Guest guest Posted October 16, 2008 Report Share Posted October 16, 2008 Hi field83, Welcome to the 50s! IT is the best ever! I love it! I understand your apprehension, but you are not your Mother. That must be hard to lose your Mother so young! Welcome to Inside Out weight loss, I have been listening since back early spring I think. I " stumbled " upon it. It has revolutionized my life! Children going off to college, ah that was a hard one for me, especially when the last one left for college. You are an amazing woman, so much more than a number on a scale! I lost weight with weight watchers and have been Lifetime for 10 years, but my battles with weight and self continued, until . I genuinely like myself! You are at the right place! I am here to cheer you on and send you great intention for an easy fun slide to your goal weight and naturally thinness and resilient health. Please keep me updated! Welcome welcome, we are so glad you are here! Leah On Thu, Oct 16, 2008 at 6:52 AM, copperfield83 wrote: > Hello Everyone, > This is my first post. I have listened to all of 's podcasts > several times, and eagerly await new arrivals. While I feel I've > learned a lot from them, I am having a hard time implementing the > philosophy into my own life. I will be turning 50 in November, and I > never expected to feel as nervous as I do--my mother died at 58, so > I think I'm a little superstitious about that " decade. " Anyway, I am > the mother of two beautiful daughters, one just started college this > year, another milestone and a bit of an emotional challenge, and the > other is 16 and a junior in high school. Both have unfortunatley > adoped my food as the antidote for eveyrthing habits, and I am so > sorry for not being a better role model. My husband is wonderful, > has never been critical of my wieght in any way, just supportive and > after 25 years of marriage, I am still totally in love with him and > blessed to have him. I work from home, as a freelance copywriter. > Becuase of that, I've been lucky enough to be home with my children > for the past 18 years. Mostly, I enjoy the freedom and flexibility, > though feel somewhat isolated at times--my work is primarily > conducted via email and phone, with occasional face to face > meetings. I go through times (like now) where work is slow and I > have a lot of time on my hands, but the proximity to the frig is bad > when I'm busy (eat becuase of deadlines then--there's always a > reason!) and when I'm not (truthfully, it gets boring). I have > struggled and struggled with my weight all my life, my earliest > memory is of dreaming that I could be riding my tricyle down the > sidewalk and eating chocolate chip cookies without being fat, like > my best friend was able to do. Food was always a battleground in my > family--my mother was tall, slim and attractive, frowned on my > weight; my father was shorter, overweight and used food as a stress > reliever...had to maintain a certain weight for his job, diet pills, > the whole nine yards. He also frowned on my weight and picked on me > about it, ironically enough. I am 5'1 " and now weigh the most I ever > have (not pregnant), 165 lbs. Those last 5 pounds just arrived in > the last few weeks, and I can't seem to shake them, they've all > settled in my stomach. With a major family history of diabetes, this > is of course frightening, yet I continue to binge. I have always > liked to exercise, but even that has fallen off. I walk my dog most > days, try to do the treadmill, got a membership at a nice gym > nearby, but have not been in months, have done WW over and over. > Like most of us, I have had success, and then done plenty of > backsliding, only to start over again. Anyway, I guess I feel as if > my " bag of tricks " for weight loss has been exhausted. I don't know > if I'm weary from starting over or addicted to starting over--every > day, it's the first day until about 11 when I start eating. It's > almost like having some weird amnesia, where I eat like a zombie, > then feel bad afterwards. I read this and realize I sound like a > downer and a whiner, and right now I feel like one. Wnat to shake > this, get a grip and tackle this issue with courage, am loathe to > resign myself to fat middle-age-dom. Anyone else share these > feelings? How do you cope? Are you succeeding? Would love to help > and be helped. Thanks for listening. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 16, 2008 Report Share Posted October 16, 2008 Dear Leah, Thank you for your kind welcome and encouragement. Your experience is inspiring, becoming a lifetime member at WW was always something I have hoped to do. I see from your response and other posts that we are all in the same boat, it's good to be with such a nice group of people. Thanks. Re: New to Group Hi field83, Welcome to the 50s! IT is the best ever! I love it! I understand your apprehension, but you are not your Mother. That must be hard to lose your Mother so young! Welcome to Inside Out weight loss, I have been listening since back early spring I think. I " stumbled " upon it. It has revolutionized my life! Children going off to college, ah that was a hard one for me, especially when the last one left for college. You are an amazing woman, so much more than a number on a scale! I lost weight with weight watchers and have been Lifetime for 10 years, but my battles with weight and self continued, until . I genuinely like myself! You are at the right place! I am here to cheer you on and send you great intention for an easy fun slide to your goal weight and naturally thinness and resilient health. Please keep me updated! Welcome welcome, we are so glad you are here! Leah On Thu, Oct 16, 2008 at 6:52 AM, copperfield83 <copperfield83@ yahoo.com>wrote: > Hello Everyone, > This is my first post. I have listened to all of 's podcasts > several times, and eagerly await new arrivals. While I feel I've > learned a lot from them, I am having a hard time implementing the > philosophy into my own life. I will be turning 50 in November, and I > never expected to feel as nervous as I do--my mother died at 58, so > I think I'm a little superstitious about that " decade. " Anyway, I am > the mother of two beautiful daughters, one just started college this > year, another milestone and a bit of an emotional challenge, and the > other is 16 and a junior in high school. Both have unfortunatley > adoped my food as the antidote for eveyrthing habits, and I am so > sorry for not being a better role model. My husband is wonderful, > has never been critical of my wieght in any way, just supportive and > after 25 years of marriage, I am still totally in love with him and > blessed to have him. I work from home, as a freelance copywriter. > Becuase of that, I've been lucky enough to be home with my children > for the past 18 years. Mostly, I enjoy the freedom and flexibility, > though feel somewhat isolated at times--my work is primarily > conducted via email and phone, with occasional face to face > meetings. I go through times (like now) where work is slow and I > have a lot of time on my hands, but the proximity to the frig is bad > when I'm busy (eat becuase of deadlines then--there' s always a > reason!) and when I'm not (truthfully, it gets boring). I have > struggled and struggled with my weight all my life, my earliest > memory is of dreaming that I could be riding my tricyle down the > sidewalk and eating chocolate chip cookies without being fat, like > my best friend was able to do. Food was always a battleground in my > family--my mother was tall, slim and attractive, frowned on my > weight; my father was shorter, overweight and used food as a stress > reliever...had to maintain a certain weight for his job, diet pills, > the whole nine yards. He also frowned on my weight and picked on me > about it, ironically enough. I am 5'1 " and now weigh the most I ever > have (not pregnant), 165 lbs. Those last 5 pounds just arrived in > the last few weeks, and I can't seem to shake them, they've all > settled in my stomach. With a major family history of diabetes, this > is of course frightening, yet I continue to binge. I have always > liked to exercise, but even that has fallen off. I walk my dog most > days, try to do the treadmill, got a membership at a nice gym > nearby, but have not been in months, have done WW over and over. > Like most of us, I have had success, and then done plenty of > backsliding, only to start over again. Anyway, I guess I feel as if > my " bag of tricks " for weight loss has been exhausted. I don't know > if I'm weary from starting over or addicted to starting over--every > day, it's the first day until about 11 when I start eating. It's > almost like having some weird amnesia, where I eat like a zombie, > then feel bad afterwards. I read this and realize I sound like a > downer and a whiner, and right now I feel like one. Wnat to shake > this, get a grip and tackle this issue with courage, am loathe to > resign myself to fat middle-age-dom. Anyone else share these > feelings? How do you cope? Are you succeeding? Would love to help > and be helped. Thanks for listening. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 17, 2008 Report Share Posted October 17, 2008 Hi " Copperfield " ! I hear my thoughts and words resonating with your writing. I completely know what you are feeling and empathize. It is those feelings that lead me to this fantastic group. I just joined a couple weeks ago and am still working through the podcasts. I am still struggling but I do find I have much better days and a much better attitude if I tune into the podcasts daily and this group. Unfortunately for me, this week has been a bugger and I am way behind in reading all the posts and haven't listened to the podcasts for the last several days and I can tell you my eating habits reared their ugly heads. While writing my introduction, I literally cried with self loathing and guilt, truly at the bottom of the pit of despair and then cried with gratitude and relief in finding these great people and a few who shared some very good insight and kind words and now I look forward to the future with hope and excitement (when I am not feeling bad about myself or my transgressions). Luckily, the bad days are starting to be out numbered by the good and I have this group and and her podcasts to thank for it. I think the " homework " is a very important part of the success of this program and I really encourage you to do it, if you haven't already. (I am only on the 3rd podcast with homework but listened to up to #12 - I need to make the time!!!!) In the meantime, I am challenged to make the time to make me a priority -- making the time to give the attention to explore and contemplate the messages in the podcasts and on the board here. I am happy to meet you and hope you find as much solace, support and caring on this board as I have and more importantly, you find the love and caring for yourself that you need and deserve!! I am sure your family feels as lucky and blessed to have you as you do about them -- I have a wonderful husband and two beautiful stepdaughters we are raising (middle and high school) but face the same issues. Why can't my terrific husband and the girls (and the dogs) and the absolute love and joy I get and give to and with them be enough? Why do I still use food? Keep active, physically and with this group and the podcasts, and you (and I and others) will find our way. Every day, with little baby steps, just be a little bit more present, a little more active, a little more attentive to your body and its signals, and you will be naturally slim. Have a fantastic day and " be present " ! Thanks for writing! Heidi New to Group Hello Everyone, This is my first post. I have listened to all of 's podcasts several times, and eagerly await new arrivals. While I feel I've learned a lot from them, I am having a hard time implementing the philosophy into my own life. I will be turning 50 in November, and I never expected to feel as nervous as I do--my mother died at 58, so I think I'm a little superstitious about that " decade. " Anyway, I am the mother of two beautiful daughters, one just started college this year, another milestone and a bit of an emotional challenge, and the other is 16 and a junior in high school. Both have unfortunatley adoped my food as the antidote for eveyrthing habits, and I am so sorry for not being a better role model. My husband is wonderful, has never been critical of my wieght in any way, just supportive and after 25 years of marriage, I am still totally in love with him and blessed to have him. I work from home, as a freelance copywriter. Becuase of that, I've been lucky enough to be home with my children for the past 18 years. Mostly, I enjoy the freedom and flexibility, though feel somewhat isolated at times--my work is primarily conducted via email and phone, with occasional face to face meetings. I go through times (like now) where work is slow and I have a lot of time on my hands, but the proximity to the frig is bad when I'm busy (eat becuase of deadlines then--there' s always a reason!) and when I'm not (truthfully, it gets boring). I have struggled and struggled with my weight all my life, my earliest memory is of dreaming that I could be riding my tricyle down the sidewalk and eating chocolate chip cookies without being fat, like my best friend was able to do. Food was always a battleground in my family--my mother was tall, slim and attractive, frowned on my weight; my father was shorter, overweight and used food as a stress reliever...had to maintain a certain weight for his job, diet pills, the whole nine yards. He also frowned on my weight and picked on me about it, ironically enough. I am 5'1 " and now weigh the most I ever have (not pregnant), 165 lbs. Those last 5 pounds just arrived in the last few weeks, and I can't seem to shake them, they've all settled in my stomach. With a major family history of diabetes, this is of course frightening, yet I continue to binge. I have always liked to exercise, but even that has fallen off. I walk my dog most days, try to do the treadmill, got a membership at a nice gym nearby, but have not been in months, have done WW over and over. Like most of us, I have had success, and then done plenty of backsliding, only to start over again. Anyway, I guess I feel as if my " bag of tricks " for weight loss has been exhausted. I don't know if I'm weary from starting over or addicted to starting over--every day, it's the first day until about 11 when I start eating. It's almost like having some weird amnesia, where I eat like a zombie, then feel bad afterwards. I read this and realize I sound like a downer and a whiner, and right now I feel like one. Wnat to shake this, get a grip and tackle this issue with courage, am loathe to resign myself to fat middle-age-dom. Anyone else share these feelings? How do you cope? Are you succeeding? Would love to help and be helped. Thanks for listening. __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 18, 2008 Report Share Posted October 18, 2008 Welcome to the group Copperfield...Heidi said it all. Heidi thanks for sharing that piece about where you are with homework vs where you are with podcasts it helped me to get unstuck!! > > Hi " Copperfield " ! > > I hear my thoughts and words resonating with your writing. I completely know what you are feeling and empathize. It is those feelings that lead me to this fantastic group. I just joined a couple weeks ago and am still working through the podcasts. I am still struggling but I do find I have much better days and a much better attitude if I tune into the podcasts daily and this group. Unfortunately for me, this week has been a bugger and I am way behind in reading all the posts and haven't listened to the podcasts for the last several days and I can tell you my eating habits reared their ugly heads. > > While writing my introduction, I literally cried with self loathing and guilt, truly at the bottom of the pit of despair and then cried with gratitude and relief in finding these great people and a few who shared some very good insight and kind words and now I look forward to the future with hope and excitement (when I am not feeling bad about myself or my transgressions). Luckily, the bad days are starting to be out numbered by the good and I have this group and and her podcasts to thank for it. I think the " homework " is a very important part of the success of this program and I really encourage you to do it, if you haven't already. (I am only on the 3rd podcast with homework but listened to up to #12 - I need to make the time!!!!) > > In the meantime, I am challenged to make the time to make me a priority -- making the time to give the attention to explore and contemplate the messages in the podcasts and on the board here. I am happy to meet you and hope you find as much solace, support and caring on this board as I have and more importantly, you find the love and caring for yourself that you need and deserve!! > > I am sure your family feels as lucky and blessed to have you as you do about them -- I have a wonderful husband and two beautiful stepdaughters we are raising (middle and high school) but face the same issues. Why can't my terrific husband and the girls (and the dogs) and the absolute love and joy I get and give to and with them be enough? Why do I still use food? > > Keep active, physically and with this group and the podcasts, and you (and I and others) will find our way. Every day, with little baby steps, just be a little bit more present, a little more active, a little more attentive to your body and its signals, and you will be naturally slim. > > Have a fantastic day and " be present " ! Thanks for writing! > > Heidi > > > > New to Group > > > Hello Everyone, > This is my first post. I have listened to all of 's podcasts > several times, and eagerly await new arrivals. While I feel I've > learned a lot from them, I am having a hard time implementing the > philosophy into my own life. I will be turning 50 in November, and I > never expected to feel as nervous as I do--my mother died at 58, so > I think I'm a little superstitious about that " decade. " Anyway, I am > the mother of two beautiful daughters, one just started college this > year, another milestone and a bit of an emotional challenge, and the > other is 16 and a junior in high school. Both have unfortunatley > adoped my food as the antidote for eveyrthing habits, and I am so > sorry for not being a better role model. My husband is wonderful, > has never been critical of my wieght in any way, just supportive and > after 25 years of marriage, I am still totally in love with him and > blessed to have him. I work from home, as a freelance copywriter. > Becuase of that, I've been lucky enough to be home with my children > for the past 18 years. Mostly, I enjoy the freedom and flexibility, > though feel somewhat isolated at times--my work is primarily > conducted via email and phone, with occasional face to face > meetings. I go through times (like now) where work is slow and I > have a lot of time on my hands, but the proximity to the frig is bad > when I'm busy (eat becuase of deadlines then--there' s always a > reason!) and when I'm not (truthfully, it gets boring). I have > struggled and struggled with my weight all my life, my earliest > memory is of dreaming that I could be riding my tricyle down the > sidewalk and eating chocolate chip cookies without being fat, like > my best friend was able to do. Food was always a battleground in my > family--my mother was tall, slim and attractive, frowned on my > weight; my father was shorter, overweight and used food as a stress > reliever...had to maintain a certain weight for his job, diet pills, > the whole nine yards. He also frowned on my weight and picked on me > about it, ironically enough. I am 5'1 " and now weigh the most I ever > have (not pregnant), 165 lbs. Those last 5 pounds just arrived in > the last few weeks, and I can't seem to shake them, they've all > settled in my stomach. With a major family history of diabetes, this > is of course frightening, yet I continue to binge. I have always > liked to exercise, but even that has fallen off. I walk my dog most > days, try to do the treadmill, got a membership at a nice gym > nearby, but have not been in months, have done WW over and over. > Like most of us, I have had success, and then done plenty of > backsliding, only to start over again. Anyway, I guess I feel as if > my " bag of tricks " for weight loss has been exhausted. I don't know > if I'm weary from starting over or addicted to starting over--every > day, it's the first day until about 11 when I start eating. It's > almost like having some weird amnesia, where I eat like a zombie, > then feel bad afterwards. I read this and realize I sound like a > downer and a whiner, and right now I feel like one. Wnat to shake > this, get a grip and tackle this issue with courage, am loathe to > resign myself to fat middle-age-dom. Anyone else share these > feelings? How do you cope? Are you succeeding? Would love to help > and be helped. Thanks for listening. > > > > __________________________________________________ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 13, 2009 Report Share Posted April 13, 2009 I have been listening to IOWL podcasts for a few weeks now. I am overwhelmed with gratitude that I found it. I am 37, almost 38 and have struggled with my weight since I was 9 years old. Like others I have gained and lost weight so many times I've lost track. I've been through fasting programs, jenny craig, weight watchers (countless times) and lost weight on my own. I save only photos during thin times and when I gain weight, I avoid cameras and hide. Each podcast has helped me with mini break-throughs. Especially one early on where says this isn't about will power or intelligence or knowledge. It is with so much relief that I am not obsessing about food right now or any time in the past 2 weeks. I have so much to figure out, though. I love the concept of continuous improvement. I know I am way too critical of myself. I do not understand when I see pictures of myself when I was trim, that I still was disgusted with myself. That I have never been happy where I am physically, even when I was running 10 mile races and wearing a size 6. I know I want to get to the bottom of that. Of course, it goes back to things that are ingrained in us as children. My mother has battled her weight and is obsessed with how other people look and constantly makes reference to someone's size and I know values people who are slim more. It is so unhealthy. I am taking this one day at a time, but there are so many things coming to mind right now. I do eat really healthfully, I am an excellent cook so food in itself isn't my enemy as much as situations (holidays), travel, loneliness, and boredom can be, so learning tools that help me relate to food as the naturally slender do has been such a relief. I am learning that I can re-train my thoughts. Not that I can do this, but am doing this. I am living it right now and am so happy. Sorry for the raving mad ramblings. I am excited to share this journey with others. Cheers- Katy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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