Newbie here.

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Hey everyone! My name is ; I'm a 19 year old college student who

has been suffering from this " Syndrome " (I didn't realize that's what

it was until a few days ago) for as long as I can remember.

The noises that bother me the most come from my dad. He chronically

has allergies, so sniffing, nose running, and breathing heavily are

all factored into his (and my) every day life. I usually react angrily

to his noises, and because he doesn't understand, he usually reacts

angrily as well. This could constantly explain why we fight all the time.

Except he's always right. I'm the one with the problem and the issues,

and I still can't explain why these noises bother me so much - so I

just agree with him. I am a freak.

I truly believe that thinking this way about myself for so many years

has caused me to have low self-esteem. I constantly worry that other

people are going to find out about my " problem, " and poke fun at me

for it. My dad reminds me every day that I'm a weirdo.. I just don't

want other people to know about it.

My resentment usually comes out on my family members, but noises at

work and at school still bother me to a point of no return.

Except, when I'm at work or school, I don't say anything. Therefore,

the lashes at home tend to be LOUDER than usual when I've had an

especially stressful and bothersome-noise-filled day away from the house.

Even after showing my dad this website, his view of me hasn't really

changed. I feel better knowing that other people suffer with me, but

it hasn't made the situation at home any better.

My father refuses to believe that this is a serious syndrome. Still,

to this day, and probably until the day he dies, he thinks I use it as

a way to make his life miserable.

I'm not sure why he thinks that, because I get no benefit from yelling

and making sure he feels bad.

Anyways .. my point is that I came here to just maybe convince myself

that I'm not some sort of freak. I'm usually a happy person, but being

around my father makes me irritable and anxious, ESPECIALLY when he

makes those noises. I resent him for it.

He says he's not aware of when he does it, and when he does do it? He

doesn't care. I'm the freak and I should learn how to deal with it.

Except my " dealing with it " has been to move away from the house ..

and he still doesn't understand and suddenly feels angry with my

decision. Am I right here, folks?

I'm not even sure what to do anymore.

But I can say that noises don't bother me as much. I also find myself

less stressed and anxious, especially when I'm away from this household.