Re: re 'my little brother'/

[Guest guest]

Hi

>

> my mom used to hit me and call me names.

> and so it is.

>

> and i used to read stories like the one you posted,

> and i'd feel bad.

> but for some reason this time i don't.

**I know what you are talking about.

>

> what's different?

> i think it's different for me now because i went back

> to that time. in my mind, i returned to when it happened, only this

> time i stayed present. just stayed present. kept breathing in and

out.

> kept saying 'yes.' and something's been released.

>

> re-leased. like i've got a new lease on life.

**MMM...Yes, I know that feeling, . A very peaceful and happy

feeling. Relaxing. Calming.

>

> i drove past a sign outside a store tonight, that said,

> 'give others that which you lack' (or something to that effect)

>

> i looked at it, and realized that before i would have asked myself,

> what do i lack? and answers would have been; love, money,

attention,

> health.

>

> only this time, it occurred to me oh so clearly,

> that i need give others nothing. nothing.

> cuz i lack nothing.

> and oh my, what a freeing feeling that was.

**Been there too. Just floating on happiness. Realizing that I have

everything I need. And nothing could upset me. And then it stoped.

Don´t know why it came, don´t know why it wen´t away.

>

> sounds like the dam in your family is breaking,

> grab a surf board and enjoy the ride.

**I think I will just lay on the beach with an umbrella drink and

let whatever happens happens;)

>

> loving what is, one day at a time.

> -mary

Love,

>