Worksheet: I need to make a decision

[Guest guest]

I need to decide which hotel to stay at for the intensive in DC, and

it's making me nuts! (a little)

I need to make decisions, is it true?

yes, someone has to choose...

Can I absolutely know that I need to decide?

No, I can't. Maybe the belief that I make decisions is stopping one

from being made for me! Or the awareness that it is being made,

whether I see myself as choosing or not.

How do I react?

I identify with a " me " , with my thinking. I believe that I am my

thoughts, that I control my life. I get confused. My mind goes back

and forth like an animal in a cage.

Who would I be without this thought, that I need to decide?

More peaceful. The silent witness, the one who observes. I would

observe a decision being made for me....

I don't need to make a decision.

3 examples: I didnt decide to go to the intensive. I just felt it

rise up from within.

2. I went for a vigorous walk today. I discovered they have been

healing to me, so I do that more. But the first time it happened,

the intention to do so came from beyond myself. It rose up and

surprised me, because I was feeling very weak at the time.

this is hard, because in most of my life decisions, I see myself as

the doer, the one who decides, even if it isnt really true.

Can anyone suggest how to find more examples?

[Guest guest]

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I'd call up BKI and stay where they suggest. ~Dwight

>

> I need to decide which hotel to stay at for the intensive in DC,

and

> it's making me nuts! (a little)

>

> I need to make decisions, is it true?

> yes, someone has to choose...

>

> Can I absolutely know that I need to decide?

> No, I can't. Maybe the belief that I make decisions is stopping one

> from being made for me! Or the awareness that it is being made,

> whether I see myself as choosing or not.

>

> How do I react?

> I identify with a " me " , with my thinking. I believe that I am my

> thoughts, that I control my life. I get confused. My mind goes back

> and forth like an animal in a cage.

>

> Who would I be without this thought, that I need to decide?

> More peaceful. The silent witness, the one who observes. I would

> observe a decision being made for me....

> I don't need to make a decision.

> 3 examples: I didnt decide to go to the intensive. I just felt it

> rise up from within.

> 2. I went for a vigorous walk today. I discovered they have been

> healing to me, so I do that more. But the first time it happened,

> the intention to do so came from beyond myself. It rose up and

> surprised me, because I was feeling very weak at the time.

>

> this is hard, because in most of my life decisions, I see myself as

> the doer, the one who decides, even if it isnt really true.

> Can anyone suggest how to find more examples?

>

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