Coming out; queer and proud

October 19, 2003

Ok, only aspergic instead. Im not out of the closet, its open 45

degrees, and im looking at the world, kinda in and out.

I hope that analogy makes sense?

Im very glad i know that i am aspergic. I am coming to tell people,

but only being diagnosed last christmas, its still all pretty new to

me.

I find, that it goes some way towards cancelling out all the " your

just stupid, dont be ridiculous, its just the drugs " that i got from

my parents, and im starting to grow up and not be quite so scared of

numerous things in real life anymore. As said, most people dont

care about my life, they care about their own (incidently,

i " attempt " to care about others lives, and quite often fail, because

i know i havent taken enough action on my life to succesfully be a

part of others, i think its important to learn how to care about your

own life first) So, telling people im aspie isnt such a big deal.

Apart from when i told my boss, that helped. Admitedly, he considers

me uninteligent, i believe, but he also does not mind if i dont look

at him when i speak, and makes things clear. Apart from him, and my

parents, and getting to meet Juli, it has had minimal use.

Still, as i SLOWLY learn to stop pretending, i think having this one

word " aspergers " to say, and then expanding on it when neccesary,

will begin to take the place of apologising for each and every trait

as they offend others, or pretending in the first place. Authours

note; You should see Juli in action, she's amazing like this, barely

comprehends others bad attitudes towards her. manytimes i just smile

thinking about the simplest interactions she does with others, taking

a book from a shopkeepers hands who was reading it and giving it back

to them, with a dumbfounded look on the shopkeepers face.

Sorry, thats off the beaten track of this mail. I guess im saying im

glad i know something more about who i am, and i hope telling people

im aspie isnt a big deal one day, infact i hope it becomes an

interesting conversation piece.

Ah well, im off now,

all the best everybody!!

Gareth.

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