Re: fish dream

[Guest guest]

I'm tempted to share this one as the interpret by Whitmont was so brilliant.

when i was 13, i had a touch of TB n was taken by my parents out of my Swiss

school n w/them to Helsingborg in the s of Sweden - winter, rain, snow, damp,

DARK n no other kids, in a hotel. depressing. so my parents planned to send

me to usa in the fall to live w/a very proper Bostonian uncle/aunt - the

latter very strict n i felt literally like a fish out of water - my 3 cousins

were all very social n i suff a terr inferiority complex.

anyway, i began analysis w/ C. Whitmont [a fellow astrol n then head of

cgj institute in nyc] - this was at his sugg as prerequisite to my teaching.

[best thing that ever happened] this was in the late 70's.

so here's the dream: i defied him to analyze it, it was so absurd!

I am riding in a car w/my Bost aunt driving. the car is a hearse! but the

glassed in sect is a huge aquarium n in it, all illuminated, is a huge - BIG

- goldfish!

end of dream.

grinned. What did they call prepubescent girls in German?

i knew that one: Backfisch!

So, says ecw, thats what the fish-in-the-back turned into!

I think Greg will get a kick out of that one.

i often dream puns - years ago, a fragment. am going up steep stairs to an

attic. at the top are two hollow cement blocks. blockhead!

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now that i'm at it - another helsingborg dream: i am standing at the base of

a mountain n there is a horiz cleft like a bed in it. this aunt orders me to

climb in and lie down. i obey n the whole mountain shuts down on me! i woke

in terror.

now, cgj says that dreams can have sequels. 40 yrs later, i had to decide

risking the security of my teach job n bec a jungian astrol n teaching [at ed

edinger's sugg] it was a very scary decision. so, big dream

3 friends of my teach M remind me that i have prom to kill myself n the time

has come. i realize this n consider various alt ways to do it, none

attractive, so i decide to climb a mount n throw myself off it. the mountain

is very smooth steep grey rock. my commitment to M Iis total. i start up, my

3 fr watch, n i am accomp in total sil by my ex-husb on left n a man in

uniform on right. they vanish wh i reach the top.

it is a gorgeous autumn day. across the chasm i see a high pasture surr by

woods. in it stands a doe n i watch a stag w/massive antlers, come out of the

woods n they nuzzle each other fondly. it is all i could wish for! so granted

this beauty, i spread my arms n loving my teacher, i JUMP!

i never fall. i look down n the mountain opens and out of the cleft comes a

naked woman. i recognize myself n wake in tears of gratiude.

Needless to say, i resigned my job n my new life unfolded. later, i read in

jung the process is archetypal n called petra genetrix - rock giving birth.

but Greg's fish n stag bring these dreams back vividly n the doe/stag was

prophetic as in 1980 i met my beloved Walter on a ship cruising the mediterr

on which i was teaching comp mytholog, relig, n jung archetypes! he lived in

calif, i on long island, ny.....

a lot of pain inbetw those 2 dreams - i lived my life in a minor key n i

bless jung, whitmont n edinger for their guidance n above all my teacher M,

who i met wh i was 21.

i was feeling a bit blue ab myself in 2000, feeling i had not accompl much -

the disappoint ab the bk n illustrator causing such a devastating blow, but u

guys have cheered me up - just hope i live to see it in print1

love n blessings n may we all make a difference in the next millenium!

yr fond SillyOld Woman