Guest guest Posted October 24, 2005 Report Share Posted October 24, 2005 Dear Marie, I've been on vacation and just read your e-mail. I will pray for your situation with your daughter. I can't imagine what would make her abandon you like that, but I hope and pray that you work things out. Problems with our children cut so deep, because we give them so much--huge pieces our hear and soul. I pray that your pain will begin healing. laura snowespi <snowespi@...> wrote: Good Sunday to All! And a hearty welcome to all the Newbies! I just want to add on to 's post that this is a safe haven for those of us in pain that others can never understand and I do feel cared about and I know that I am definitely not alone. I live alone but all I have do do is log on and read and I am grateful for each and everyone of you. I still have alot of pain, physical but let me tell you that the emotional pain of my daughter removing herself from my life has left me feeling like a big part of me died inside. I still find myself pleading with God to please let this not be. I hope each day that she will call me. It's been over 4 months since I have seen her. Dealing with the pain from losing her, as we were so close, always,is so hard. Unbearable at times. I feel my heart literally hurting so much I feel like I could die from the grief. I will never understand how she could do this to me. She just recieved her PHD in immunology and she knows what I have to live with. She knows all to well. How could she still turn her back on her mother who she claimed she loved so much. Why? I can deal with the physical pain anyday now. The pain from my daughter has changed me. I don't like myself. I am existing but I am not living.I am breathing but I do not feel alive. I have this emptyness that leaves me feeling numb. I keep to myself all the time now. I am beyond depressed. I am like the walking dead. I have no joy. I read the funnies and I don't laugh. I sigh alot. I have no appetite. I was feeling so sick that my son on the west coast made me promise I'd go to the emergency room. Lucky me...staph infection! 10 days of antibiotics. I have not taken them every 8 hours as i was supposed too. I sleep between 16-20 hours a day. I tried. I need a miracle. I need something. I'm sorry for all of you who are going through your own nightmares. I sleep and i have peace. I wake up and the nightmare continues. The physical pain is nothing compared to the emotional pain. I know I am not alone. I know many of you have family who have broken your heart beyond belief. God help us all. I'll keep praying as that is all I can do. I fall on my knees and cry out to God and pour out what is left of my heart. I still cry myself to sleep. It's either that or I'm numb. I wonder when it will end. When and if I will ever feel alive again. I thank you all for being a part of this group as it is truly a life- saving support group for me and I'm sure many of you feel the same way about this group. This group that is now a very important part of my life. God bless you all. I wish for you all love, joy & peace. SIncerly & with blessings, Marie -- In , C <bravewmn@y...> wrote: > > Welcome to the group . I hope you will feel as welcomed asn comforted as I did when I joined this group. It is a safe haven for those of us in pain that others can never understand, and that makes me feel, understood and cared about. I hope you will find some suggestions from members on your RA. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2005 Report Share Posted October 24, 2005 Dear Marie, I've been on vacation and just read your e-mail. I will pray for your situation with your daughter. I can't imagine what would make her abandon you like that, but I hope and pray that you work things out. Problems with our children cut so deep, because we give them so much--huge pieces our hear and soul. I pray that your pain will begin healing. laura snowespi <snowespi@...> wrote: Good Sunday to All! And a hearty welcome to all the Newbies! I just want to add on to 's post that this is a safe haven for those of us in pain that others can never understand and I do feel cared about and I know that I am definitely not alone. I live alone but all I have do do is log on and read and I am grateful for each and everyone of you. I still have alot of pain, physical but let me tell you that the emotional pain of my daughter removing herself from my life has left me feeling like a big part of me died inside. I still find myself pleading with God to please let this not be. I hope each day that she will call me. It's been over 4 months since I have seen her. Dealing with the pain from losing her, as we were so close, always,is so hard. Unbearable at times. I feel my heart literally hurting so much I feel like I could die from the grief. I will never understand how she could do this to me. She just recieved her PHD in immunology and she knows what I have to live with. She knows all to well. How could she still turn her back on her mother who she claimed she loved so much. Why? I can deal with the physical pain anyday now. The pain from my daughter has changed me. I don't like myself. I am existing but I am not living.I am breathing but I do not feel alive. I have this emptyness that leaves me feeling numb. I keep to myself all the time now. I am beyond depressed. I am like the walking dead. I have no joy. I read the funnies and I don't laugh. I sigh alot. I have no appetite. I was feeling so sick that my son on the west coast made me promise I'd go to the emergency room. Lucky me...staph infection! 10 days of antibiotics. I have not taken them every 8 hours as i was supposed too. I sleep between 16-20 hours a day. I tried. I need a miracle. I need something. I'm sorry for all of you who are going through your own nightmares. I sleep and i have peace. I wake up and the nightmare continues. The physical pain is nothing compared to the emotional pain. I know I am not alone. I know many of you have family who have broken your heart beyond belief. God help us all. I'll keep praying as that is all I can do. I fall on my knees and cry out to God and pour out what is left of my heart. I still cry myself to sleep. It's either that or I'm numb. I wonder when it will end. When and if I will ever feel alive again. I thank you all for being a part of this group as it is truly a life- saving support group for me and I'm sure many of you feel the same way about this group. This group that is now a very important part of my life. God bless you all. I wish for you all love, joy & peace. SIncerly & with blessings, Marie -- In , C <bravewmn@y...> wrote: > > Welcome to the group . I hope you will feel as welcomed asn comforted as I did when I joined this group. It is a safe haven for those of us in pain that others can never understand, and that makes me feel, understood and cared about. I hope you will find some suggestions from members on your RA. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2005 Report Share Posted October 25, 2005 Daer , Thank you for your prayers. God knows I need them. I am minutes away from cutting, rather I should say chopping off my long beautiful hair, I feel so lost. I can't believe she would do this to me. I swear it is torture. I have been a good mother to her. What is this world coming to? When a daughter can turn against her own mother. She knows I have nobody in this town I moved to to be close to her. She wanted this for years and I finally say yes and move here just to have my heart ripped out by her. It has to do with her husband but she didn't have to shut me out of her life. I am in a bad bad way. How does one cope with such heavy burdens on top of these serious health problems one has to try to cope with? I don't know how much more I can take. I am becoming a basket case if I'm not one already. I swear. I pray but it seems useless. Like God is not listening. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for your kind words. I just want this pain to stop. Emotional pain is truly worse than the physical pain. Sincerly & with love, ANnaMArie > > > > Welcome to the group . I hope you will feel as welcomed asn > comforted as I did when I joined this group. It is a safe haven for > those of us in pain that others can never understand, and that makes me > feel, understood and cared about. I hope you will find some > suggestions from members on your RA. > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2005 Report Share Posted October 25, 2005 Daer , Thank you for your prayers. God knows I need them. I am minutes away from cutting, rather I should say chopping off my long beautiful hair, I feel so lost. I can't believe she would do this to me. I swear it is torture. I have been a good mother to her. What is this world coming to? When a daughter can turn against her own mother. She knows I have nobody in this town I moved to to be close to her. She wanted this for years and I finally say yes and move here just to have my heart ripped out by her. It has to do with her husband but she didn't have to shut me out of her life. I am in a bad bad way. How does one cope with such heavy burdens on top of these serious health problems one has to try to cope with? I don't know how much more I can take. I am becoming a basket case if I'm not one already. I swear. I pray but it seems useless. Like God is not listening. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for your kind words. I just want this pain to stop. Emotional pain is truly worse than the physical pain. Sincerly & with love, ANnaMArie > > > > Welcome to the group . I hope you will feel as welcomed asn > comforted as I did when I joined this group. It is a safe haven for > those of us in pain that others can never understand, and that makes me > feel, understood and cared about. I hope you will find some > suggestions from members on your RA. > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 26, 2007 Report Share Posted September 26, 2007 hi marie how are you been?l will be very happy because turkey is very beatiful country. you like alanya.this condition is hell of. are you all cmt 1? how all of case? yours affectionately emine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 6, 2011 Report Share Posted February 6, 2011 Hi Marie I didnt get this until today when I woke up. Just stay in bed if you need to. I cant believe that your Case Worker isnt doing more to help you. She could provide you with so much more clout. If you could get out here, you would not have to worry about a place to stay. But I realize you have to stay put in the area to finish your TX. Can I suggest that you call your clinical trial people, and explain your situation. Ask them - no beg them - for help. They want people to finish the trials so that they have lots of good results to push their med to approval. Maybe they can get on the horn, and make some calls in your behalf. Heres some links if you can get to a computer to access them. I am also sending it to the Warriors group so you can access it from there. - california homeless assistance programs http://search./search?ei=utf-8 & fr=slv8-tyc7 & p=california%20homeless%20assistance%20programs & type= Marie, I am blasting you with so much love and good energy, its not funny. Every one of us wish that we could reach out and help you. Be strong, try not to stress....I know, I know - easier said than done. We all love you Marie. love don in ks From: Rain Beau <annamariestitt@...>Subject: Re: Hi Marieludichrist2000@...Date: Sunday, February 6, 2011, 1:18 AM Hello Don, just been resting all day havent left my bed except for water, meds & food. my case worker got on me about calling shelters today i couldnt believe it! i really am not going to worry about it, i may stay at a mounasteryBlessed be marie---------Sent from AT & T's Wireless network using Mobile Email- Hi MarieHi MarieJust checking up on you.How are you doing?Eating, drinking, and resting? lovedon in ks Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 6, 2011 Report Share Posted February 6, 2011 marie,Here are some numbers for you...San Francisco Homeless Outreach Team (415) 401-2660 Monday - Tuesday(415) 554-8471 Wednesday - Friday Raphael HouseRaphael House of San Francisco offers comprehensive services that have the ultimate goal of helping homeless, recently homeless and at-risk families achieve stable housing and financial independence, while strengthening family bonds. Recent additions include: the AfterCare program, designed to help " alumni " families build on their stay with Raphael House, Day Care, and the Adult Childcare Training program. 1065 Sutter StreetSan Francisco, CA 94109Phone: 415-474-3245www.raphaelhouse.org Episcopal Sanctuary Food, Long & Short Term Shelter, Clothing, etc. How to get Help & Shelter:To be allocated a bed at most shelters in San Francisco, including ECS's Sanctuary, you need to register with the city before being referred to a shelter. The McMillan Drop-In Center at 39 Fell Street is one place where you can register. It is open 365 days a year for 23 hours a day - only closed between 10am - 11am for cleaning. American Red Cross of the Bay Area 85 Second Street 8th Floor, San Francisco, CA 94105 (415) 427-8000 Women Shelter Cameron House 920 Sacramento Street, SAN FRANCISCO, CA 94108 (415) 781-0401Women Shelter Community Housing Partnership 810 Avenue D, San Francisco, CA 94130 (415) 391-2404Community Housing Partnership 835 Ofarrell Street, San Francisco, CA 94109 (415) 749-1695Compass Community Services 995 Market Street 5th Floor, San Francisco, CA 94103 (415) 399-9406 Women Shelter Monsignor LYNE Community 118 Diamond Street Apt 101, San Francisco, CA 94114 (415) 255-8004Shelter Family Tenderlion Housing Clinic 449 Turk Street, San Francisco, CA 94102 (415) 923-9846Tenderloin House Clinic 811 Geary Street, San Francisco, CA 94109 (415) 673-5690Tenderloin Housing Clinic 514 South Van Ness Avenue, San Francisco, CA 94110 (415) 553-6284 Tenderloin Housing Clinic Inc 2791 16th Street, San Francisco, CA 94103 (415) 503-1096 W.O.M.A.N. 333 Valencia St. Ste. 251, San Francisco, CA 94103 (877) 384-3578American Red Cross of the Bay Area 85 Second Street 8th Floor San Francisco, CA 94105 Mass Shelter(415) 427-8000 Cameron House920 Sacramento Street SAN FRANCISCO, CA 94108 Women Shelter(415) 781-0401Community Housing Partnership 810 Avenue D San Francisco, CA 94130 (415) 391-2404Community Housing Partnership 835 Ofarrell Street San Francisco, CA 94109 (415) 749-1695Compass Community Services 995 Market Street 5th Floor San Francisco, CA 94103 (415) 399-9406 On Sun, Feb 6, 2011 at 1:13 PM, Christ <ludichrist2000@...> wrote: Hi Marie I didnt get this until today when I woke up. Just stay in bed if you need to. I cant believe that your Case Worker isnt doing more to help you. She could provide you with so much more clout. If you could get out here, you would not have to worry about a place to stay. But I realize you have to stay put in the area to finish your TX. Can I suggest that you call your clinical trial people, and explain your situation. Ask them - no beg them - for help. They want people to finish the trials so that they have lots of good results to push their med to approval. Maybe they can get on the horn, and make some calls in your behalf. Heres some links if you can get to a computer to access them. I am also sending it to the Warriors group so you can access it from there. - california homeless assistance programs http://search./search?ei=utf-8 & fr=slv8-tyc7 & p=california%20homeless%20assistance%20programs & type= Marie, I am blasting you with so much love and good energy, its not funny. Every one of us wish that we could reach out and help you. Be strong, try not to stress....I know, I know - easier said than done. We all love you Marie. love don in ks From: Rain Beau <annamariestitt@...>Subject: Re: Hi Marieludichrist2000@... Date: Sunday, February 6, 2011, 1:18 AM Hello Don, just been resting all day havent left my bed except for water, meds & food. my case worker got on me about calling shelters today i couldnt believe it! i really am not going to worry about it, i may stay at a mounastery Blessed be marie---------Sent from AT & T's Wireless network using Mobile Email- Hi Marie Hi MarieJust checking up on you.How are you doing?Eating, drinking, and resting? lovedon in ks Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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