To Hawk

[Guest guest]

Dear Hawk,

My name is . I had an accident, which started a horrible chronic

pain condition. I feel so bad for you because you have more then anyone

should have to bare. Just know I am with you and I care so much. I have

lost most of my support and friends, because nobody can deal with the

pain. Nobody really believes me. I was diagnosised with FMS/MPS/CFS, and

I look ok, so everyone thinks I'm nuts. I have thought about suicide, in

fact it is still an option If the docs. do not treat the pain. So far,

they have left me suffering, loosing my job, almost loosing my family, I

am praying for you and understanding where your comming from. I hope the

pump will help you! You need some damn pain relief!!!

(((Gentle Hugs)))

>

> From: SPOOKYHAWK@...

>

> My name is Hawk,I'm 38 years old and was finally diagnosed 2 years ago

> w/chronic pain. 7 years ago I injured my back at work,rupturing 4 disks.

> Now this is just the start of a very long path that I have been asked to

> travel (why?I don't know!) that has brought serious physical

> complications,mental troubles including suicide attempts and severe

> depression,and extreme financial hardship.

> I have found the right Docs who have Dx'd me w/Failed Back

> Syndrome,Arachnoiditis,4 bulging disks in the Lumbar,1 in the

> Thoracic(all 5 are pressing on a combined 8 nerve roots) area,

> Neurogenic Bladder(have to Cath myself,no sensation), Right Leg

> Radiulopathy that has left my Right leg paralysed,Calcium deposits

> around 8 nerve roots,24/7-9+ PAIN,Severe Depression w/Suicidal

> Ideations/Tendencies....and too much other depressing crap to tell you

> about right now. They are sending me next month to be evaluated for the

> " PUMP " ,have me on 6000mg Neurontin , 6Ansaid daily,4-20mg Prozac,other

> Anxiety/Panic disorder " mood altering drugs " ,Robaxin750 4-6day,and 24hr

> Suicide watch Nursing care.

> That is only part of my Lifes' story,most of it I have now lost along

> with friends,job,money,faith to name a few.

> I am sorry to bring you all down but this is my life and I

have to

> tell someone B4 I go Ballistic.....Sorry Ken.....Hawk

>

> -----------------------------------------------------------------------------

> Help ONElist keep this service free, while generating interest in your

> product or service. ONElist has a variety of advertising packages.

> Visit http://www.onelist.com/advert.html for more information.

> -----------------------------------------------------------------------------