late reply to Hannah's mom about burdens and feelings 12/19/00

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Hi , just wanted to let you know that I understand so much about how you

were feeling in terms of just being expected to always " handle " things,

becoming impatient with your daughter and the situation, and needing

emotional support like a hug and a cuddle more than anything else at times

from Hannah's dad( well, quite often, but that probably won't happen). All

of this does not mean that you don't care about your daughter- you are, after

all, human. I feel so alone so much of the time with taking care of Kayla,

you're right, it's always something. Just feeding her is an exhausting task

and her dad always conveniently has an excuse for not doing any of the

logistics or " housekeeping " tasks with and for Kayla- I wonder what excuse

he'll have when I go back to work outside of the home?!!! Sometimes if we

just " stop " the world will not fall apart like we thought it would- people

will usually rise to the occasion when they aren't given any other choice-I'm

sure Hannah would survive if someone else dealt with her a short while. Love

and trust. Cherese