Guest guest Posted June 5, 2003 Report Share Posted June 5, 2003 Thanks, Tess, for such an inspirational and insightful story. I'm still feeling depressed, but a little less so today. It's been hard to go through all this, but it's time to get off the " pity pot " and get on with my life. Hopefully mom will be back to normal soon. In the meantime I still need to love her as much as she'll allow me to. But I am also setting boundaries. I'm no good to her if I'm a basket case from the stress. Thanks again, dear one. Love, Carol [ ] Carol Thank you, dear Carol. I had a little cry, and now I feel like it's ok, a good learning experience, and I believe there will be a " next time. " You know me...here's another story... When I had just turned 13, I became deathly ill. I was in the hospital 3 weeks before they even figured out what was wrong. My mom was there with me most every day until visiting hours were over (remember this is ancient history - hospitals had stricter rules : ) My mom is an angel, sweet & kind to me. But EVERY night while I was in the hospital and she said she had to go home, I didn't cry or hold her. I said, " You don't love me! Just go home and leave me here alone. Go away! " I wouldn't even hug her...and she had to leave and drive 30 miles home with tears stinging her eyes and worry heavy on her heart. My POOOOOR mom...it broke her heart, maybe something like yours is broken now about your mom. When they finally solved the mystery and I got better, I didn't remember being mean to my mom. But slowly, I did remember, and oh boy did I feel bad. My mom knew I was angry out of fear, and pain, and lonliness, but it was SO uncharacteristic of me to be such a little poo, it wounded her deeply. But at the time, I truly couldn't help it. I just love you so much, kiddo...I hate to see you hurting so badly. I pray things really turn around soon on every level. God bless you tenderly. All my love... Tess Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 5, 2003 Report Share Posted June 5, 2003 Dearest Carol...that " boundary " learning is hard stuff. Something I used to be no good at at all, but have gotten stronger over the years. You are so right - you've got to take care of you. You've been under such stress & strain, and you've been a real trooper, kiddo. But I pray the Lord's peace encircles you like a soft, fluffy cloud, and you feel His love like never before. Still praying! (((((((((((((((((((Carol)))))))))))))) All my love, always.... Tess Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 8, 2003 Report Share Posted June 8, 2003 carol. i'm so sorry your mom is not doing well. it must be hard to have an illness when you are so far away. i know during some of my surgeries i really wanted my " mommy " !! i feel so lost on the list. i am so far behind and out of the loop. between my job and my neighbor's car accident, my son and i almost at constant battle. i am only online for less than an hour a day. ( i sit at the computer 4 hrs at work, so i try not to sit too long at home too) hopefully your mom will get better with time. don't blame yourself. take care of yourself. i love and miss you all!!! kathy in il Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 14, 2003 Report Share Posted June 14, 2003 Hi Carol, Well, I am finally getting back to the computer and see that there is a first annual convention being planned. I voted for Las Vegas because it is so flipping hot and humid in Florida. I still have a trip planned to see you but we will have to spend a good amount of time in the air-conditioning (I am such a wimp) unless I visit when it is a little cooler. I agree with you about keeping away from the holidays. It has been raining, and raining, and raining. At least it keeps the heat down. Now we are beginning to flood in some areas. I can't remember it ever raining this much in June. I have been very busy this week playing taxi service now that the kids are out of school. I have also spend quite a few days getting all of the information ready for my SS interview. I did talk my doc into having new MRI's for my records. I don't have the report yet. I have found a two month, part time job where I will be working 5 hours, three days a week. I had to interview and go to training. I hope you are feeling better. I will call you this weekend. Hugs to you. Signed...Crazy Woman running around like a chicken with its head cut off. --- Jim Hauff <JimH@...> wrote: > Hey all, > I thought this was a joke when you guys were talking about getting together. > I would love to meet you people if the time is right. I am clear up in in > the state of Washington about as far out to the NW tip as you can get. > Well, not quite that far. I don't travel well by myself, but my hubby would > probably come with me and do some stomping around while we did some other > things or he could comiserate or listen with some of the other men folk if > they are going too. Keep me posted. > > Terri > RE: [ ]Florida Fun > > > > > > > So do we have any time of year that we want to start planning for? > > > This is very exciting. I'd be happy to go looking for a group rate or > > > some other type of discount if we have enough people coming. > > > > > > I have to say, I've never eaten gator. , if you try it you'll > > have > > > to let me know what it's like. No way I am trying it. > > > > > > Love to all, > > > Carol > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 17, 2003 Report Share Posted June 17, 2003 Oh, Tess... that sounds incredible! I just love roses. I hope you will be able to share a picture or two. If you don't feel like putting them " out there " maybe you could send one to me via email? Between our Heidi having Fabien, your daughter's wedding, and all the grandchildren .... we certainly are blessed! Oh, I guess I don't need to ask what kind of floral arrangements she's having ;-). I had roses for my bridal bouquet. I love the simplicity of a bouquet of roses. Love you bunches (get it, bunches LOL) Carol (who's been working so hard she's gone corny!) [ ] Carol Dearest Carol...the shower was wonderful, and the wedding plans are all coming together. The kids are being married by a Pastor at " Talina's Gardens " . The owner, Talina, visited some famous rose gardens in France. When she came home, she worked to recreate the lovely gardens here. The Portland area is known for beautiful roses, thus we are " The Rose City " . After Talina did this, she thought it would be a lovely place to have weddings and special events. She then designed several other garden areas in which to have weddings, etc. Then they built a reception area mostly out of glass so you can continue to see the surrounding gardens even when inside. Carol, even if a lot of other folks saw the " 60 Minute " piece, you've got many things going for you...you are so bright, enthusiastic, good with people, and most of all you have a strong faith in God. Prayers will continue and you know you ALWAYS have my love & support. Oodles of hugs.... Tess Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 21, 2004 Report Share Posted February 21, 2004 we have missed you too. i have been lurking quite a bit. i am working about 22 hours a week now. so between that and takng care of the house, the animals, the car, the snow...shopping, laundry, garbage. then throw in holidays and a funeral. well thank god it's almost spring!!! i am going to clean even the corners today. i am having a lingerie party here next weekend. i've been out of this life for a few years myself. slowly trying to work my way back into life. i hope you can spring back sooner. but i'll take whatever you can give, because i have been there. kathy in il Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 3, 2004 Report Share Posted May 3, 2004 Jeez, I'm so sorry you have so much going on. When it rains, it pours, huh? I'll be thinking of you guys. Cary Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 4, 2004 Report Share Posted May 4, 2004 Carol..Does your husband have cancer or will the surgery answer that question? I am asking because my wonderful husband has metastatic colon cancer. It is a horrible way to live. I do know your fears. Judy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 4, 2004 Report Share Posted May 4, 2004 Judy, The tumor showed up on a CT Scan of the upper abdomen, they do not biopsy the Kidney, just remove it, but the Dr. said that it is probably 95% sure it is cancer!!!! He said they will know more when they open him up, which is scarey because he has already had a mass removed from his lower intestines (benign) when he was 8 years old, and has always had that kine of trouble. I am sorry to hear that you and your husband are dealing with this also, it is extremely difficult. Please know that you are in my prayers, Thank you for responding. Gentle Hugs, Carol M. in CA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 19, 2004 Report Share Posted November 19, 2004 Dear Rae, My son in laws name is Troy Carriker, he has a twin named Todd, I think his father has an appliance store in Napa, his Mom is Martha and lives in North Carolina. Martha is very out going and had a shop in the Yountville mall - she is one of those people you couldn't wear a frown around her if you tried! My daught er in law graduated from UOP and has a degree in Music Therapy. They live in Bakersfield and have 5 children and one on the way. Fred (my son) sings in gospel groups and manages a security company while is wife - home schools the kids. It would be fun to meet ...let me know - UOP has some great little coffee places and a Japanese restaurant that is really good. How are you doing with you eyes? Mine have been really bad, so has my mouth with the Sjorgrens. Did you sign up for the test. Please feel free to contact me direct if you would like to. Gentle Hugs, Carol M. in CA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 19, 2004 Report Share Posted November 19, 2004 Carol... what is your son in laws name?? i have four kids and they are 26, 27, 28 and 32 years old... three girls and one boy... two of the girls are married and boy do we ever have good son in laws... ) maybe they know each other and so that would make us sort a frineds.. hah a ha my aunt gertrude live near the levee by UOP college... maybe i can pick julie up and then we can all have lunch together... bye for now, we have to run errands today! rae Re: [ ] Soap Opera of the Tongue Rae, I live in Stockton , which I think is about 1 hour away from Napa. My son-in-law is from Napa and he visits family there on weekends. He took me to Yountville for mothers day last year. Napa is really a beautiful area and I want to visit more. Take care, Carol M. in CA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2005 Report Share Posted August 26, 2005 carol - stephen buhner does an excellent overview of this in HEALING LYME - paperback put ut by raven press, deb Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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