, I can relate.. here' s my story

April 27, 2005

Dear ,

I'm really glad you found this site as well. I'm Lo, only 21

years old and have had implants since age 19. Now I realize how

young I was and still am to make such a major decision but I felt

mature enough and had always felt like an awkward teen as well as

many other issues at that time. I wanted to do something to make

myself happy and instead, a few months after implantation, my health

and happiness started deteriorating. One night a few months after

implant, I was using my computer and my hands and forearms started

having shooting pains. I couldn't even use them to type papers and

writing notes in class was even painful. I couldn't play the piano

anymore or games with my friends. I became very unhappy because I

am so young and I felt like I would be crippled forever from all the

things I love. I thought maybe somehow I had carpal tunnel but I

had 2 never tests and those came out negative. I did strength

training exercises for my arms because I thought maybe I had

weakness but that was unsucessful as well. Then I noticed it was

worse with humiditiy and it was very consistant in my wrist and

joints in my hands. Knowing this was an arthritis symptom, but in

denial of it, I dealed with it by just taking advil. Eventually I

went to an osteologist(?) and my doctor told me he didn't know what

was wrong because x-rays were fine and he didn't think I had

rheumatory arthritis. I'm too young for osteoarthritis for never

breaking anything in that area, so I was baffled what it could be

and just lived with it until recently. A few months ago, I started

getting horrible joint pains everywhere. I don't know if it had to

do with this, but I went on vacation this winter and I'm not sure if

the plane ride sparked something, but the day after I got home I had

horrible joint pain everywhere. (If anyone knows if elevation may

effect implants please let me know). I was terrified because it was

so excruciating. That week I saw Kacey Long's MTV story about her

implants and getting RA and other diseases and I was terrified. I

got tested for RA, Lupus, thyroid disease etc. Nothing came up so

the doctor said he said I probably had Fibromyalgia. I told him

about the implants and he said he didn't think that it was the

reason but he couldn't say for sure because he had a few patients

with implants in all his years who had said after they had them out

felt better. I asked the advice of other doctors including my

plastic surgeon who all told me it was unrelated, so I thought to

disregard the story I had heard on MTV (which was the first bad

explant story I had ever heard), but I knew I was denying all my

instincts and feelings in my body by saying that. I also didn't

want to think it was my implants because they did help my self

esteem. I instinctually knew from the beginning they were the

cause, especially because I got and still get random shooting pains

in my breasts before any other pains. I still, and will always kick

myself for not removing them when I thought they were the cause, but

my dad had payed for them so I didn't want to waste his money

especially because they were so new and great looking. About a

month ago I started having the scariest of my symptoms muscle

twitches, shaking (internal vibrating feelings), headaches,spaced

out feelings and randomly other weird symptoms. I feel like if I

had not listened to my doctors intially (my Plastic Surgeon told me

that they were not the culprit as well), I would not be nearly as in

bad of shape as I am now. I am sooo tired, so sick, and so worried

all the time, and here I am 21 years old. While my friends are out

partying, most nights I have to drag myself out to just be around

people at all. After I found this site I realized I cannot let my

health deterierate any longer because new symptoms seem to occur as

time goes on and I can't let myself get any sicker. I feel 80 years

old sometimes and it is just so depressing I really don't want to

live another possible 80 years of life like this. All my hopes of

being happy and healthy, even having kids one day went out the

window this year, I really wanted to crawl into a hole and die

because of the pain, depression, and most of all scared confusion-

until I found women on this site who got better. I was sooo shocked

to see people with similar symptoms and I was so afraid from the

realization of how sick I was was I called my parents and told them

I had to come home immediatly and get explanted regardless of

anything. I have been enrolled in school since my final decision of

explantion (since dicovery of this site), and working so I haven't

had an opportunity to have a surgery since the worse of the symptoms

began. I can't wait to get explanted in a month, this summer,

thankfully my dad is paying, (even though I think he also thinks it

is unrelated but I think he's hoping this will be a psychological

fix since the plastic surgeon told him that it is possibly all in my

head). How frustrating is that? What's weird is my hands/wrists

hardly ever bother me anymore but I will get random pains

every/anywhere now. This makes me sound even more unreliable

because it will be something new and different everyday, my parents

definitly think I'm imagining some of it, but trust me, I'm not. I

really expect to get better and will devote this summer soley to

detoxing. I know you don't want to pay the expensive costs, and you

probably don't have time, but I feel it is essencial to your health

to get explanted. Don't keep putting it off, because I did and now

what was just in my hands has spread to all my joints and even my

mind. I'm always scared and uneasy and I don't feel anyone should

live like this. I can't wait till the comfort of knowing they are

out, I still have to talk my doctor about removal of the capsules

because I found out how important that is for recovery. What is

another stressful factor is I have a boyfriend who doesn't know my

breasts are implants, so when I get them removed what do I tell

him? I could tell him the truth but I am in so denial about

everything I can't face that right now on top of everything. I'm

not even going to worry about what he's going to think because I

have to focus on getting better for myself and have faith everything

will work out in the end. I'm trying to be strong and I encourage

everyone else to be too in my position, because I believe with all

my heart the implants are making us sick and we can't spend our

precious time worrying about it, but need to take action. I think

and have seen from this site that eventually we will all get at

least significantly better if not 100%. We were all drawn here for

a reason, I saw Kacey's special for a reason, because God or

whoever's up there wants us to get better. Sorry my story was so

long, my posts always end up so long because I write a lot in my

spare time and get carried away, but I know how much I enjoy the

details of everyone else's stories so I thought I'd share with you,

Good luck Lynn, I'm here if you want to know ask me anything,

and I will keep you and everyone else updated on my recovery after

my explantation in a month. It's so great to read posts from

explanted women who I read posts regularly only a month ago and now

are feeling better. I respect the women on this site so much who

have the strength to take intiative to take such excellent care of

themselves after explantion. Even more than that I am so thankful

for all those who have gotten well but still take the time to answer

all of our confused questions. The first step to fixing anything is

recognizing what's causing the problem and then eliminating it.

-Lo

April 27, 2005

You know that is crazy how you said that now your hands and wrists

don't really bother you, but other things. My hands started hurting

in May of 2001, it was horrible, I got pregnant with my oldest boy in

July of 2001, after he was born the pain had moved to my wrists with

only minor pain in my hands, then in March 2004 I got pregnant with

my baby boy, and this time, my pain was consistant through my

pregnancy, but now I have something going on with my tongue, and the

pain in my hands and wrists is minimal. It's wierd how this stuff

moves around don't you think? I always wonder what will be affected

next, my brain? Or like some people have had problems with their

spine and neck, how scary!

I'm going to a consult in May. I really want these out!

Goodluck to you...and makesure to keep in touch.

--- In , " lolosky2 " <lolosky2@y...>

wrote:

>

> Dear ,

> I'm really glad you found this site as well. I'm Lo, only 21

> years old and have had implants since age 19. Now I realize how

> young I was and still am to make such a major decision but I felt

> mature enough and had always felt like an awkward teen as well as

> many other issues at that time. I wanted to do something to make

> myself happy and instead, a few months after implantation, my

health

> and happiness started deteriorating. One night a few months after

> implant, I was using my computer and my hands and forearms started

> having shooting pains. I couldn't even use them to type papers and

> writing notes in class was even painful. I couldn't play the piano

> anymore or games with my friends. I became very unhappy because I

> am so young and I felt like I would be crippled forever from all

the

> things I love. I thought maybe somehow I had carpal tunnel but I

> had 2 never tests and those came out negative. I did strength

> training exercises for my arms because I thought maybe I had

> weakness but that was unsucessful as well. Then I noticed it was

> worse with humiditiy and it was very consistant in my wrist and

> joints in my hands. Knowing this was an arthritis symptom, but in

> denial of it, I dealed with it by just taking advil. Eventually I

> went to an osteologist(?) and my doctor told me he didn't know what

> was wrong because x-rays were fine and he didn't think I had

> rheumatory arthritis. I'm too young for osteoarthritis for never

> breaking anything in that area, so I was baffled what it could be

> and just lived with it until recently. A few months ago, I started

> getting horrible joint pains everywhere. I don't know if it had to

> do with this, but I went on vacation this winter and I'm not sure

if

> the plane ride sparked something, but the day after I got home I

had

> horrible joint pain everywhere. (If anyone knows if elevation may

> effect implants please let me know). I was terrified because it was

> so excruciating. That week I saw Kacey Long's MTV story about her

> implants and getting RA and other diseases and I was terrified. I

> got tested for RA, Lupus, thyroid disease etc. Nothing came up so

> the doctor said he said I probably had Fibromyalgia. I told him

> about the implants and he said he didn't think that it was the

> reason but he couldn't say for sure because he had a few patients

> with implants in all his years who had said after they had them out

> felt better. I asked the advice of other doctors including my

> plastic surgeon who all told me it was unrelated, so I thought to

> disregard the story I had heard on MTV (which was the first bad

> explant story I had ever heard), but I knew I was denying all my

> instincts and feelings in my body by saying that. I also didn't

> want to think it was my implants because they did help my self

> esteem. I instinctually knew from the beginning they were the

> cause, especially because I got and still get random shooting pains

> in my breasts before any other pains. I still, and will always

kick

> myself for not removing them when I thought they were the cause,

but

> my dad had payed for them so I didn't want to waste his money

> especially because they were so new and great looking. About a

> month ago I started having the scariest of my symptoms muscle

> twitches, shaking (internal vibrating feelings), headaches,spaced

> out feelings and randomly other weird symptoms. I feel like if I

> had not listened to my doctors intially (my Plastic Surgeon told me

> that they were not the culprit as well), I would not be nearly as

in

> bad of shape as I am now. I am sooo tired, so sick, and so worried

> all the time, and here I am 21 years old. While my friends are out

> partying, most nights I have to drag myself out to just be around

> people at all. After I found this site I realized I cannot let my

> health deterierate any longer because new symptoms seem to occur as

> time goes on and I can't let myself get any sicker. I feel 80

years

> old sometimes and it is just so depressing I really don't want to

> live another possible 80 years of life like this. All my hopes of

> being happy and healthy, even having kids one day went out the

> window this year, I really wanted to crawl into a hole and die

> because of the pain, depression, and most of all scared confusion-

> until I found women on this site who got better. I was sooo

shocked

> to see people with similar symptoms and I was so afraid from the

> realization of how sick I was was I called my parents and told them

> I had to come home immediatly and get explanted regardless of

> anything. I have been enrolled in school since my final decision

of

> explantion (since dicovery of this site), and working so I haven't

> had an opportunity to have a surgery since the worse of the

symptoms

> began. I can't wait to get explanted in a month, this summer,

> thankfully my dad is paying, (even though I think he also thinks it

> is unrelated but I think he's hoping this will be a psychological

> fix since the plastic surgeon told him that it is possibly all in

my

> head). How frustrating is that? What's weird is my hands/wrists

> hardly ever bother me anymore but I will get random pains

> every/anywhere now. This makes me sound even more unreliable

> because it will be something new and different everyday, my parents

> definitly think I'm imagining some of it, but trust me, I'm not. I

> really expect to get better and will devote this summer soley to

> detoxing. I know you don't want to pay the expensive costs, and

you

> probably don't have time, but I feel it is essencial to your health

> to get explanted. Don't keep putting it off, because I did and now

> what was just in my hands has spread to all my joints and even my

> mind. I'm always scared and uneasy and I don't feel anyone should

> live like this. I can't wait till the comfort of knowing they are

> out, I still have to talk my doctor about removal of the capsules

> because I found out how important that is for recovery. What is

> another stressful factor is I have a boyfriend who doesn't know my

> breasts are implants, so when I get them removed what do I tell

> him? I could tell him the truth but I am in so denial about

> everything I can't face that right now on top of everything. I'm

> not even going to worry about what he's going to think because I

> have to focus on getting better for myself and have faith

everything

> will work out in the end. I'm trying to be strong and I encourage

> everyone else to be too in my position, because I believe with all

> my heart the implants are making us sick and we can't spend our

> precious time worrying about it, but need to take action. I think

> and have seen from this site that eventually we will all get at

> least significantly better if not 100%. We were all drawn here for

> a reason, I saw Kacey's special for a reason, because God or

> whoever's up there wants us to get better. Sorry my story was so

> long, my posts always end up so long because I write a lot in my

> spare time and get carried away, but I know how much I enjoy the

> details of everyone else's stories so I thought I'd share with

you,

> Good luck Lynn, I'm here if you want to know ask me

anything,

> and I will keep you and everyone else updated on my recovery after

> my explantation in a month. It's so great to read posts from

> explanted women who I read posts regularly only a month ago and now

> are feeling better. I respect the women on this site so much who

> have the strength to take intiative to take such excellent care of

> themselves after explantion. Even more than that I am so thankful

> for all those who have gotten well but still take the time to

answer

> all of our confused questions. The first step to fixing anything

is

> recognizing what's causing the problem and then eliminating it.

> -Lo

April 28, 2005

Great story lo. Thanks for sharing. It is very important that we

share our stories with each other. Not only are they very helpful

in comparing symptoms and circumstances, but I think it also very

therapeutic both to write our stories and read others. I am sure

that your symptoms are related to toxicity and once your implants

are out, that should be a big toxic load off your body. Then you

can concentrate on getting the rest of the way well.

YOur symptoms of vibrating, twitches and random pain were very much

the symptoms I had (and still have when detoxing).

I also wanted to share with you that I totally relate to your fears

about sharing with your boyfriend about your implants. I was 36

years old when I decided to get implants (it wasn't my husband's

idea but he sure was excited!). I had a 2 year old and an 8 year

old at the time. My husband died unexpectedly 7 years later. I

never thought I would have to tell any guy that I had implants.

When I remarried, I --like you--never told my husband that I had

implants. I don't know if he knew or not, he never asked and I

never mentioned it. Well, we had been married all of three months

and I that is when I found this site (I had gotten really sick just

months before we got married but didnt know what was wrong). At any

rate, I found myself in the position of having to tell my husband

that not only did I have fake boobs, but that I was actually totally

flat and that the implants were coming out. I was very scared and

nervous. It was very hard to tell him, but he took it ok. He was

very supportive and went to cleveland with me. Then, after the

surgery, Dr. Feng asked if we wanted to see how they looked. I

couldn't let Dale look at the same time. I was too nervous. I

actually didnt let him see my breasts for about 3 weeks after. By

that time, they had started to fluff out some from the surgery,

however I was still very flat as I had been to begin with! He

didn't seem to mind and we have a great personal life. If your

boyfriend loves you, he won't care all that much. I don't think

size matters to anyone who truly loves someone, and especially not

if someone's health is in jeopardy. I am sure that it will be the

same for you. Stay encouraged, and please don't beat yourself up

for getting your implants, or for not getting them out sooner. That

is only a destructive emotion that will not serve you in getting

well. It is better to concentrate on how blessed you are for God

leading you to this site, and how it won't be long now until you are

well on your way to being better. God bless!

kathy

--- In , " lolosky2 " <lolosky2@y...>

wrote:

>

> Dear ,

> I'm really glad you found this site as well. I'm Lo, only 21

> years old and have had implants since age 19. Now I realize how

> young I was and still am to make such a major decision but I felt

> mature enough and had always felt like an awkward teen as well as

> many other issues at that time. I wanted to do something to make

> myself happy and instead, a few months after implantation, my

health

> and happiness started deteriorating. One night a few months after

> implant, I was using my computer and my hands and forearms started

> having shooting pains. I couldn't even use them to type papers

and

> writing notes in class was even painful. I couldn't play the

piano

> anymore or games with my friends. I became very unhappy because I

> am so young and I felt like I would be crippled forever from all

the

> things I love. I thought maybe somehow I had carpal tunnel but I

> had 2 never tests and those came out negative. I did strength

> training exercises for my arms because I thought maybe I had

> weakness but that was unsucessful as well. Then I noticed it was

> worse with humiditiy and it was very consistant in my wrist and

> joints in my hands. Knowing this was an arthritis symptom, but in

> denial of it, I dealed with it by just taking advil. Eventually I

> went to an osteologist(?) and my doctor told me he didn't know

what

> was wrong because x-rays were fine and he didn't think I had

> rheumatory arthritis. I'm too young for osteoarthritis for never

> breaking anything in that area, so I was baffled what it could be

> and just lived with it until recently. A few months ago, I

started

> getting horrible joint pains everywhere. I don't know if it had

to

> do with this, but I went on vacation this winter and I'm not sure

if

> the plane ride sparked something, but the day after I got home I

had

> horrible joint pain everywhere. (If anyone knows if elevation may

> effect implants please let me know). I was terrified because it

was

> so excruciating. That week I saw Kacey Long's MTV story about her

> implants and getting RA and other diseases and I was terrified. I

> got tested for RA, Lupus, thyroid disease etc. Nothing came up so

> the doctor said he said I probably had Fibromyalgia. I told him

> about the implants and he said he didn't think that it was the

> reason but he couldn't say for sure because he had a few patients

> with implants in all his years who had said after they had them

out

> felt better. I asked the advice of other doctors including my

> plastic surgeon who all told me it was unrelated, so I thought to

> disregard the story I had heard on MTV (which was the first bad

> explant story I had ever heard), but I knew I was denying all my

> instincts and feelings in my body by saying that. I also didn't

> want to think it was my implants because they did help my self

> esteem. I instinctually knew from the beginning they were the

> cause, especially because I got and still get random shooting

pains

> in my breasts before any other pains. I still, and will always

kick

> myself for not removing them when I thought they were the cause,

but

> my dad had payed for them so I didn't want to waste his money

> especially because they were so new and great looking. About a

> month ago I started having the scariest of my symptoms muscle

> twitches, shaking (internal vibrating feelings), headaches,spaced

> out feelings and randomly other weird symptoms. I feel like if I

> had not listened to my doctors intially (my Plastic Surgeon told

me

> that they were not the culprit as well), I would not be nearly as

in

> bad of shape as I am now. I am sooo tired, so sick, and so

worried

> all the time, and here I am 21 years old. While my friends are

out

> partying, most nights I have to drag myself out to just be around

> people at all. After I found this site I realized I cannot let my

> health deterierate any longer because new symptoms seem to occur

as

> time goes on and I can't let myself get any sicker. I feel 80

years

> old sometimes and it is just so depressing I really don't want to

> live another possible 80 years of life like this. All my hopes of

> being happy and healthy, even having kids one day went out the

> window this year, I really wanted to crawl into a hole and die

> because of the pain, depression, and most of all scared confusion-

> until I found women on this site who got better. I was sooo

shocked

> to see people with similar symptoms and I was so afraid from the

> realization of how sick I was was I called my parents and told

them

> I had to come home immediatly and get explanted regardless of

> anything. I have been enrolled in school since my final decision

of

> explantion (since dicovery of this site), and working so I haven't

> had an opportunity to have a surgery since the worse of the

symptoms

> began. I can't wait to get explanted in a month, this summer,

> thankfully my dad is paying, (even though I think he also thinks

it

> is unrelated but I think he's hoping this will be a psychological

> fix since the plastic surgeon told him that it is possibly all in

my

> head). How frustrating is that? What's weird is my hands/wrists

> hardly ever bother me anymore but I will get random pains

> every/anywhere now. This makes me sound even more unreliable

> because it will be something new and different everyday, my

parents

> definitly think I'm imagining some of it, but trust me, I'm not.

I

> really expect to get better and will devote this summer soley to

> detoxing. I know you don't want to pay the expensive costs, and

you

> probably don't have time, but I feel it is essencial to your

health

> to get explanted. Don't keep putting it off, because I did and

now