[I] Re: Re: Footsteps anyone? The sounds that I make.....

[Guest guest]

I have often resorted to eating to mask the sounds of others. In

general I do not respond to my own sounds. As long as i am eating

along with them, especially loud crunchy food like popcorn or chips,

I can usually get by the incident relatively unscathed.

The exceptions... When I am eating in a very quiet room, and I am the

only person eating. My jaw has some sort of a degenerative bone

disorder and makes this horrible cracking sound that is excrutiating

loud in my own ear. Of course, I am also worried that I am making the

ugly sounds that i detest so much in others. I usually will not eat

at all in these kinds of circumstances. Food immediately begins to

taste like cardboard and becomes very difficult to swallow anyways.

I have reacted to odd sounds my body makes over the years. Being an

ex-smoker, i used to have this tiny wheezing sound in my lungs when i

was trying to go to sleep that could keep me awake all night. (I

guess i should be grateful to my insomnia for being a final impetus

to help me quit smoking).

I also can drive myself nuts with any sinus noise, in my sinus's are

compacted in the slightest, that high pitch sound of air passage. I

then become obsessive about blowing my nose, even nasal drops to

clear the sinus cavity.

As I am writing these, I am realising that the sounds that bother me,

even about my own body, are sounds that are beyond my control, just

like external stimuli that sets us off. I try to take " control " of

these sounds as i am able, but the randam acts of sound that occur

that are not my own conscious choice seem to be the ones that set me

off. Interesting!

peace

Alix