Re: Help!!! severely depressed aspie here :(

[Guest guest]

Hi Greg,

Sorry to hear you're feeling down. You usually seem quite upbeat. I

know what it's like to be down and suspect a lot of people here do

to. When you're feeling like this I suspect that no matter what

people say it doesn't seem to help; but I shall attempt anyway

I hate the kind of empty platitudes of 'pull yourself together',etc,

that never works! if it did we'd all be fine, surely. Even the

brightest day will not work if I am down.

As for the girlfriend thing, would that really work? Relationships

can be a load of hassle, maybe focusing on yourself would be more

worthwhile? If the girlfriend thing is meant to be it'll happen at

the right time (I'm a great believer in this).

(Co-incidently, this cursor flashing on and off is bugging the hell

out of me; making typing this very hard)

I know it feels like Sh*t (pardon the french) right now, but as

everyone knows whose been through depression before that eventually

you come out of it; although it may not seem like it at the time.

I don't know if I can offer anymore words of re-assurance (whatever),

but just hang in there. I find doing creative stuff quite good when

down, if I am able, lots of black dark writting from the reccesses of

my soul and similar pictures and stuff and just try work through the

dark stuff. Don't know if this would help.

Hope you feel better soon,

Greebo

> Hello Everyone, I have not been feeling well lately because i've

> been in a major funk and feeling out sorts, so much to the point

> that i've even felt suicidal . Because i've felt like life is the

> same boring shit day after day and it never changes,i wake up every

> day to phone calls and endless routines and rituals that i commonly

> go by to get myself ready for another day of bullshit. And then by

> the time the day is over i've still accomplished nothing, and the

> world hasn't changed a bit, i still haven't found the love of my

> life to comfort me when i need her the most. I feel like i'm

looking

> through an empty glass window during the coldest snowiest day of

> winter, only it's not winter.

>

> Life is dull,grey and boring and we all know it. Every day is the

> same, nothing ever changes, the only things that change are the

> clothes we wear, the expressions on our faces from happy to sad, or

> content to frustrated, or content to angry or to just downright

> depressed. They say laughter is the best medicine but it's honestly

> one of those things that are left on the sidelines. Sure it helps

> but there's always that feeling of emptiness in my heart whenever i

> try to feel around for that feeling of joy or comfort that i

usually

> get when i have a love in my life.

>

> I'm not happy right now and i wish it would just end in some way

> that is notably better than the way things are now. A girlfriend

> would be nice but finding one is like trying to find a silver grain

> of sand amidst a million golden grains of sand, it's impossible. I

> wish i knew the answers to all these problems right now but i just

> don't because they're all cast away just like everything else that

i

> ever hoped for. Anybody care to spare me a moment? I hope to

hear

> from you soon,good luck in all you do.

>

>

> Signed,

> Greg

[Guest guest]

Hi Greg,

I’m not sure

what to say that would help, but I want you to know I’m listening! I hope you are feeling better

today.

I go into funks quite

often lately and have been thinking about going to a doctor about it. Have you tried?

Do you sleep well? I’ve been researching sleep

deprivation and depression and cortisol levels (stress related) lately. Another name for cortisol is ‘the

death hormone’ – that says a lot!

Sorry, I have to go

now (and do my morning routines and rituals), but just wanted to reply so you

know I care.

Wendi

Help!!! severely depressed aspie here

Hello Everyone, I have not been feeling well lately

because i've

been in a major funk and feeling out sorts, so

much to the point

that i've even felt suicidal . Because i've felt

like life is the

same boring shit day after day and it never

changes,i wake up every

day to phone calls and endless routines and

rituals that i commonly

go by to get myself ready for another day of

bullshit. And then by

the time the day is over i've still accomplished

nothing, and the

world hasn't changed a bit, i still haven't found

the love of my

life to comfort me when i need her the most. I

feel like i'm looking

through an empty glass window during the coldest

snowiest day of

winter, only it's not winter.

Life is dull,grey and boring and we all know it.

Every day is the

same, nothing ever changes, the only things that

change are the

clothes we wear, the expressions on our faces from

happy to sad, or

content to frustrated, or content to angry or to

just downright

depressed. They say laughter is the best medicine

but it's honestly

one of those things that are left on the

sidelines. Sure it helps

but there's always that feeling of emptiness in my

heart whenever i

try to feel around for that feeling of joy or

comfort that i usually

get when i have a love in my life.

I'm not happy right now and i wish it would just

end in some way

that is notably better than the way things are

now. A girlfriend

would be nice but finding one is like trying to

find a silver grain

of sand amidst a million golden grains of sand,

it's impossible. I

wish i knew the answers to all these problems

right now but i just

don't because they're all cast away just like

everything else that i

ever hoped for. Anybody care to spare me a moment?

I hope to hear

from you soon,good luck in all you do.

Signed,

Greg

[Guest guest]

Greg,

I have been and still am in your shoes. It wasn't until about three

years ago that I began restructuring my life by changing jobs,

quitting dating, and doing a lot more traveling.

I am now doing more of what I want to do and on my terms, but am

still unhappy because the more I travel, the more I realize that:

1) Where I am living now is not where I want to be.

2) There isn't anywhere else that looks better, in my opinion.

And of course, I have no real companion to share my life with.

There is a certain friend that I voice chat with and PM with, but

she's not HERE.

The only advice I can give is to change what you can to lighten the

stress level and once each change has been made, focus on changing

the next thing. Gradually, your life will seem to improve. Mine

has improved slightly via this method.

Tom

> Hello Everyone, I have not been feeling well lately because i've

> been in a major funk and feeling out sorts, so much to the point

> that i've even felt suicidal . Because i've felt like life is

the

> same boring shit day after day and it never changes,i wake up

every

> day to phone calls and endless routines and rituals that i

commonly

> go by to get myself ready for another day of bullshit. And then by

> the time the day is over i've still accomplished nothing, and the

> world hasn't changed a bit, i still haven't found the love of my

> life to comfort me when i need her the most. I feel like i'm

looking

> through an empty glass window during the coldest snowiest day of

> winter, only it's not winter.

>

> Life is dull,grey and boring and we all know it. Every day is the

> same, nothing ever changes, the only things that change are the

> clothes we wear, the expressions on our faces from happy to sad,

or

> content to frustrated, or content to angry or to just downright

> depressed. They say laughter is the best medicine but it's

honestly

> one of those things that are left on the sidelines. Sure it helps

> but there's always that feeling of emptiness in my heart whenever

i

> try to feel around for that feeling of joy or comfort that i

usually

> get when i have a love in my life.

>

> I'm not happy right now and i wish it would just end in some way

> that is notably better than the way things are now. A girlfriend

> would be nice but finding one is like trying to find a silver

grain

> of sand amidst a million golden grains of sand, it's impossible. I

> wish i knew the answers to all these problems right now but i just

> don't because they're all cast away just like everything else that

i

> ever hoped for. Anybody care to spare me a moment? I hope to

hear

> from you soon,good luck in all you do.

>

>

> Signed,

> Greg

[Guest guest]

Greg & Tom,

My sympathies to you both. I've been there too.

I was very fortunate to be born in the right country. Here an AS dx entitles

you to all sorts of help, so me they gavea lovely little house in the

country and my own assistant who does my shopping and other things i might

need help with. It's really great, but i still don't feel " at home " here.

So i've got an idea. I'll describe it in a separate mail.

Inger

> I have been and still am in your shoes. It wasn't until about three

> years ago that I began restructuring my life by changing jobs,

> quitting dating, and doing a lot more traveling.

>

> I am now doing more of what I want to do and on my terms, but am

> still unhappy because the more I travel, the more I realize that:

>

> 1) Where I am living now is not where I want to be.

> 2) There isn't anywhere else that looks better, in my opinion.

>

> And of course, I have no real companion to share my life with.

> There is a certain friend that I voice chat with and PM with, but

> she's not HERE.

>

> The only advice I can give is to change what you can to lighten the

> stress level and once each change has been made, focus on changing

> the next thing. Gradually, your life will seem to improve. Mine

> has improved slightly via this method.

>

> Tom

> Hello Everyone, I have not been feeling well lately because i've

> been in a major funk and feeling out sorts, so much to the point

> that i've even felt suicidal . Because i've felt like life is

the

> same boring shit day after day and it never changes,i wake up

every

> day to phone calls and endless routines and rituals that i

commonly

> go by to get myself ready for another day of bullshit. And then by

> the time the day is over i've still accomplished nothing, and the

> world hasn't changed a bit, i still haven't found the love of my

> life to comfort me when i need her the most. I feel like i'm

looking

> through an empty glass window during the coldest snowiest day of

> winter, only it's not winter.

>

> Life is dull,grey and boring and we all know it. Every day is the

> same, nothing ever changes, the only things that change are the

> clothes we wear, the expressions on our faces from happy to sad,

or

> content to frustrated, or content to angry or to just downright

> depressed. They say laughter is the best medicine but it's

honestly

> one of those things that are left on the sidelines. Sure it helps

> but there's always that feeling of emptiness in my heart whenever

i

> try to feel around for that feeling of joy or comfort that i

usually

> get when i have a love in my life.

>

> I'm not happy right now and i wish it would just end in some way

> that is notably better than the way things are now. A girlfriend

> would be nice but finding one is like trying to find a silver

grain

> of sand amidst a million golden grains of sand, it's impossible. I

> wish i knew the answers to all these problems right now but i just

> don't because they're all cast away just like everything else that

i

> ever hoped for. Anybody care to spare me a moment? I hope to

hear

> from you soon,good luck in all you do.

>

>

> Signed,

> Greg