Why is it more then just some noises?

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Personal life aside, my 4S was doing very well for a few

weeks, my stress level was the highest it has ever been and I felt ok, I could

even be around the noises that were making me lose it most of the time.

But last Friday everything feel apart, it became as bad as

it used to be, if not worse because that little ****** trigger that never used

to be a large problem, just stepped up a gear into a full blown trigger. Im

talking about seeing things out of the corners or top of my vision. Seeing someone

eat, or even thinking about seeing it, drinking, moving hands or swinging legs.

If it were just a noise thing, to all noises, I could almost

get it, but its just some noises, and its only some visual things. Why?

The world that clearly describes what I feel when I see

these things is disgust, and im not even sure why, but its an incredibly strong

level of disgust.

When my 4S first started many years ago i remember gulping

was the first real trigger, not a secondary, and it too started with just a

huge level of disgust. Now its more and someone wrote a post that said it

perfectly, its like that zap you get when see or hear a mobile phone go off

next to a radio or tv.

I guess I am just ranting for answers, maybe part of

my self knows why its more then just sounds. I guess im just scared that if

this keeps going down hill like it is, its going to develop into a condition a

lot worse then just an aversion to certain sounds, and im terrified of what

type of a life that would be...

R