 70 lbs too much of fat to go a certain distance

before it breaks down " but I went along anyway...

I used to run with the slower ladies from time to time to not leave

them alone.. and I was all " don't compare yourself to anyone other

than .. whatever " like the fact that the couch potato is running and

the other couch potatoes are still on the couch..

Well, now everyone (but 2 ladies) are faster than I am because they

caught up to my cardio health but they don't have 70 lbs to lose so

they are FASTER than I am now..

I am comparing myself to them, so essentially what I told those others

ladies is just crap. Heh.

As I ran today (ended up 8 minutes behind the group!! Alone.. sick

with a small cold and I have vertigo right now.. but alone) I was

thinking about how I never had a goal of 10K at 230 lbs.. I am

running for me. Finishing at 5MPH isn't that bad as I am not a runner..

I did the 9.15K. I thought about not going the distance so I could

catch up (8K instead) but did the distance because I am running for me.

Well, I get back to the group and they are mad that I was left alone

(especially seeing as I woke up with vertigo this morning and vertigo

causes me an insane amount of anxiety because basically I live the

Blair Witch Projects even when I'm sleeping so I just never ever

rest).. I didn't care that I was alone as I don't want to hold other

people up from their goals.

but I feel bad that I am not gaining speed (I run the 9K only slightly

slower than my 5K) and I don't want them to not gain speed. I am

thinking that I should run the long runs with my dog because she

doesn't care what speed I run.

*sigh*

[Guest guest]

Thanks, ..

I had never heard of the Athena division. I should try that. When I

run a race (which I like to call an organized distance.. because I'm

not there to win) I usually target the chubby ladies to beat. I

always do beat them, too.

I trained for a triathlon 3 1/2 years ago.. and then 3 days before

the event, I got a 2nd degree sunburn on my shoulder and no way would

I put that into Lake Ontario. So I didn't do it and I felt like a

failure and have for years since. I thought the 5K would help me

realize that meh, I can do it.. but no.. not so much.

(I wish my period that is late would just start and my emotions would

chill)

Corinna

>

> First OF ALL BALONEY to the running longer distances is bad for you.

I've

> half marathons at 190, which is 70 pounds more than I am now. You

find some

> races with Athena divisions and slaughter the competition. Run as

you can.

> Don't let the skinny folk beat you. It's a mind game. I reel them in

like

> fish, although I am VERY slow. Just trying to build up to 6 mph,

when I've

> been a 5 mph runner for years. I'm like a turtle.

>

>

>

> You should also NOT RUN WITH VERTIGO! That's your mind saying, " take

a day

> off. " Today's my day off running. I'm going to pop a dance video in

later

> (cause I don't' feel good without exercise of some kid for half an

hour) and

> boogie. You keep up your long slow distances, your speed drills and your

> regular runs and the weight will take care of itself. I eat HEAVY whole

> grain bread in the morning with some form for protein on the plate

and that

> helps.

>

>

>

> I could run 17 miles at 190 and I anyone who told me I couldn't was

welcome

> to feel the tail wind coming of my back.

>

>

>

> Oh, and STOP comparing yourself. LOOK WHERE YOU ARE!!!!!!!!! I wish

you were

> close, but you leave me in the dust. You should tri tri's. If you

can swim

> and like it. Biking helps your running. Running won't help your biking,

> sadly.

>

>

>

> Hugs

>

>

>

> It's all sassy fabulous: <http://blog.liedel.org/> Blog.liedel.org

>

>

>

> From: insideoutweightloss

> [mailto:insideoutweightloss ] On Behalf Of clmulligan

> Sent: Sunday, February 15, 2009 12:33 PM

> To: insideoutweightloss

> Subject: Realization this week...

>

>

>

>

>

> It's official: I'm full of crap.

>

> I ran 9.15K this morning. I started my 5K clinic last October and

> despite having 70 lbs to lose, I was faster than all but 2 in my group

> because I work out all the time, spinning and step classes..

>

> They moved on to the 10K clinic and I was all " dude! you can only

> expect a body with 70 lbs too much of fat to go a certain distance

> before it breaks down " but I went along anyway...

>

> I used to run with the slower ladies from time to time to not leave

> them alone.. and I was all " don't compare yourself to anyone other

> than .. whatever " like the fact that the couch potato is running and

> the other couch potatoes are still on the couch..

>

> Well, now everyone (but 2 ladies) are faster than I am because they

> caught up to my cardio health but they don't have 70 lbs to lose so

> they are FASTER than I am now..

>

> I am comparing myself to them, so essentially what I told those others

> ladies is just crap. Heh.

>

> As I ran today (ended up 8 minutes behind the group!! Alone.. sick

> with a small cold and I have vertigo right now.. but alone) I was

> thinking about how I never had a goal of 10K at 230 lbs.. I am

> running for me. Finishing at 5MPH isn't that bad as I am not a runner..

>

> I did the 9.15K. I thought about not going the distance so I could

> catch up (8K instead) but did the distance because I am running for me.

>

> Well, I get back to the group and they are mad that I was left alone

> (especially seeing as I woke up with vertigo this morning and vertigo

> causes me an insane amount of anxiety because basically I live the

> Blair Witch Projects even when I'm sleeping so I just never ever

> rest).. I didn't care that I was alone as I don't want to hold other

> people up from their goals.

>

> but I feel bad that I am not gaining speed (I run the 9K only slightly

> slower than my 5K) and I don't want them to not gain speed. I am

> thinking that I should run the long runs with my dog because she

> doesn't care what speed I run.

>

> *sigh*

>

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Oh yeah - my vertigo isn't that bad.. I did take a decongestant and

it helped.. it just explains my anxiety this week as I am just not

properly rested.. It's hard to explain.

And! I think my ego can't handle that they waited around for me and

were mad no one slowed down and stayed with me. THEY have good

intentions, but my ego was bruised.

I have to remember that if they were to throw 70 lbs on their backs,

they'd be WAY slower than me. Hehehe

Thanks again,

Corinna

>

> First OF ALL BALONEY to the running longer distances is bad for you.

I've

> half marathons at 190, which is 70 pounds more than I am now. You

find some

> races with Athena divisions and slaughter the competition. Run as

you can.

> Don't let the skinny folk beat you. It's a mind game. I reel them in

like

> fish, although I am VERY slow. Just trying to build up to 6 mph,

when I've

> been a 5 mph runner for years. I'm like a turtle.

>

>

>

> You should also NOT RUN WITH VERTIGO! That's your mind saying, " take

a day

> off. " Today's my day off running. I'm going to pop a dance video in

later

> (cause I don't' feel good without exercise of some kid for half an

hour) and

> boogie. You keep up your long slow distances, your speed drills and your

> regular runs and the weight will take care of itself. I eat HEAVY whole

> grain bread in the morning with some form for protein on the plate

and that

> helps.

>

>

>

> I could run 17 miles at 190 and I anyone who told me I couldn't was

welcome

> to feel the tail wind coming of my back.

>

>

>

> Oh, and STOP comparing yourself. LOOK WHERE YOU ARE!!!!!!!!! I wish

you were

> close, but you leave me in the dust. You should tri tri's. If you

can swim

> and like it. Biking helps your running. Running won't help your biking,

> sadly.

>

>

>

> Hugs

>

>

>

> It's all sassy fabulous: <http://blog.liedel.org/> Blog.liedel.org

>

>

>

> From: insideoutweightloss

> [mailto:insideoutweightloss ] On Behalf Of clmulligan

> Sent: Sunday, February 15, 2009 12:33 PM

> To: insideoutweightloss

> Subject: Realization this week...

>

>

>

>

>

> It's official: I'm full of crap.

>

> I ran 9.15K this morning. I started my 5K clinic last October and

> despite having 70 lbs to lose, I was faster than all but 2 in my group

> because I work out all the time, spinning and step classes..

>

> They moved on to the 10K clinic and I was all " dude! you can only

> expect a body with 70 lbs too much of fat to go a certain distance

> before it breaks down " but I went along anyway...

>

> I used to run with the slower ladies from time to time to not leave

> them alone.. and I was all " don't compare yourself to anyone other

> than .. whatever " like the fact that the couch potato is running and

> the other couch potatoes are still on the couch..

>

> Well, now everyone (but 2 ladies) are faster than I am because they

> caught up to my cardio health but they don't have 70 lbs to lose so

> they are FASTER than I am now..

>

> I am comparing myself to them, so essentially what I told those others

> ladies is just crap. Heh.

>

> As I ran today (ended up 8 minutes behind the group!! Alone.. sick

> with a small cold and I have vertigo right now.. but alone) I was

> thinking about how I never had a goal of 10K at 230 lbs.. I am

> running for me. Finishing at 5MPH isn't that bad as I am not a runner..

>

> I did the 9.15K. I thought about not going the distance so I could

> catch up (8K instead) but did the distance because I am running for me.

>

> Well, I get back to the group and they are mad that I was left alone

> (especially seeing as I woke up with vertigo this morning and vertigo

> causes me an insane amount of anxiety because basically I live the

> Blair Witch Projects even when I'm sleeping so I just never ever

> rest).. I didn't care that I was alone as I don't want to hold other

> people up from their goals.

>

> but I feel bad that I am not gaining speed (I run the 9K only slightly

> slower than my 5K) and I don't want them to not gain speed. I am

> thinking that I should run the long runs with my dog because she

> doesn't care what speed I run.

>

> *sigh*

>

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks Anush.. It doesn't feel like much to me as this is the first

time in my life that this has happened to me.. My weight has never

held me back like this.. Now, hypothetically I am a very competitive

person.. I will catch up and pass them!

>

> WOW...Corinna, you're amazing!!! 

> I hope you're feeling better now, but wow...

> it's fantastic that you were able to do all that.

> Anush

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