Guest guest Posted January 20, 2006 Report Share Posted January 20, 2006 Dear , In one of 's books she has an excercise to do for when you don't know what the thought is that is causing you unhappiness. I just tried to find it and couldnt, but I havent had breakfast yet and need to eat so I can think better. Anyway, it involves 6 sheets of paper and sort of a stream of conscioussness approach to going within yourself. Do you know what I am referring to? Maybe someone else can find it for you. The body usually just reflects what is in the mind, so I would go with that approach first. It sounds like you are a very blessed person. Love > > I´m afraid I´m going into a depression again. All the signs are > there. I don´t want to go out. I comfort-eat. I sleep a lot. The > past few days I have slept until the afternoon. I don´t want to > shower or clean my home. Everything except sitting by the computer > and watching movies feels incredibly exhausting. I have this > constant worry in my body, a feeling of that something is terribly > wrong. > > Sometimes I walk around my home and try to see a problem in reality. > I walk from room to room and there is none. There is food in the > refrigerator. There is clothes in my wardrobe. Hans is happy. Ozzy > seems happy. He is running around, playing with his toys and wagging > his tail. Emelie seems happy too. She is in love with a new > boyfriend and always away on some fun activities. Everyone is > healthy, me too. We have everything you need, and more, in a home. I > have loving, caring friends and family around me. Everyone wants me > well. > > And yet I have this feeling that something is so wrong, and I don´t > know how to fix it. I don´t even know what it is that´s so > completely wrong. I have this thought " oh no, not another > depression, how long will it last this time, why does it come, what > is the thought that make me feel like this " . > > I feel totally wrong for not wanting to do anything, for not taking > the dishes, not shower, sleeping all day. But some thought must have > made me act this way from the beginning. And I don´t have a clue > what it is. Or is it just chemical substance in the brain that is > causing it? I don´t know. > > Love, > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 20, 2006 Report Share Posted January 20, 2006 Dear In chapter 10 of Loving What Is, on page 161, gives an excercise of what to do when the story is hard to find. Take a peak at it, maybe that will help you get in touch with your beliefs a little better. Love > > I´m afraid I´m going into a depression again. All the signs are > there. I don´t want to go out. I comfort-eat. I sleep a lot. The > past few days I have slept until the afternoon. I don´t want to > shower or clean my home. Everything except sitting by the computer > and watching movies feels incredibly exhausting. I have this > constant worry in my body, a feeling of that something is terribly > wrong. > > Sometimes I walk around my home and try to see a problem in reality. > I walk from room to room and there is none. There is food in the > refrigerator. There is clothes in my wardrobe. Hans is happy. Ozzy > seems happy. He is running around, playing with his toys and wagging > his tail. Emelie seems happy too. She is in love with a new > boyfriend and always away on some fun activities. Everyone is > healthy, me too. We have everything you need, and more, in a home. I > have loving, caring friends and family around me. Everyone wants me > well. > > And yet I have this feeling that something is so wrong, and I don´t > know how to fix it. I don´t even know what it is that´s so > completely wrong. I have this thought " oh no, not another > depression, how long will it last this time, why does it come, what > is the thought that make me feel like this " . > > I feel totally wrong for not wanting to do anything, for not taking > the dishes, not shower, sleeping all day. But some thought must have > made me act this way from the beginning. And I don´t have a clue > what it is. Or is it just chemical substance in the brain that is > causing it? I don´t know. > > Love, > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 20, 2006 Report Share Posted January 20, 2006 I feel the same way. I never thought you would. And maybe i should take drugs. I was thinking i might go to a counselor. believe it or not but i hesitate. In the Dianetics video i have . People get keyed into past emotional and physical pain and its totally subconscious. This is what i have. I dont know how to combat it. I couldnt get auditing becuase i would need to finish the communication course. And Im too self conscious. What is suppose to help is getting in present time.. GO around and touch and release objects and touch the walls etc.. To get more in present time. Because you are probably keyed into a past incident of pain and dont realize it. Thats why you dont know where its coming from. Im there a lot. I get very down and i feel hopeless. Ive been trying to do the work. My husband even said i could quit my job.. but I feel like i would need to find another one. So I dont want to do that either. I hope you feel better. That dianetics video might be on line somewhere but i havent found it . And I know how HAns feels about Scientology so i suppose it isnt a good idea. To describe it for a minute. Not to brain wash you or anything. A guy is in an auto accident and its raining and the medics talk in the ambulance while hes unconscious.. WEll a few years later, hes driving in the rain and he starts talking like the ambulance drivers to his girlfriend and she breaks up with him.. LAter in auditing he remembers the incident. Another one a lady falls is unconscious and her family says stay still.. later she is keyed in to the engram and feels like she cant move or go out of the house.. which sounds like your situation but then i dont like to go anywhere when im down either so i guess thats a story . Ive not been unconscious. Similar things in the environment can key a person in -like hearing a sound, a color, a conversation, a person. . its all subconscious. Like being hit by a black car and when you pass a black car you might get a headache and not know why. as another example. Arthritis is from a former injury they say. WEll i hope you feel better and get keyed out. And I hope i do also. I feel stuck. love, roslyn - In Loving-what-is , " " <skogsnuvan@y...> wrote: > > I´m afraid I´m going into a depression again. All the signs are > there. I don´t want to go out. I comfort-eat. I sleep a lot. The > past few days I have slept until the afternoon. I don´t want to > shower or clean my home. Everything except sitting by the computer > and watching movies feels incredibly exhausting. I have this > constant worry in my body, a feeling of that something is terribly > wrong. > > Sometimes I walk around my home and try to see a problem in reality. > I walk from room to room and there is none. There is food in the > refrigerator. There is clothes in my wardrobe. Hans is happy. Ozzy > seems happy. He is running around, playing with his toys and wagging > his tail. Emelie seems happy too. She is in love with a new > boyfriend and always away on some fun activities. Everyone is > healthy, me too. We have everything you need, and more, in a home. I > have loving, caring friends and family around me. Everyone wants me > well. > > And yet I have this feeling that something is so wrong, and I don´t > know how to fix it. I don´t even know what it is that´s so > completely wrong. I have this thought " oh no, not another > depression, how long will it last this time, why does it come, what > is the thought that make me feel like this " . > > I feel totally wrong for not wanting to do anything, for not taking > the dishes, not shower, sleeping all day. But some thought must have > made me act this way from the beginning. And I don´t have a clue > what it is. Or is it just chemical substance in the brain that is > causing it? I don´t know. > > Love, > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 20, 2006 Report Share Posted January 20, 2006 > > > > I´m afraid I´m going into a depression again. All the signs are > > there. I don´t want to go out. I comfort-eat. I sleep a lot. The > > past few days I have slept until the afternoon. I don´t want to > > shower or clean my home. Everything except sitting by the computer > > and watching movies feels incredibly exhausting. I have this > > constant worry in my body, a feeling of that something is terribly > > wrong. > > > > Sometimes I walk around my home and try to see a problem in > reality. > > I walk from room to room and there is none. There is food in the > > refrigerator. There is clothes in my wardrobe. Hans is happy. Ozzy > > seems happy. He is running around, playing with his toys and > wagging > > his tail. Emelie seems happy too. She is in love with a new > > boyfriend and always away on some fun activities. Everyone is > > healthy, me too. We have everything you need, and more, in a home. > I > > have loving, caring friends and family around me. Everyone wants > me > > well. > > > > And yet I have this feeling that something is so wrong, and I > don´t > > know how to fix it. I don´t even know what it is that´s so > > completely wrong. I have this thought " oh no, not another > > depression, how long will it last this time, why does it come, > what > > is the thought that make me feel like this " . > > > > I feel totally wrong for not wanting to do anything, for not > taking > > the dishes, not shower, sleeping all day. But some thought must > have > > made me act this way from the beginning. And I don´t have a clue > > what it is. Or is it just chemical substance in the brain that is > > causing it? I don´t know. > > > > Love, > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 20, 2006 Report Share Posted January 20, 2006 ,angel, One or two thoughts: Remember the dog poem? - Yippee, another depression, MY FAVORITE!! I hear the word depressed as DEEP REST and so it seems does your body, as that is maybe what it's trying to do, in its wisdom? Love, from Tamara > > I´m afraid I´m going into a depression again. All the signs are > there. I don´t want to go out. I comfort-eat. I sleep a lot. The > past few days I have slept until the afternoon. I don´t want to > shower or clean my home. Everything except sitting by the computer > and watching movies feels incredibly exhausting. I have this > constant worry in my body, a feeling of that something is terribly > wrong. > > Sometimes I walk around my home and try to see a problem in reality. > I walk from room to room and there is none. There is food in the > refrigerator. There is clothes in my wardrobe. Hans is happy. Ozzy > seems happy. He is running around, playing with his toys and wagging > his tail. Emelie seems happy too. She is in love with a new > boyfriend and always away on some fun activities. Everyone is > healthy, me too. We have everything you need, and more, in a home. I > have loving, caring friends and family around me. Everyone wants me > well. > > And yet I have this feeling that something is so wrong, and I don´t > know how to fix it. I don´t even know what it is that´s so > completely wrong. I have this thought " oh no, not another > depression, how long will it last this time, why does it come, what > is the thought that make me feel like this " . > > I feel totally wrong for not wanting to do anything, for not taking > the dishes, not shower, sleeping all day. But some thought must have > made me act this way from the beginning. And I don´t have a clue > what it is. Or is it just chemical substance in the brain that is > causing it? I don´t know. > > Love, > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 20, 2006 Report Share Posted January 20, 2006 Wow, Tamara, that is beautiful... DEEP REST Thank you. More and more I'm inclined to see my 'blue periods' as a kind of hibernation (sleep and inactivity), and then one day springs comes along again. DEEP REST is a wonderful way of looking at it and helps to love what is even when DEEP REST... Eva > > ,angel, > > One or two thoughts: > > Remember the dog poem? - > Yippee, another depression, MY FAVORITE!! > > I hear the word depressed as DEEP REST and so it seems does your > body, as that is maybe what it's trying to do, in its wisdom? > > Love, > from Tamara > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 22, 2006 Report Share Posted January 22, 2006 > > > > I´m afraid I´m going into a depression again. All the signs are > > there. I don´t want to go out. I comfort-eat. I sleep a lot. The > > past few days I have slept until the afternoon. I don´t want to > > shower or clean my home. Everything except sitting by the computer > > and watching movies feels incredibly exhausting. I have this > > constant worry in my body, a feeling of that something is terribly > > wrong. > > > > Sometimes I walk around my home and try to see a problem in > reality. > > I walk from room to room and there is none. There is food in the > > refrigerator. There is clothes in my wardrobe. Hans is happy. Ozzy > > seems happy. He is running around, playing with his toys and > wagging > > his tail. Emelie seems happy too. She is in love with a new > > boyfriend and always away on some fun activities. Everyone is > > healthy, me too. We have everything you need, and more, in a home. > I > > have loving, caring friends and family around me. Everyone wants me > > well. > > > > And yet I have this feeling that something is so wrong, and I don´t > > know how to fix it. I don´t even know what it is that´s so > > completely wrong. I have this thought " oh no, not another > > depression, how long will it last this time, why does it come, what > > is the thought that make me feel like this " . > > > > I feel totally wrong for not wanting to do anything, for not taking > > the dishes, not shower, sleeping all day. But some thought must > have > > made me act this way from the beginning. And I don´t have a clue > > what it is. Or is it just chemical substance in the brain that is > > causing it? I don´t know. > > > > Love, > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 23, 2006 Report Share Posted January 23, 2006 > > > > I´m afraid I´m going into a depression again. All the signs are > > there. I don´t want to go out. I comfort-eat. I sleep a lot. The > > past few days I have slept until the afternoon. I don´t want to > > shower or clean my home. Everything except sitting by the computer > > and watching movies feels incredibly exhausting. I have this > > constant worry in my body, a feeling of that something is terribly > > wrong. > > > > Sometimes I walk around my home and try to see a problem in reality. > > I walk from room to room and there is none. There is food in the > > refrigerator. There is clothes in my wardrobe. Hans is happy. Ozzy > > seems happy. He is running around, playing with his toys and wagging > > his tail. Emelie seems happy too. She is in love with a new > > boyfriend and always away on some fun activities. Everyone is > > healthy, me too. We have everything you need, and more, in a home. I > > have loving, caring friends and family around me. Everyone wants me > > well. > > > > And yet I have this feeling that something is so wrong, and I don´t > > know how to fix it. I don´t even know what it is that´s so > > completely wrong. I have this thought " oh no, not another > > depression, how long will it last this time, why does it come, what > > is the thought that make me feel like this " . > > > > I feel totally wrong for not wanting to do anything, for not taking > > the dishes, not shower, sleeping all day. But some thought must have > > made me act this way from the beginning. And I don´t have a clue > > what it is. Or is it just chemical substance in the brain that is > > causing it? I don´t know. > > > > Love, > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 23, 2006 Report Share Posted January 23, 2006 > > > > I´m afraid I´m going into a depression again. All the signs are > > there. I don´t want to go out. I comfort-eat. I sleep a lot. The > > past few days I have slept until the afternoon. I don´t want to > > shower or clean my home. Everything except sitting by the computer > > and watching movies feels incredibly exhausting. I have this > > constant worry in my body, a feeling of that something is terribly > > wrong. > > > > Sometimes I walk around my home and try to see a problem in reality. > > I walk from room to room and there is none. There is food in the > > refrigerator. There is clothes in my wardrobe. Hans is happy. Ozzy > > seems happy. He is running around, playing with his toys and wagging > > his tail. Emelie seems happy too. She is in love with a new > > boyfriend and always away on some fun activities. Everyone is > > healthy, me too. We have everything you need, and more, in a home. I > > have loving, caring friends and family around me. Everyone wants me > > well. > > > > And yet I have this feeling that something is so wrong, and I don´t > > know how to fix it. I don´t even know what it is that´s so > > completely wrong. I have this thought " oh no, not another > > depression, how long will it last this time, why does it come, what > > is the thought that make me feel like this " . > > > > I feel totally wrong for not wanting to do anything, for not taking > > the dishes, not shower, sleeping all day. But some thought must have > > made me act this way from the beginning. And I don´t have a clue > > what it is. Or is it just chemical substance in the brain that is > > causing it? I don´t know. > > > > Love, > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 23, 2006 Report Share Posted January 23, 2006 Dear Roslyn, This sounds really interesting...can you tell me more about dianetics? I hope that you are feeling better soon...it would be great if you could finish the communications class, etc. and let us know how it is.... I love to hear how my friends have found their way back home...some friends love The Work, EFT, Pathways and Real Love. Loving you, nne > I feel the same way. I never thought you would. And maybe i should > take drugs. I was thinking > i might go to a counselor. believe it or not but i hesitate. > In the Dianetics video i have . People get keyed into past emotional > and physical pain and its totally subconscious. > This is what i have. I dont know how to combat it. > I couldnt get auditing becuase i would need to finish the > communication course. And Im too self conscious. > What is suppose to help is getting in present time.. GO around and > touch and release objects and touch the walls etc.. To get more in > present time. Because you are probably keyed into a past incident of > pain and dont realize it. Thats why you dont know where its coming > from. Im there a lot. I get very down and i feel hopeless. Ive been > trying to do the work. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 24, 2006 Report Share Posted January 24, 2006 Dear , I felt love for you as I wrote it. In my story of you, we have much in common. I also truly felt that I did not worry about you, because you seem essentially a happy person, and because you have such a good grasp on the work, and because, as Tami said, you have a big heart. Sometimes I think your heart needs to be as big for you as it is is for others (another story of mine about you) and I thought, " should be kind to these impulses to sleep and not feel like doing anything. " Anyway, I just felt that I should tell you that I had no worries for you. Ha ha, so funny to turn these thoughts around for myself, it made me laugh with delight. In answer to your question, I live now in California but I lived most of my life in New England, where the winters are long, cold and dark, and many people want to hibernate, LOL. > > > > > > I´m afraid I´m going into a depression again. All the signs are > > > there. I don´t want to go out. I comfort-eat. I sleep a lot. The > > > past few days I have slept until the afternoon. I don´t want to > > > shower or clean my home. Everything except sitting by the > computer > > > and watching movies feels incredibly exhausting. I have this > > > constant worry in my body, a feeling of that something is > terribly > > > wrong. > > > > > > Sometimes I walk around my home and try to see a problem in > > reality. > > > I walk from room to room and there is none. There is food in the > > > refrigerator. There is clothes in my wardrobe. Hans is happy. > Ozzy > > > seems happy. He is running around, playing with his toys and > > wagging > > > his tail. Emelie seems happy too. She is in love with a new > > > boyfriend and always away on some fun activities. Everyone is > > > healthy, me too. We have everything you need, and more, in a > home. > > I > > > have loving, caring friends and family around me. Everyone wants > me > > > well. > > > > > > And yet I have this feeling that something is so wrong, and I > don´t > > > know how to fix it. I don´t even know what it is that´s so > > > completely wrong. I have this thought " oh no, not another > > > depression, how long will it last this time, why does it come, > what > > > is the thought that make me feel like this " . > > > > > > I feel totally wrong for not wanting to do anything, for not > taking > > > the dishes, not shower, sleeping all day. But some thought must > > have > > > made me act this way from the beginning. And I don´t have a clue > > > what it is. Or is it just chemical substance in the brain that > is > > > causing it? I don´t know. > > > > > > Love, > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 25, 2006 Report Share Posted January 25, 2006 > > > > > > > > I´m afraid I´m going into a depression again. All the signs are > > > > there. I don´t want to go out. I comfort-eat. I sleep a lot. > The > > > > past few days I have slept until the afternoon. I don´t want to > > > > shower or clean my home. Everything except sitting by the > > computer > > > > and watching movies feels incredibly exhausting. I have this > > > > constant worry in my body, a feeling of that something is > > terribly > > > > wrong. > > > > > > > > Sometimes I walk around my home and try to see a problem in > > > reality. > > > > I walk from room to room and there is none. There is food in > the > > > > refrigerator. There is clothes in my wardrobe. Hans is happy. > > Ozzy > > > > seems happy. He is running around, playing with his toys and > > > wagging > > > > his tail. Emelie seems happy too. She is in love with a new > > > > boyfriend and always away on some fun activities. Everyone is > > > > healthy, me too. We have everything you need, and more, in a > > home. > > > I > > > > have loving, caring friends and family around me. Everyone > wants > > me > > > > well. > > > > > > > > And yet I have this feeling that something is so wrong, and I > > don´t > > > > know how to fix it. I don´t even know what it is that´s so > > > > completely wrong. I have this thought " oh no, not another > > > > depression, how long will it last this time, why does it come, > > what > > > > is the thought that make me feel like this " . > > > > > > > > I feel totally wrong for not wanting to do anything, for not > > taking > > > > the dishes, not shower, sleeping all day. But some thought must > > > have > > > > made me act this way from the beginning. And I don´t have a > clue > > > > what it is. Or is it just chemical substance in the brain that > > is > > > > causing it? I don´t know. > > > > > > > > Love, > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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