Guest guest Posted December 15, 2007 Report Share Posted December 15, 2007 I AM POSTING THIS FOR MY HUSBAND AND MUM TO READ: I DO NOT WANT ANYONE TO GIVE UP HOPE - THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE I knew months ago that my life here was coming to an end. I knew in May ’06 that my body couldn’t take much more. Dr. s told me that if I continued to drink alcohol, or indulge in painkillers I would have 18 month to two years before it caught up on me. Today, the one worst thing that happened – my house, my safe place, my home, was taken by the bank. It is the last straw. My home was my only security. This house was where I was supposed to die. I spent my inheritance, my life savings on this house, my 15 years salary on. I worked my arse off off to pay for this houes, to furnish this house and to make this house beautiful. I had the perfect home. This is where I wanted to start my next life. I had planned my last weeks at this house - Bobby said a few things about Ardis that stuck: no crying music, let me go with Larry King or Everybody Loves on the telly, let me be holding my puppies and the remote,the car keys, and please God, let my Mum & Dad and Rob be there. Let Jaclyn, Ben and Jack know what they meant to me. I spent my unworking hours in my bedroom and spent a fortune making this room my haven. This is where I wanted to go. I love my sisters kids more that I could ever love my own. They are treasures. Jaclyn was the child I would have wished for if I could have given birth. She is MY baby. That cherub is, and always will be, the light of my life. If Rob had not left we could have saved my home. If he had not been so unforgiving we could have left this home with pride, and enough money to move on, or enough for me to die here. He has always claimed to be the smart one….? How could he lose our home? Why did he dig his heels in and refuse to move home? We could have saved our house. Rob could have had the house. The doggies could have had a place to play and run. Why???? I ‘m so f00000g angry. Why? Why? Why push us into financial ruin? Why deplete all we own? Why fight over the doggies when we know that I have always taken care of them and would never, ever, let anything happen to them. Why fight over the house when you know you can have it? Why fight over shit like 401? But still I want this to be over. I don’t want them to see me at my worst. I feel very resentful of the God I am about to meet, AND THAT SCARES THE CRAP OUTA ME but I know he will tell me WHY my life on earth is over, and what its purpose was, but I will ask WHY IT ENDED SO SOON? Thanks guys, especially Bobby for you help and support. Pray for me, God is good, God Bless Love always, I --- Jan Holman wrote: > I am going to suggest that my pcp remove him from > their list of > endocrinologists they refer patients to. Jan H > > On Dec 12, 2007 9:59 PM, Bracewell > wrote: > > > Oh good grief! Runaround runaround! > > Go ahead, die now. Hypocritical Oath? I hope you > find another doctor. Pro > > life? > > That's as foolish a treatment as I've ever heard! > The very idea of telling > > a > > patient something like that. > > > > > > > > " The facts are always friendly, every bit of > evidence one can acquire, in > > any area, leads one that much closer to what is > true. " –Carl , > > American psychologist > > > > Thyroid - Liver > connection > > > > I don't know how many of you remember our > discussion a couple of months > > ago > > about the connection between low thyroid and under > treated thyroid and > > other > > medical conditions including fatty tissue liver. > > > > I have been treated for thyroid for over 30 years, > and so wanted to check > > on > > it. There was also an article that claims that > there are some people who > > do > > not show the real state of their thyroid function > with the standard blood > > tests. There is another test called the TRH which > can show lower > > function, > > lower TSH to the brain. > > > > So, I asked my pcp about it, she acknowledged the > information was right > > and > > referred me to an endocrinologist. I saw him > today. I had trouble > > finding > > one who takes my insurance, so ended up with this > one. > > > > He was terrible. I told him why I was there, he > doesn't believe in the > > other test, doesn't do it, calls it alternative > medicine even though he > > did > > tell me that there is another doctor in Phoenix > who does the test. > > > > When I told him that I wanted to check out > everything which had the > > potential to give me a longer life, he basically > said that I was going to > > die some day, that I should just accept that and > quit chasing after things > > to make my life longer. When I described the > treatment for thyroid I had > > receive and not received in the last 30 some > years, he said I had a couple > > of cases of malpractice. Since he treated me just > like those doctors did, > > I > > guess I could sue him too. > > > > I called the office where he said they did the > test, and they don't take > > my > > insurance so I might have to change my provider. > > > > Go in Friday to the PCP to see how my kidney > function is doing, if it is > > staying stable. Jan H > > -- > > Jan H > > > > > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > > > > > > > Group Email: > livercirrhosissupport > > web address: > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/ > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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