Pain

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From: Carson Boyd

Sent: Tuesday, December 06, 2005 6:36 PM

To: 'Loving-what-is '

Subject: Pain

Hi ,

Since you stated you were in pain and asked for help, I’ll take a shot at

it.

- In Loving-what-is , " " wrote:

>

> My heart eaches when I read this. I feel so guilty. I wish with all

> of my heart that I had been silent that night. I feel that I opened

> up Pandora´s box with my terrible hate-letter and my stupid honesty.

> I blame no one but myself. Hmm, not true. I have some work to do I

> think.

, where is the harm? The favored mantra of the ego is “Something’s

wrong here!” Is it true? I say that this is exactly what it looks like

when it is working. People are getting exactly what they need to point them

toward waking up. There’s nothing wrong. Even the thought, which seems to

produce it’s own reality, that there is something wrong here; there’s

nothing wrong with that thought or the seemingly wrong reality. It’s all a

part of the unfolding, and the unfolding results in everyone getting it…

everyone waking up. It’s a done deal. It already happened (outside of the

illusion of time).

There’s no harm honey. Look around you. Is there anything you need right now

that you don’t already have?

>

> People should be understanding.

>

> People should be nice to eachother.

>

> People should love eachother.

NO THEY SHOULDN’T!!! People, when they are identified as their identity

(false picture of self) are supposed to be selfish, competitive, and

inconsiderate; except for when they’re not.

“Identities don’t love. They want something.” –BK

That’s the way it is on this planet. Get used to it. I notice that when I

don’t resist the way it is I feel more peace. Peace… that’s the prize worth

having in my game.

>

> Pain, pain, pain.

>

> I never wanted it to be like this.

That’s the trick though is in wanting it to be like this. Life is a rip-off

when you expect to get what you want. Life works when you want what you’ve

got. To move on, choose it the way it is, and the way it is not. There is no

other sane alternative.

> I wanted us to be closer, more

> loving, more understanding.

HOPELESS!!! We are just as close and loving and understanding as we are.

That’s all you get. Give up on anything else. This is it. You want close,

loving and understanding, get close to us the way we are; love us the way

that we are, understand that we don’t know any other way at the moment.

That’s your only hope for having these values in your world.

> I could really need some help here from

> you wise people. And I ask you with my sweetest voice, please be

> gentle with me.

>

> , feeling guilt and pain

It’s okay . “The worst thing that ever happened is an uninvestigated

thought.” –BK

Love,