Re: Re: Roller Coaster and Happy News/

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

I am so glad to hear that you have come out of your

downward slide. Everything you say is so true about

losing my mate and having to make all the mundane

decisions and cook........ etc. I just want to escape

right now, but this too shall pass. One never knows

what life has in store for them. I'm just having a bad

week with my husband right now, but who knows next

week will probably be different and my spirits will be

up again. This group has helped me considerably to

bring my spirits up a little. But speaking of summer.

It really does brighten my soul. I am so sick of rain,

I could scream! When the sun is out I feel so much

better. Summer is really my favorite time of year. I

get out to play golf again. I am only a fair weather

player, so you see I do try to get out when the

caregiver is here and get myself refreshed, but

sometimes the burdens of this disease can drag me into

the pits. One thing is I don't let it get the better

of me. I have been down before and have had to pull

myself up by the boot straps. A lot of it has to do

with this group getting me back on my feet. You are

all such a blessing!

--- sandra_dil wrote:

> Hi Jan

> I have shed a tear tonight for you, but you also

> made me laugh. It

> is very true that this place is great to let it all

> out, and that

> everyone helps you to hang on. I might be wrong,

> but more than

> people coming in to physically help, having somebody

> share the burden

> of life decisions would ease the stress. You have

> lost Jim in that

> capacity, that is something to weep over. Having a

> mate to walk

> through life with, share the yoke with makes life

> not so difficult.

> When you are left to make every decision, even

> simple, mundane ones,

> all by yourself, and care for your husband on top,

> it is exhausting.

> Sometimes I think to myself, just don't ask me

> anymore questions or

> don't ask me to decide, I am empty today. Let me

> know what to cook,

> because I don't care if I eat, let alone make a

> nutritious meal. At

> least I am over the worst of the downward slide I

> was in for the last

> month. I am learning to laugh about things with my

> sister, I have a

> twisted sense of humour. I still worry that I too

> will let myself

> slide into a deficit emotionally, but I am glad

> summer vacation is

> here next week for my boy's. They bring me many

> smiles each day, I

> enjoy having them home all summer. Having my MIL

> here allows me to

> stay home for my boy's, that is my silver lining!!!

> (I just

> realized).

> Well time for my bed, hugs to you Jan. from

> borough,ON

>

>

>

>

> >

> > > I'm reading all the posts in the past day --

> they

> > > are oh so

> > > different from the day when all the posts made

> us

> > > chuckle. Today,

> > > my heart is burdened with the pain I hear in

> these

> > > posts, for both

> > > our support group friends and knowing I may have

> > > that in my future.

> > > Add that to depression hampered by the beginning

> of

> > > Perimenapause

> > > and I'm a mess!

> > >

> > > So let me try to stop and smell the roses for a

> > > minute.

> > > Rose to be specific! My Dad and I just came

> back

> > > from Ohio where we

> > > met his first great grandchild. Oh, we both

> loved

> > > snuggling that

> > > little bundle of joy!!!!!!

> > >

> > > Dad has always been a " kid magnet " and of

> course, he

> > > took to this

> > > little baby quickly! We have great pics of him

> > > holding her -- and

> > > the one w/ both of them sound asleep is

> precious!

> > >

> > > And as much as I try to focus on the good of

> that,

> > > here I am crying

> > > because of all the grandkids who will not know

> their

> > > fun, loving

> > > great grandpa.

> > >

> > > I cry because any man I meet and fall in love

> with

> > > (I still believe

> > > that's going to happen for me someday) will not

> know

> > > this wonderful,

> > > loving man who raised me.

> > >

> > > Why is it we can be strong for so long and then

> it

> > > comes tumbling

> > > down around us????? Why do our parents get ill

> just

> > > as women are

> > > entering our perimenopausal years which makes us

> > > even more

> > > emotional???? I think God made a mistake here!

> > >

> > > Well, that made me smile a little. I'm going to

> > > stop reading posts

> > > now, cuz they are affecting me too much.

> Someone

> > > post some more

> > > funny ones please!!!

> > > Lori

> > > Detroit

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> >

> >

> > __________________________________________________

> >