Re: -burning candle at both ends?/

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I DID burn the candle, and, besides genetics, I know that it all very contributed to the downhill ride of Hashimoto's and general thyroid failure, both lifestyle (at one time) and general personality type. I have since become more "laid back" because I HAD to, but I can't immagine not working either. I am a single woman and have to support myself, having no paid sick days either, so I know exactly what you mean. This is why my private, ME time, and my sleep situation have to be SO important. What with my oldest daughter and her 2 yr old living with me, I really have to be territorial. Of course, it would be ideal, if she could make it on her own entirely, but I just don't think that's going to happen right now.

Tx

Re: -burning candle at both ends?/

Hi again, ! Yeah, you're right. I have to be very careful to make sure I get plenty of rest and sleep. Maybe I can't be objective, but I think I'm not overdoing it.

I work my day job usually just on Mon & Tues mornings, so Sun. night & Mon. night I do get less sleep than I should. Five hours sleep isn't enough, but I figure 2 nights a week isn't too bad if I'm getting enough sleep and rest the rest of the week. Whatcha think?

I have two days off every week (Wed/Thurs). Occasionally I work on one of those days but not too often. Five days a week I sleep as much as I want. Since we work 2nd shift we don't get up with an alarm. I usually sleep at least 8 hours.

I do have responsibilities at home like everyone else...paperwork crap and housework. Kemal and I do the housework together, so that doesn't take long.

I do some kind of aerobic exercise 5 days a weeks for 30-45 min. Typically in the winter it's only 30 minutes; I'm much more active in the summer. Other than that, I'm resting.

I will start back to school on the 13th of this month, but I'm only taking one class.

Maybe I am unable to be objective so I want feedback from you, , as well as the rest of the gang. Yes, I am a type A personality, but I really think I'm not burning the candle at both ends.

You have to understand that last Dec. I had 3 jobs and also had my own business. I have REALLY slowed down!!!

I also don't have ANY sick time. We don't get sick days or personal days at the restaurant, so if you're sick, you're just off work without pay. If I feel bad and go home early, again, I just lose hours. I don't have the luxury of calling in when I may not feel up to par. I call in if I'm contagious or simply can't work. Otherwise, I make myself do it.

I was talking to my casework at the Dept. of Voc. Rehab and she asked me about how I was able to work when my thyroid problems were at its worst. I told her the truth. I am not someone who gives up; I'm a fighter. I HAVE to work for a living, and I will work as hard as I can. And even though I felt like it was all I could do just to get out of bed every morning, I made myself; I pushed myself. That's just how I am. When I broke my wrist or elbow or whatever it was, I still managed to wait tables. I don't know how I managed to carry those huge trays but I did. I was slower, but I still did it. Seems like people in this group are the much the same...very resilient

She told me usually people who are employed are not eligible for services. I told her "that's fine, I can leave right now, but I'm gonna be working until I can no longer stand up." Anyway, to my surprise, she has gotten me in the system and I have a psych eval on the 22nd of this month.

Because my allergist has told me I need to NOT be working in the kitchen at the restaurant, then my asthma kinda some kind of disability for me at my current job. If I switch to being a hostess, there's no way I'll get full time hours.

I also told her about my phobia of being in a car which definitely limits me as far as getting another job is concerned. I won't take a job that is more than 10 miles away because of that.

With my Hashi's/hypo, I know there's no way I have the strength to wait tables again. I truly don't feel like I'm physically capable.

She is in the process of getting all my medical records. With all my various physical problems, she's going to put me in the system and see what happens. I'm surprised. I told her all I wanted was a psych eval to determine if I have dyscalculia and/or ADD so I can get some help at the campus. She's taking it a step further, trying to see if their office can offer me some additional help.

I don't know what they can do to help me, but I'm gonna let them try.

I have so many medical expenses it's unreal. Working at the doctor's office helps a lot because I'm getting tons of samples and my supervisor writes off all my copays.

Anyway, , I'm rambling, and I'm gonna stop. Sorry...Hugs. Sheila