Newbie

[Guest guest]

My name is Quinn. I'm 25 & am a stay-at-home-mother to three children under the

age

of three (Tate - 2.5, - 1.5, & Norah 2.5 months). After Norah was born I

felt like I

had been pregnant for 4 years. I've been told how my body is trashed & how so

many

pregnancies so soon has been so bad for my body. Sometimes it sounds like my

body

can't recover.

I've had inner conflict trying to decide whether to do something to help my body

or just

put my focus on my kids. I love my kids but I have a hard time drawing the line

where

they begin & I end. My mom had this problem too & still can be overbearing &

overly

involved in my & my family's life. She has struggled with her weight ever since

I can

remember. I always wanted to be different & for my teenage years I was tiny,

but now I'm

a woman & my mom attributes my " curves " to that rite of passage, almost saying

" struggling with your weight is part of womanhood. "

I want to have a big family with lots of kids. However I recently had an IUD

placed to give

my body a chance to heal to prepare for more pregnancies. So, I'm really trying

to focus

on taking care of my body.

I want to be the fit, gorgeous mommy that everyone says " I can't believe you've

had 3 kids

already! you look great! how do you find time to take care of yourself? "

However, I've

never been physically fit. I've only been thin. I've got long-term limiting

beliefs that " I

hate exercise " & " I really hate running " & " I'm not good at sports " but when I

see the me

that is fit, I see someone who LOVES running & exercise. I was even diagnosed

years ago

with pre-osteoporosis (my mother & grandmothers are that way, even developing

hunch-

backs) & the doctor said that jogging would be the best thing to strengthen my

bones.

Yikes, I'm realizing that all my pent-up procrastination at doing any journaling

exercises

from the IOWL show came out by me babbling about everything. I really need

support or

at least to report my progress to keep me motivated to continue progress.

During the

IOWL podcast I listened to today, I realized a huge self-limiting belief: " I'm a

good starter

but not a good finisher; I have a short attention span. " So, I'm trying to get

myself more

involved with this process to help find success.

After my first week of listening to the IOWL podcasts I fit into my

pre-pregnancy pants.

Woo-hoo! That gave me a glimpse of the power of this process & that I can

succeed.

However I'm falling back into " too much will power " by over-eating & knowing I

can get

myself back on track later. Doesn't help that it's " that time of the month "

right now, too.

Yikes!