Re: Off Topic - Anger management - predisone

[Guest guest]

Thanks Lou. I am 36. Way too young for all of this. My girls are 13

& 9 and for the most part I am pretty good at not yelling at them. It

just seems to be . I have spoken with my doc and he says that it

is one of the classic symptoms of Cushings Syndrome which I am in full

swing and is directly caused by the steroids. I will ask him about

vitamin E. The only thing that he did was up the Xanax and assure me

that it is not my fault. Well my fault or not doesn't help when I am

hurting the people I love the most.

Madeline

> >

> > Hi guys - not really sure if this is off topic or not as it does not

> > directly pertain to my breathing, but here goes. I know that

> Kathleen

> > and I have spoken about this a good bit previously, but I am

> > desparate. Earlier in the week I had a cold, and I believe the cold

> > was just enough to push me over the edge and let the steroids take

> > over my moods. For a couple of days I was in the worst moods of my

> > life. I am generally a very positive and happy person. I tend to

> > have the attitude that you just deal with whatever life throws your

> > way. Your attitude is your altitude and all that. Now I understand

> > that my mood issues are probably completely due to the prednisone

> (80

> > mg per day for the foreseeable future), and I can not come off of

> this

> > doseage. My docs really believe that it is the only thing standing

> > between me and a ventilator. Also, I have noticed a major

> improvement

> > in my PFs in general. So the steroids are doing something. Anyway

> my

> > real problem is my anger. This week has been horrible. I will get

> so

> > angry over nothing. Especially at DH. And most of the time all he

> is

> > trying to do is help me with something. I have been almost a

> complete

> > invalid for the past several months as I have little strength or

> > stamina and that is really chafing me as well. I tend to be able to

> > bite my tongue for the most part with the kids, but not with DH.

> > Anyway I bit his head off and he bit back this time. I do not blame

> > him, he was completely justified, but we had a major fight. Ended

> up

> > with my asthma and oxygen levels being nutty all night and my chest

> > hurting. No sleep last night at all. I am not going through all

> this

> > for your sympathy. I need some suggestions. I am taking Xanax 3

> > times a day, and I is just not doing it. Does anyone know of some

> > kind of herb (legal) that may help? I am very good with

> visualization

> > techniques and general techniques to stay positive - I use many

> daily.

> > They just don't seem to help when the " roid rage " is in full

> effect.

> > The worst part is that I know when I am being completely

> > unreasonable. I know that it is me, but I seem to have absolutely

> no

> > control. I am so afraid that I am going to push DH away (this has

> > been 4 months of the steroids now), and he deserves the husband and

> > father of the year award. He told me last night that he doesn't

> know

> > how much more of this he can stand. I have to find a way to control

> > this. He is so good about everything. He doesn't deserve my anger

> or

> > to be lashed out at. HELP.

> >

> > Madeline

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Sorry Madeline, guess I got you confused with someone else's age. I

have a dau that is having the same problem that you are having right

not, but she is older than you. The many steroids that you have

been taking may have a lot to do with the problem. But there is also

other things. When I start having a problem I start checking my meds

to see if there is anyone that might fit my symptons. Did your

problem get worse after the dr uped your Xanax? Maybe your dr could

order blood work to see if there is something that is low...like

potassium, etc. I'm so sorry that you are having these problems. I

will see if I can find a herbal formula that would replace the Xanax,

but I would not change or start anything new without discussing with

your Dr.

With love,

Lou

> > >

> > > Hi guys - not really sure if this is off topic or not as it

does not

> > > directly pertain to my breathing, but here goes. I know that

> > Kathleen

> > > and I have spoken about this a good bit previously, but I am

> > > desparate. Earlier in the week I had a cold, and I believe the

cold

> > > was just enough to push me over the edge and let the steroids

take

> > > over my moods. For a couple of days I was in the worst moods

of my

> > > life. I am generally a very positive and happy person. I tend

to

> > > have the attitude that you just deal with whatever life throws

your

> > > way. Your attitude is your altitude and all that. Now I

understand

> > > that my mood issues are probably completely due to the

prednisone

> > (80

> > > mg per day for the foreseeable future), and I can not come off

of

> > this

> > > doseage. My docs really believe that it is the only thing

standing

> > > between me and a ventilator. Also, I have noticed a major

> > improvement

> > > in my PFs in general. So the steroids are doing something.

Anyway

> > my

> > > real problem is my anger. This week has been horrible. I will

get

> > so

> > > angry over nothing. Especially at DH. And most of the time

all he

> > is

> > > trying to do is help me with something. I have been almost a

> > complete

> > > invalid for the past several months as I have little strength or

> > > stamina and that is really chafing me as well. I tend to be

able to

> > > bite my tongue for the most part with the kids, but not with

DH.

> > > Anyway I bit his head off and he bit back this time. I do not

blame

> > > him, he was completely justified, but we had a major fight.

Ended

> > up

> > > with my asthma and oxygen levels being nutty all night and my

chest

> > > hurting. No sleep last night at all. I am not going through

all

> > this

> > > for your sympathy. I need some suggestions. I am taking Xanax

3

> > > times a day, and I is just not doing it. Does anyone know of

some

> > > kind of herb (legal) that may help? I am very good with

> > visualization

> > > techniques and general techniques to stay positive - I use many

> > daily.

> > > They just don't seem to help when the " roid rage " is in full

> > effect.

> > > The worst part is that I know when I am being completely

> > > unreasonable. I know that it is me, but I seem to have

absolutely

> > no

> > > control. I am so afraid that I am going to push DH away (this

has

> > > been 4 months of the steroids now), and he deserves the husband

and

> > > father of the year award. He told me last night that he

doesn't

> > know

> > > how much more of this he can stand. I have to find a way to

control

> > > this. He is so good about everything. He doesn't deserve my

anger

> > or

> > > to be lashed out at. HELP.

> > >

> > > Madeline

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Hey Lou no problem. I am not one to take offense over stuff. I will

tell you that I feel about 90 right now! LOL. Actually the up in the

Xanax has helped, but it is not even close to controlling it, and

there is no way that I am going to take anything (not even a vitamin)

without running it by Dr.Beebe first. I am taking way too many things

right now, and my kidneys are already having a hard time. I have to

go in twice a week for blood work to keep an eye on my levels. They

are doing complete testing every time. So if something like potassium

or anything like that gets out of whack they will catch it pretty

quickly. So far the only explanation is the steroids, and from what I

understand that is pretty common. Dr.Beebe has just expressed

amazement that I have not had these issues before now. Thanks for

your concern.

Madeline

> > > >

> > > > Hi guys - not really sure if this is off topic or not as it

> does not

> > > > directly pertain to my breathing, but here goes. I know that

> > > Kathleen

> > > > and I have spoken about this a good bit previously, but I am

> > > > desparate. Earlier in the week I had a cold, and I believe the

> cold

> > > > was just enough to push me over the edge and let the steroids

> take

> > > > over my moods. For a couple of days I was in the worst moods

> of my

> > > > life. I am generally a very positive and happy person. I tend

> to

> > > > have the attitude that you just deal with whatever life throws

> your

> > > > way. Your attitude is your altitude and all that. Now I

> understand

> > > > that my mood issues are probably completely due to the

> prednisone

> > > (80

> > > > mg per day for the foreseeable future), and I can not come off

> of

> > > this

> > > > doseage. My docs really believe that it is the only thing

> standing

> > > > between me and a ventilator. Also, I have noticed a major

> > > improvement

> > > > in my PFs in general. So the steroids are doing something.

> Anyway

> > > my

> > > > real problem is my anger. This week has been horrible. I will

> get

> > > so

> > > > angry over nothing. Especially at DH. And most of the time

> all he

> > > is

> > > > trying to do is help me with something. I have been almost a

> > > complete

> > > > invalid for the past several months as I have little strength or

> > > > stamina and that is really chafing me as well. I tend to be

> able to

> > > > bite my tongue for the most part with the kids, but not with

> DH.

> > > > Anyway I bit his head off and he bit back this time. I do not

> blame

> > > > him, he was completely justified, but we had a major fight.

> Ended

> > > up

> > > > with my asthma and oxygen levels being nutty all night and my

> chest

> > > > hurting. No sleep last night at all. I am not going through

> all

> > > this

> > > > for your sympathy. I need some suggestions. I am taking Xanax

> 3

> > > > times a day, and I is just not doing it. Does anyone know of

> some

> > > > kind of herb (legal) that may help? I am very good with

> > > visualization

> > > > techniques and general techniques to stay positive - I use many

> > > daily.

> > > > They just don't seem to help when the " roid rage " is in full

> > > effect.

> > > > The worst part is that I know when I am being completely

> > > > unreasonable. I know that it is me, but I seem to have

> absolutely

> > > no

> > > > control. I am so afraid that I am going to push DH away (this

> has

> > > > been 4 months of the steroids now), and he deserves the husband

> and

> > > > father of the year award. He told me last night that he

> doesn't

> > > know

> > > > how much more of this he can stand. I have to find a way to

> control

> > > > this. He is so good about everything. He doesn't deserve my

> anger

> > > or

> > > > to be lashed out at. HELP.

> > > >

> > > > Madeline

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Madeline are you close to being on your female cycle? This could be adding

to the hormones being off. You an email me off the list as to not make the

men on the list uncomfortable but where you are in the month for your cycle

could be playing a big part in this.

Terry

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He

didn't trust me so much. ~Mother

Teddy Bear's Early Learning Program

Established August of 1992

Re: Off Topic - Anger management - predisone

Thanks Lou. I am 36. Way too young for all of this. My girls are 13 & 9

and for the most part I am pretty good at not yelling at them. It just

seems to be . I have spoken with my doc and he says that it is one of

the classic symptoms of Cushings Syndrome which I am in full swing and is

directly caused by the steroids. I will ask him about vitamin E. The only

thing that he did was up the Xanax and assure me that it is not my fault.

Well my fault or not doesn't help when I am hurting the people I love the

most.

Madeline

> >

> > Hi guys - not really sure if this is off topic or not as it does not

> > directly pertain to my breathing, but here goes. I know that

> Kathleen

> > and I have spoken about this a good bit previously, but I am

> > desparate. Earlier in the week I had a cold, and I believe the cold

> > was just enough to push me over the edge and let the steroids take

> > over my moods. For a couple of days I was in the worst moods of my

> > life. I am generally a very positive and happy person. I tend to

> > have the attitude that you just deal with whatever life throws your

> > way. Your attitude is your altitude and all that. Now I understand

> > that my mood issues are probably completely due to the prednisone

> (80

> > mg per day for the foreseeable future), and I can not come off of

> this

> > doseage. My docs really believe that it is the only thing standing

> > between me and a ventilator. Also, I have noticed a major

> improvement

> > in my PFs in general. So the steroids are doing something. Anyway

> my

> > real problem is my anger. This week has been horrible. I will get

> so

> > angry over nothing. Especially at DH. And most of the time all he

> is

> > trying to do is help me with something. I have been almost a

> complete

> > invalid for the past several months as I have little strength or

> > stamina and that is really chafing me as well. I tend to be able to

> > bite my tongue for the most part with the kids, but not with DH.

> > Anyway I bit his head off and he bit back this time. I do not blame

> > him, he was completely justified, but we had a major fight. Ended

> up

> > with my asthma and oxygen levels being nutty all night and my chest

> > hurting. No sleep last night at all. I am not going through all

> this

> > for your sympathy. I need some suggestions. I am taking Xanax 3

> > times a day, and I is just not doing it. Does anyone know of some

> > kind of herb (legal) that may help? I am very good with

> visualization

> > techniques and general techniques to stay positive - I use many

> daily.

> > They just don't seem to help when the " roid rage " is in full

> effect.

> > The worst part is that I know when I am being completely

> > unreasonable. I know that it is me, but I seem to have absolutely

> no

> > control. I am so afraid that I am going to push DH away (this has

> > been 4 months of the steroids now), and he deserves the husband and

> > father of the year award. He told me last night that he doesn't

> know

> > how much more of this he can stand. I have to find a way to control

> > this. He is so good about everything. He doesn't deserve my anger

> or

> > to be lashed out at. HELP.

> >

> > Madeline

> >

>

------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Madeline, I had my Hysterectomy last year but according to my last round of

blood work I am in the early stages of the change of life, I'm only 38. My

Mom went through it early too

Terry

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He

didn't trust me so much. ~Mother

Teddy Bear's Early Learning Program

Established August of 1992

Re: Off Topic - Anger management - predisone

Sorry Madeline, guess I got you confused with someone else's age. I have a

dau that is having the same problem that you are having right not, but she

is older than you. The many steroids that you have been taking may have a

lot to do with the problem. But there is also other things. When I start

having a problem I start checking my meds to see if there is anyone that

might fit my symptons. Did your problem get worse after the dr uped your

Xanax? Maybe your dr could order blood work to see if there is something

that is low...like potassium, etc. I'm so sorry that you are having these

problems. I will see if I can find a herbal formula that would replace the

Xanax, but I would not change or start anything new without discussing with

your Dr.

With love,

Lou

> > >

> > > Hi guys - not really sure if this is off topic or not as it

does not

> > > directly pertain to my breathing, but here goes. I know that

> > Kathleen

> > > and I have spoken about this a good bit previously, but I am

> > > desparate. Earlier in the week I had a cold, and I believe the

cold

> > > was just enough to push me over the edge and let the steroids

take

> > > over my moods. For a couple of days I was in the worst moods

of my

> > > life. I am generally a very positive and happy person. I tend

to

> > > have the attitude that you just deal with whatever life throws

your

> > > way. Your attitude is your altitude and all that. Now I

understand

> > > that my mood issues are probably completely due to the

prednisone

> > (80

> > > mg per day for the foreseeable future), and I can not come off

of

> > this

> > > doseage. My docs really believe that it is the only thing

standing

> > > between me and a ventilator. Also, I have noticed a major

> > improvement

> > > in my PFs in general. So the steroids are doing something.

Anyway

> > my

> > > real problem is my anger. This week has been horrible. I will

get

> > so

> > > angry over nothing. Especially at DH. And most of the time

all he

> > is

> > > trying to do is help me with something. I have been almost a

> > complete

> > > invalid for the past several months as I have little strength or

> > > stamina and that is really chafing me as well. I tend to be

able to

> > > bite my tongue for the most part with the kids, but not with

DH.

> > > Anyway I bit his head off and he bit back this time. I do not

blame

> > > him, he was completely justified, but we had a major fight.

Ended

> > up

> > > with my asthma and oxygen levels being nutty all night and my

chest

> > > hurting. No sleep last night at all. I am not going through

all

> > this

> > > for your sympathy. I need some suggestions. I am taking Xanax

3

> > > times a day, and I is just not doing it. Does anyone know of

some

> > > kind of herb (legal) that may help? I am very good with

> > visualization

> > > techniques and general techniques to stay positive - I use many

> > daily.

> > > They just don't seem to help when the " roid rage " is in full

> > effect.

> > > The worst part is that I know when I am being completely

> > > unreasonable. I know that it is me, but I seem to have

absolutely

> > no

> > > control. I am so afraid that I am going to push DH away (this

has

> > > been 4 months of the steroids now), and he deserves the husband

and

> > > father of the year award. He told me last night that he

doesn't

> > know

> > > how much more of this he can stand. I have to find a way to

control

> > > this. He is so good about everything. He doesn't deserve my

anger

> > or

> > > to be lashed out at. HELP.

> > >

> > > Madeline

> > >

> >

>

------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Madeline, have you thought about encouraging your husband to join a support group for asthmatics? HE might not be asthmatic, but I bet he could benefit a great deal from having someone besides you or another family member to discuss his concerns with. Im sure he is also worried and scared for you which adds to his own stress...but he probably doesnt want to add to your stress by releasing those feelings to you.

People tend to let things out on the ones they feel safest around. The ones they know will be there for them when they really need someone to lean on, and in your case, that would be your husband. Maybe print out what you just wrote to us and let him read it. He might see your perspective a little differently in print.

Im not sure how to keep yourself from going off on him. I can understand not wanting to take any more medications and not being able to decrease what you are on already at the time being. Good luck Madeline, I hope and pray you get some answers very soon so that you and your family can learn what needs to happen- and hopefully get back to a somewhat normal life.

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[Guest guest]

I started the change in my late 20's.  It is the way my mom and grandma did.  It was hell.  But not everyone has bad problems going though it.     Cheryl Burton                     ncicheryl@...                 Re: Off Topic - Anger management - predisone

Sorry Madeline, guess I got you confused with someone else's age. I have a

dau that is having the same problem that you are having right not, but she

is older than you. The many steroids that you have been taking may have a

lot to do with the problem. But there is also other things. When I start

having a problem I start checking my meds to see if there is anyone that

might fit my symptons. Did your problem get worse after the dr uped your

Xanax? Maybe your dr could order blood work to see if there is something

that is low...like potassium, etc. I'm so sorry that you are having these

problems. I will see if I can find a herbal formula that would replace the

Xanax, but I would not change or start anything new without discussing with

your Dr.

With love,

Lou

> > >

> > > Hi guys - not really sure if this is off topic or not as it

does not

> > > directly pertain to my breathing, but here goes. I know that

> > Kathleen

> > > and I have spoken about this a good bit previously, but I am

> > > desparate. Earlier in the week I had a cold, and I believe the

cold

> > > was just enough to push me over the edge and let the steroids

take

> > > over my moods. For a couple of days I was in the worst moods

of my

> > > life. I am generally a very positive and happy person. I tend

to

> > > have the attitude that you just deal with whatever life throws

your

> > > way. Your attitude is your altitude and all that. Now I

understand

> > > that my mood issues are probably completely due to the

prednisone

> > (80

> > > mg per day for the foreseeable future), and I can not come off

of

> > this

> > > doseage. My docs really believe that it is the only thing

standing

> > > between me and a ventilator. Also, I have noticed a major

> > improvement

> > > in my PFs in general. So the steroids are doing something.

Anyway

> > my

> > > real problem is my anger. This week has been horrible. I will

get

> > so

> > > angry over nothing. Especially at DH. And most of the time

all he

> > is

> > > trying to do is help me with something. I have been almost a

> > complete

> > > invalid for the past several months as I have little strength or

> > > stamina and that is really chafing me as well. I tend to be

able to

> > > bite my tongue for the most part with the kids, but not with

DH.

> > > Anyway I bit his head off and he bit back this time. I do not

blame

> > > him, he was completely justified, but we had a major fight.

Ended

> > up

> > > with my asthma and oxygen levels being nutty all night and my

chest

> > > hurting. No sleep last night at all. I am not going through

all

> > this

> > > for your sympathy. I need some suggestions. I am taking Xanax

3

> > > times a day, and I is just not doing it. Does anyone know of

some

> > > kind of herb (legal) that may help? I am very good with

> > visualization

> > > techniques and general techniques to stay positive - I use many

> > daily.

> > > They just don't seem to help when the "roid rage" is in full

> > effect.

> > > The worst part is that I know when I am being completely

> > > unreasonable. I know that it is me, but I seem to have

absolutely

> > no

> > > control. I am so afraid that I am going to push DH away (this

has

> > > been 4 months of the steroids now), and he deserves the husband

and

> > > father of the year award. He told me last night that he

doesn't

> > know

> > > how much more of this he can stand. I have to find a way to

control

> > > this. He is so good about everything. He doesn't deserve my

anger

> > or

> > > to be lashed out at. HELP.

> > >

> > > Madeline

> > >

> >

>

------------ --------- --------- ------

[Guest guest]

Well, off topic for a sec...but still addressing the anger management part of things...

I've noticed as a spiritual aspect of marriage, or family; there is a very strong connection between gratitude, living gratitude daily I mean, and being able to keep and express love in a marriage and family type environment.

Like when you go to church or whatever and see 90 year old couples still holding hands and stuff, the gratitude and expression of it daily, keeps the love part of the relationship and family value to grow and make other things seem smaller, and negative elements come out less by living and thinking that way. I've noticed daily expressions of gratitude to family members make them feel like they want to help and will go more with me on things as well. I don't mean like thank you stuff, but making them feel special etc. Keep up this principle and practice it, whether you are religious or not its the same, and things will brighten up, even when your in a lot of pain, and suffering from health garbage, this principle will help you keep the family closer, etc.

There's also a difference in expression, for example:

Person 1 to person 2: Thank you (then goes off to watch the ball game)

Person 1 to Person 2 in situation 2: Puts arm around family member, your special (insert name or title here), thank you so much for working hard for us

I hope that doesn't sound like a how to book because it's not a ploy or trick, but a real way of working through things to get through to people. If you are conscious about things like this over time, it will also give you a power to chase away bad and negative type emotions around you away from the family environment.

Subject: Off Topic - Anger management - predisoneTo: asthma Date: Sunday, September 14, 2008, 11:15 AM

Hi guys - not really sure if this is off topic or not as it does notdirectly pertain to my breathing, but here goes. I know that Kathleenand I have spoken about this a good bit previously, but I amdesparate. Earlier in the week I had a cold, and I believe the coldwas just enough to push me over the edge and let the steroids takeover my moods. For a couple of days I was in the worst moods of mylife. I am generally a very positive and happy person. I tend tohave the attitude that you just deal with whatever life throws yourway. Your attitude is your altitude and all that. Now I understandthat my mood issues are probably completely due to the prednisone (80mg per day for the foreseeable future), and I can not come off of thisdoseage. My docs really believe that it is the only thing standingbetween me and a ventilator. Also, I have noticed a major improvementin my PFs in general. So the steroids are

doing something. Anyway myreal problem is my anger. This week has been horrible. I will get soangry over nothing. Especially at DH. And most of the time all he istrying to do is help me with something. I have been almost a completeinvalid for the past several months as I have little strength orstamina and that is really chafing me as well. I tend to be able tobite my tongue for the most part with the kids, but not with DH. Anyway I bit his head off and he bit back this time. I do not blamehim, he was completely justified, but we had a major fight. Ended upwith my asthma and oxygen levels being nutty all night and my chesthurting. No sleep last night at all. I am not going through all thisfor your sympathy. I need some suggestions. I am taking Xanax 3times a day, and I is just not doing it. Does anyone know of somekind of herb (legal) that may help? I am very good with visualizationtechniques and

general techniques to stay positive - I use many daily.They just don't seem to help when the "roid rage" is in full effect.The worst part is that I know when I am being completelyunreasonable. I know that it is me, but I seem to have absolutely nocontrol. I am so afraid that I am going to push DH away (this hasbeen 4 months of the steroids now), and he deserves the husband andfather of the year award. He told me last night that he doesn't knowhow much more of this he can stand. I have to find a way to controlthis. He is so good about everything. He doesn't deserve my anger orto be lashed out at. HELP.Madeline

[Guest guest]

prednizone seems really scary...

Subject: Re: Off Topic - Anger management - predisoneTo: asthma Date: Sunday, September 14, 2008, 6:20 PM

Madeline, have you thought about encouraging your husband to join a support group for asthmatics? HE might not be asthmatic, but I bet he could benefit a great deal from having someone besides you or another family member to discuss his concerns with. Im sure he is also worried and scared for you which adds to his own stress...but he probably doesnt want to add to your stress by releasing those feelings to you. People tend to let things out on the ones they feel safest around. The ones they know will be there for them when they really need someone to lean on, and in your case, that would be your husband. Maybe print out what you just wrote to us and let him read it. He might see your perspective a little differently in print. Im not sure how to keep yourself from going off on him. I can understand not wanting to take any more medications and not being able to decrease what you are on

already at the time being. Good luck Madeline, I hope and pray you get some answers very soon so that you and your family can learn what needs to happen- and hopefully get back to a somewhat normal life.Ann

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[Guest guest]

I agree! Prednisone can do many things to you.

>

> Madeline, I my opinion this IS NOT off topic, this is a problem we

all have

> or probably will have to face having Asthma.

> Donna (co-moderator)

> Off Topic - Anger management - predisone

>

>

> > Hi guys - not really sure if this is off topic or not as it does not

> > directly pertain to my breathing, but here goes. I know that Kathleen

> > and I have spoken about this a good bit previously, but I am

> > desparate. Earlier in the week I had a cold, and I believe the cold

> > was just enough to push me over the edge and let the steroids take

> > over my moods. For a couple of days I was in the worst moods of my

> > life. I am generally a very positive and happy person. I tend to

> > have the attitude that you just deal with whatever life throws your

> > way. Your attitude is your altitude and all that. Now I understand

> > that my mood issues are probably completely due to the prednisone (80

> > mg per day for the foreseeable future), and I can not come off of this

> > doseage. My docs really believe that it is the only thing standing

> > between me and a ventilator. Also, I have noticed a major improvement

> > in my PFs in general. So the steroids are doing something. Anyway my

> > real problem is my anger. This week has been horrible. I will get so

> > angry over nothing. Especially at DH. And most of the time all he is

> > trying to do is help me with something. I have been almost a complete

> > invalid for the past several months as I have little strength or

> > stamina and that is really chafing me as well. I tend to be able to

> > bite my tongue for the most part with the kids, but not with DH.

> > Anyway I bit his head off and he bit back this time. I do not blame

> > him, he was completely justified, but we had a major fight. Ended up

> > with my asthma and oxygen levels being nutty all night and my chest

> > hurting. No sleep last night at all. I am not going through all this

> > for your sympathy. I need some suggestions. I am taking Xanax 3

> > times a day, and I is just not doing it. Does anyone know of some

> > kind of herb (legal) that may help? I am very good with visualization

> > techniques and general techniques to stay positive - I use many daily.

> > They just don't seem to help when the " roid rage " is in full effect.

> > The worst part is that I know when I am being completely

> > unreasonable. I know that it is me, but I seem to have absolutely no

> > control. I am so afraid that I am going to push DH away (this has

> > been 4 months of the steroids now), and he deserves the husband and

> > father of the year award. He told me last night that he doesn't know

> > how much more of this he can stand. I have to find a way to control

> > this. He is so good about everything. He doesn't deserve my anger or

> > to be lashed out at. HELP.

> >

> > Madeline

> >

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> >

[Guest guest]

Hi Madeline,

I was glad to see this.

I hope you are feeling better today.

Please let us know you are ok.

Alana

>

and

> there is no way that I am going to take anything (not even a

vitamin)

> without running it by Dr.Beebe first.

[Guest guest]

Ann -

excellent post!

I realize it was not for me, but that is some fantastic insight and

advice, so I would like to thank you.

Hope you are well,

Alana

>

> Madeline, have you thought about encouraging your husband to join a

support group for asthmatics?? HE might not be asthmatic, but I bet

he could benefit a great deal from having someone besides you or

another family member to discuss his concerns with.? Im sure he is

also worried and scared for you which adds to his own stress...but he

probably doesnt want to add to your stress by releasing those

feelings to you.?

>

> People tend to let things out on the ones they feel safest around.?

The ones they know will be there for them when they really need

someone to lean on, and in your case, that would be your husband.?

Maybe print out what you just wrote to us and let him read it.? He

might see your perspective?a little differently in print.

>

> Im not sure how to keep yourself from going off on him.? I can

understand not wanting to take any more medications and not being

able to decrease what you are on already at the time being.? Good

luck Madeline,? I hope and pray you get some answers very soon so

that you and your family can learn what needs to happen- and

hopefully get back to a somewhat normal life.

>

> Ann

>

[Guest guest]

On the anger issue, my doctor thinks I've started the beginnings of the change myself. I'm 39. I have a friend who I can call when I'm wanting to lash out about something else, i.e. my husband or work. He just listens and lets me vent without thinking horrible things about my husband that way I haven't hurt my husband, but I've gotten some of it out of my system.

The other thing that helps some is what you are already doing. Writing it out instead of snapping at the person.

Lastly, don't judge yourself too harshly because that compounds the feelings. Write down everything that is bothering you and things you would like to tell people and then throw it away if you decide later that it's not something you really want to tell them.

LIsa H in Kansas