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Hi Everybody,

Thanks Rogene, Patty and Kenda for answering my

swollen gland question!

I'm waiting around for the ax to fall quite frankly.

Reason being, I actually am having a major break from

the anxiety and depression that I had while I had the

implants. I know I probably sound like a fruit cake

here, but I think I may have been much much more

depressed than I thought. Truthfully, the depression

probably came before all of the other symptoms... but

it was so insidious that I did not even recognize it

as depression.

For the past three years I just wanted to be alone...

I wanted to be around no one, I wanted to do nothing,

I wanted zero relationship with my husband. I am

actually shocked at the fact that I now yearn to be

with my family, I am excited about life, I feel some

of the vigor I had pre implant. I know I am not

imagining this, my husband sees it too. We just don't

want to get too excited about this yet since who knows

if it will last.

This is a good sign. It goes to show that the implants

really were wreaking havoc inside my body. I now

believe that other symptoms will abate and I have an

excellent shot for recovery.

I haven't been able to keep up with the posts

lately... sorry, I'm sort of out of the loop as to

what's goin' on ... on the board. I will contribute as

much as I can regarding my recovery.. I want the new

girls to know that they should have hope and that it

is not all in their head.

By the way, did the sauna at the gym today... gees,

just like you guys said.... I was in there for a good

15 to 20 mins and barely broke a sweat! How

disappointing! Oh well, I'll keep trying.

Hope you all are doing okay.

Hugs,

Dawn

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