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Hi Everyone,

I have been a observer for at least six-months. I have finally gotten up the

nerve to post.

We are going through a very hard time right now, like most. My husband may

lose his job next week. And we are already hurting financially . SS turned me

down. I didn't have work credits in the right time. Is there anything else I

could do to get the credits I have?? I was sharing this with my sister and she

insisted I get a job with the bank. I told her there is no way I could work. She

just keep on . I told her she really doesn't understand,and needs to walk in my

shoes. She just doesn't get it. Even my husband who sees it's affect everyday

gets resentful. My sleeping and inactivity . As if I rather do this then Live.

I have Fibro,Reflux/IBS, CFS and of course some disc issues and more. I have two

wonderful kids. They keep me going. This is a very hard way to live. I have not

gotten into a good grove of coping yet. I try to stay positive and do what I can

each day. But it's hard when my husband is so resentful. He calls each day from

work over and over again until I wake up. I have explained, and he has seen me

just fall asleep at odd times. When my body gives out, I can doze off doing

anything.He calls for no other reason than to wake me up.I feel like I am on the

defense all the time.

I feel that if I had a little more moral support from my husband I could cope

better.

I will stop here. That's enough for my first post. Thank you for the shoulder to

cry on.