Why I'm Posting No Updates

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There have been no updates from me on my own progress for three

reasons:

1) We're still waiting for clarification on whether the treatment I'm

receiving will be paid for by my MediCal HMO. I don't want to discuss

it publically till we know more about that, which 'should' be a matter

of days. What has threatened to become a life-or-death adversarial

relationship may fade away or take us into the court room, I don't

even know which is more likely.

2) Since beginning a new treatment some 3 weeks ago, there are

compelling signs of BOTH specific improvements and escalating disease

progression, leaving me with no clue what to say. It's very early

days, if what I'm doing turns out to be helpful we wouldn't know that

for certain for months, at a minimum.

3) What I'm having to do is consuming so much energy almost none is

leftover to think about it, and it often seems better not to.

My situation is so damn weird and disturbing, I think sometimes I need

to be posting on the Ripley's Believe It Or Not site, not a sober-

minded place (at its best) like I & I.