Re: My littlebrother/Sandi

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> >

> > This year I send my brother a Christmas card. He is 4 years

younger

> > than me, and in the past 9 years we haven´t had almost any

contact

> > at all. I experienced him as very aggressive and didn´t want to

be

> > around him. And he didn´t contact me either.

> >

> > Anyway, after my Christmas card he wrote me a long e-mail,

> > explaining to me that he had been an alcoholic, but was now

sober,

> > getting treatment and going to AA-meetings. And a couple of days

> > later he called me and we had a long talk. He is still very

bitter

> > at our mom and dad, and I can understand that. I was in the same

> > position myself, not long ago.

> >

> > Then I had a talk with my sister. I told her that our brother

Jakob

> > had phoned me. And we talked about him and our childhood. That

was

> > when she told me this story that made me feel so miserable. When

> > Jabob was 13 and I had moved away from home, he and mom had a

> > terrible fight. Dad was at work, and Hanna who was 11 witnessed

the

> > whole thing. They fought all day, mom got meaner and meaner.

Finally

> > she said: I wish you were dead Jakob, because I don´t love you,

and

> > I never has, never! Jakob found mom´s pills, she was mentally

ill at

> > the time, and took a lot of them. Then he went upstairs with the

> > dog´s leash, into the master bedroom, took a chair and tied the

> > leash to one of the beams in the cealing. He put the leash round

his

> > neck and kicked the chair away.

> >

> > My sister found him, she doesn´t remember if she helped him down

or

> > if he had managed to get down himself, but his neck was all red.

And

> > he just cried and cried. Mom didn´t care, so Hanna had to call

an

> > ambulance and she also went along to the hospital.

> >

> > This story makes me feel so much pain. I will do the Work on

this.

> > For now it was just enough to tell you about it.

> >

> > Thank you,

> >

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