Wanted to introduce myself

[Guest guest]

I found the podcasts about a week ago, and have made it through

three. I am mother of two, 34 years old. I work a desk job (and

have the last three years). I have slowly gained weight over that

time. Seventy pounds actually. One of the podcasts talks about the

away motivation and the towards motivation..and I noticed that I was

doing something that was mentioned. When I would lose a little

weight and be comfortable in my 'big' jeans I would stop doing what

was working, and get back to the 'same old' routine. I also was

thinking about 'getting to the size I once was'. I have an array of

sizes in my closet, but one major thing is different in my life now

that was a staple back when I was fit. A floor length mirror. I

noticed that I've stopped looking at myself. As if the weight isn't

there if I don't see it. I want to move towards being fit enough to

exercise each day. I want to move away from being overweight, of

course, but the uncomfortable feeling I have within my own skin. I

want to eat for energy sake only, and find my enjoyment in hobbies

(painting, reading, travel) rather than just fine dining or

chocolate. I hope to find support through these posts as I find

motivation that is stronger. Sadly, I think I feel safer in an

overweight body. How do I get to a point that I feel safe in a fit

body? I know this may sound odd to some, but hopefully someone will

understand.