dear Mark

April 12, 2008

Hey, Mark. My last post has been eating at me. It might have sounded that I was

making light of your cirrhosis. I wasn't. I always get mad when people in my

life tell me " oh, you'll be ok " or " look on the bright side " or " i know an uncle

who lived in to his 80's and he had it " . The simple fact is that I am sick. I

FEEL sick. I have no life outside of the 20 pills a day I take and keeping low

sodium, and watching my protein intake, and making sure my oxygen machine

filters are clean. Oh, I have my cats and Ardis' dog, and Sharon is the BEST

company. But i used to hunt and fish and play in a band, and you name it. I did

mountain man rendezvous every summer, we own a tee pee. I don't think I can get

that thing set up any more. I just want to convey to you that like Mac told you,

be quiting drinking you might be able to stop the progression of this disease in

it's tracks. I did. I just stopped a little too close to that cliff. My very

toes dangle over it

upon waking each day. You have EVERY RIGHT to vent or be upset, and ask these

questions. I know that Ardis was anemic, and it caused a profound case of

encephalopathy. She was getting so so much protein load from her own blood. I

was with her in the hospital, and witnessed this. That is how I came to my

educated guess on both your anemia, and ammonia. Hepatic encephalopathy is

insidious. Very hard to detect in stage 1. They call it " sub clinical, because

it can only be seen on a brain scan. Here is a link to a test you can give

yourself. Do the best you can, and be honest with your self, it might give you

some solace.

10319-2-0,00.htm

Click the link, download the PDF ann you can print this out and do it. Have a

good day Mark. And everyone in the group. Bobby

and God bless Jan.

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