'comfort' = 'come-fort' ???

[Guest guest]

I was thinking about how I reach for food for comfort. How it seems

like it's my friend in a way, always there for me whenever I want it.

It doesn't judge me. It seems to ease the pain. But rationally I know

that when I use it to numb out, it's just an aversion to life.

Same with being on internet sometimes, watching tv sometimes, reading

sometimes. None of those things are 'bad,' but as I quiet my mind and

my senses come alive, I'm sensing when it doesn't really feel good to

be reaching for that; food, tv remote, keyboard, etc.

I use them sometimes like I would use a fort sometimes, to protect me

from the 'bad guys.' But there are no bad guys, only thoughts

that I haven't questioned.

Little kids sometimes build forts, and then pretend to hide from the

enemy. And they have fun when they do it. Maybe I'll choose to realize

when I start to reach for that come-fort, I'm just pretending there

are bad guys out there.

Maybe I'll open the fort gates and invite them in, and when I do that,

will I watch the walls come tumblin' down?