A 'SHAZAM!' moment

[Guest guest]

Yesterday I was feeling really down, not sure why, I think cause I was

holding onto some thought that my life should be 'more,' more of

something or other.

And so I picked up a wonderful little book I got recently called

Messiah's Handbook, Reminders for the Advanced Soul

Bach, who wrote Livingston Seagull, and my all time

favorite book ILLUSIONS, wrote this little book.

So, I'm really down, and I pick up the book, and I ask why is my life

going the way it is? Am I on the right track?

And the page I opened to said -

You gave your life to be the person you are right now.

Was it worth it?

And in that moment, I realized it WAS!

I am really really liking myself and my life most of the time these days.

Liking? Hell, LOVING!

And methinks if I hadn't went through some of the shit I have, I might

not have sought a different path from the one it seems most people are

on.

It's like that story, Life in Five Chapters, where the person is

walking and falls into a hole.

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FIVE SHORT CHAPTERS

by Portia

Chapter One

I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I fall in.

I am lost...I am helpless.

It isn't my fault.

It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter Two

I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I pretend that I don't see it.

I fall in again.

I can't believe I am in this same place.

But, it isn't my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter Three

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it is there.

I still fall in...it's a habit...but, my eyes are open.

I know where I am.

It is my fault.

I get out immeditately.

Chapter Four

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

Chapter Five

I walk down another street.

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Oh, how I love that. As soon as the walker (me), as soon as I accept

it's my fault that I'm falling in, not looking, not paying attention,

then I go from victim to chooser.

I do like the person I am, I gave my life to become this person.

I'm gonna choose to add another chapter.

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Chapter Six

I fly off.

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Portia's written a book on this, I don't recall ever reading it.

THERE'S A HOLE IN MY SIDEWALK, by Portia .

I think I'm gonna get a copy and read it. I invite you to check it out

too, and we can chat about it.

Flightingly yours,