Emotions

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I don't post here too often, but read all the time.

I appreciate so much the encouraging words from

everyone, and am grateful for the insight from those

who have older children, since my Shane is just

8 months old. It helps to know things we might

be experiencing in the future.

But I want to ask something to see if its just me,

or if anyone else experiences this.

Shane hasn't started with a speech therapist yet

(should be within the next month or so), but one

of my other therapists recently gave me a tape to

watch about total communication -- speaking the words

along with a form of signing. I was OK watching

it when the narrator was just talking about it,

but when it came to the part where the narrator

was actually sitting with a young child with Downs

and talking/signing with them, and showing the

child how to sign, I just burst into tears. I

ended up turning the tape off, and I haven't looked

at it since. I think seeing it in action really

touched my heart. I felt sorry for the little girl on

the tape, I felt sorry for my son that he'll

have to go through that to communicate, and I

felt sorry for myself to have to learn it. Hope

that doesn't make me sound too bad.

Then at church on Sunday, a man and his 10 year

old son who has Downs sang a duet together, and

I cried through that too.

Sometimes I can just look down into my precious

little boy's face and cry -- for the hardships

he has ahead for him, for the unkind way other

children might treat him......

I tend to be an emotional person, but I was

wondering if this type of thing happens to anyone

else, and if it does, does it ever go away ??

Sorry this was so long....

- Deborah (mommy to Logan, 2.5 and and Shane, 8 months)