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[Guest guest]

I wrote this letter today to someone who was concerned about all the

disagreements on our two lists.

I humbly reprint it because this is how I feel right now and I want to share

it.

I just came in from sitting on the front porch gazing at the garden,the

grass and the trees and my heart so full of gratitude for LIFE and for the

Force of Love around me. Long ago I received the " gift of tongues " , the

first time I really said " yes' and when my heart is so full, all I can do

is resort to this unconscious speech of praise and thanksgiving.

It puts life back in its proper perspective.

All those people who go into their " argumentative " mode including me, just

do it usually for the time they are on the net. Everybody has to show

everyone else how bright they are and how right their view of life is. If it

were all to disappear tomorrow, nothing would have changed. Some of us

increase our consciousness by grappling with numerous complexes there and I

suppose that is what draws me.

Don't take the works of man too seriously. In 100 years all these petty

problems will be gone, and the constant gnashing of teeth will be long

forgotten.

The politics, the international and the economic outlook are a bit much for

any one of us. But our power is limited, and we can only suffer for and with

the world. Even there I think we take ourselves too seriously...as if we

personally can do much more than watch and pray.

" The earth is the Lord's and its fullness thereof "

I think on of the benefits of old age is the perspective we can have on

what's important to us and what isn't. Now pain we cannot rationalize away,

but my theory has been, when I don't listen closely, the Lord says " lay down

and pay attention " The Self knows what we need.

It is also my opinion and that is just what it is, that what is wrong with

us all is that we think we have to build defenses of any kind. I do it big

time as you know, but in my saner moments I realize the futility of it.

First I don't want to defend myself against reality, but accept it, and

second, my pride needs to shut up and I not care what others think. Both of

those defeat me sometimes.

You don't need a defense if you can tell yourself " this too shall pass " and "

by, G-d the world has made it this far,and we will just have to depend on

Other , or others than ourselves " Human beings need to chat, human beings

need to explain their hopes and fears, but human beings are not in charge.

Nature and the All take care of that, we just get too big for our britches

and instead of tending the fire at home we want to go out into the world and

worry about the fire there. These at least are my thoughts today.

The earth is the Lord's ...is a sensible sentence because it reminds us of

our smallness and our overall powerlessness except for those things we can

touch and heal. Whatever view of the All one has, if one believes Jung,

there is a Force, an immanent and transcendent Force that is bigger than we

are, and our Selfes are aware of it, and our ego ought to remember it.

End of sermon, but I am very full of joy today?

Do you ever read the psalms? They buoy my spirit sometimes, often/

much love, and go out and remember how big the Universe really is and how

small we really are. That usually helps me keep thing in perspective unless

I am so muddled I forget.

Toni