YOU SHOULD STOP WATCHING T.V, AND GO AND DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE!!!

[Guest guest]

Hi

It is me again

I have decided to sit and do the work

about the guilt I feel when I watch t.v

READY? GO!

when I sit down in front of the television

I always feel like: you can see t.v as long as you do other stuff

which are more productive

it is like when we tell a kid, first make your homework, than watch t.v

When I do something " productive " like sport

and than I watch t.v, my mind is giving me less of hard time, while I watch

t.v

It is like - you earn it, you can enjoy it for a while, hey, but not too

long, o.k?

And If I don't do sport or work or other stuff

that my mind approve as " contributor "

I feel guilt watching t.v

That is the scenario

I don't want to feel guilty, watching t.v

is that what we call doing the work with a motive (????)

I am confessed, what shell I focused on, doing the work

Maybe, o.k I have an idea:

Sometimes when I watch t.v, I have this thought:

YOU SHOULD STOP WATCHING T.V, AND DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE!!!

I wonna work on that one

O.K

I am in front of the t.v, watching one of my favorite reality show

having a good time, than my mind tells me:

YOU SHOULD STOP WATCHING T.V, AND GO AND DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE!!!

IF YOU WOULDN'T STOP WATCHING TOO MUCH T.V, YOU WILL MAKE NO PROGRESS!!!

I will decide my work into 2 mails

1 for each thought

WORK 1:

I SHOULD STOP WATCHING T.V, AND GO AND DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE!!!

IS that true?

I should watch t.v, is that true?

well I have this belief that watching t.v is not so good

I have this belief that reading a book is a good thing

But, Can I really know that that is true?

That watching t.v, is less important than reading a book

or doing sport, or doing the work, or going to work, or getting a Nobel

prize?

Can I really know that? who says that watching t.v is a bad thing to do

who says that reading a book is a good thing to do?

It might not be true, it is a belief, a thought, I don't know for sure

if it is true.

I belive it, I was told that for years, but I never sat down and inquiry

that belief

I assumed it was true.

3. How do I react when I think that I should not watch too much t.v

or that watching t.v is a bad thing, or that watching t.v is not being

productive.

I feel guilt after a while when I am next to the small screen

I feel bed about myself, my mind start to boss me from the inside

with other " pearls " like - you see, you are no good, you are a failure

sitting watching t.v is a act that holds you from being prepared to life

you need to stop watching t.v and go out there - peppering your future

by finding a job or something

I become scared, I feel that I am being irresponsible sitting watching t.v

I think - It might hurt me in the long run

I become panic: what do I need to do now, to save myself from the bad future

what do I need to do, and I cannot do anything but watching my favorite t.v

show

feeling bad, feeling bad about myself not being able to do other stuff

so I stop watching t.v go up stairs, take 's new book

and start to read is, because my bossy thinking frighten me, that I need to

make progress

and that is by reading 's book

so I am on the same page, for a week, not being able to concentrate

feeling more sucked, so I make myself up doing what I love doing, I go again

to the small screen and watch t.v, and I feel scared, guilty, but I tell

myself the story

Tami - tomorrow you will start your journey to " enlightened "

tomorrow you will read 's book, can you give yourself a break now?

I watch t.v, feel how a failure I am

because I couldn't please my bossy thinking

I couldn't do sport or read a book

Who's business am I when I think the thought:

I should not watch too much t.v

or that watching t.v is a bad thing, or that watching t.v is not being

productive

I don't know, if it is god's dream, i am in god's business

god dreams Tami as no job, no obligations whatever

and she watches t.v

I don't know if I am god's dream, where is the proof for that

haa, a lot of wise people like Steve, say so

But I am not sure

who is business am I?

well lets see: Tami watches t.v

Tami eats

Tami sits

Tami read a book

than there is the thought that say

Tami shouldn't or should do things

I don't think my thoughts

I have no control over my thoughts, they come and go

do I have a ny control on my doing?

(HELP?????????????)

I go and watch t.v, who does this action?

who is business is it?

well, I guess I have a a thought, that tells me to go to the television

and I go to the television, the thought came and I acted on that thought

sometimes I have a thought that tells me to do things but I don't listen to

my though

that is where I feel guilty

I have no control over my thinking

they boss me around tell me what is good and bad for me

but again

Tami, who's business is it how much t.v you watch?

If it was god's business I would feel great

but i am trying to be honest

and my answer would be I don't know

(any idea's here???)

What do I gain holding the belief:

That I should not watch too much t.v

or that watching t.v is a bad thing, or that watching t.v is not being

productive

well, I get to think that I am in control here

when I think I know what is best for me

when I think I can control my doing

it makes me feel that I have a control over my life

which is based on nothing when I think of it:

I don't really know what is best for me

maybe watching t.v all day is very much " productive "

and my bossy thinking, that tells me what to do

gives a fake illusion that even if I knew what is best

I can control my doing

the truth is that - I do what I do

sometimes it matches my thinking so I tell the story

I made myself do things

like I think: Tami go to your room and read a book, and I go to the room,

and TRY to read a book

(like I was told when I was young, my parents had this belief that reading

books is a good thing)

But than I have a bossy though: go and take a walk, do sport

and I don't do it, so who is in control now?

not me...

Bossy thinking give an illusion of control

productive

I should not watch too much t.v

or that watching t.v is a bad thing, or that watching t.v is not being

productive.

Does this thought brings peace or stress?

Stress

Can I see a reason to drop the thought?

yes

Do I see a stress free reason to keep the thought?

well there is this control issue

like feeling that I control my life

by

a. knowing what is best for me

b. thinking I can make myself go on that " desirable " direction "

Well, when I look at it again I can see that it doesn't work for me

it only bring stress

guilt, if I don't do what my thoughts tells me to do

What is the worst that could happen if I wouldn't have that though:

I should not watch too much t.v

or that watching t.v is a bad thing, or that watching t.v is not being

productive.

I would

1. loose truck,

2. I will have no direction, 3.

3. I will make no progress

1. loose truck...

whose truck? my thinking truck? Are they are a reliable source

that I should follow there instruction?

they tell me all the time how I should do that or not do that

they could be right, but at the moment it makes me feel bad

it makes me be less in the now, in what is in front of me

it makes me be blind to reality, thinking there is something better for me

out there

But

Without my thought, who will guide me

what will I do, I will just be in the open space

no rules to follow, scary

yes, but these thought prevent you from realizing what you already have

maybe you don't need to go anywhere?

3. I will make no progress

lets see

if I wouldn't have these bossy thoughts like:

Tami, don't watch t.v

Tami read a book

will I make no progress?

where am I going anyway?

I just want to feel good with myself

that is my goal, I want to be happy

so my thinking tells me what do i need to do to get there

if I wouldn't have these bossy thought, will I make no progress?

this is scary

Is that true?

I don't know

I fell like I need directions, well that is what my thinking also tells me

it is like a tower that every thought is built on another

to make it even more solid, my mind tells me I should listen to it

other wise I would be stuck and make no progress

I should read books do sport is that true?

Tami, you thought it is true

it sound logical that doing sport is more than a progress than watching t.v

but is it really true? will you make no progress watching t.v

well it depend how I define a progress

I think I want to make progress in being me

not by obeying my thinking

that just tells me all the time that Tami is not good enough

watching t.v = making no progress

this hard for my, it was my religion

a stressful religion

well one clue would be reality

in reality sometimes i watch t.v

what do I get for holding the belief that I make no progress?

again an illusion of control

I am still afraid to let go of the belief because i am afraid that

without these bossy instruction I would make no progress

Tami, is that true that without these bossy instructions

that tells you to do things and not do other things

you would make no progress?

NO!!!!

WHO WOULD I BE WITHOUT YOUR BOSSY THOUGHTS

that tells you what you should do to make progress

will you not make progress?

I would be present in my life

If I would watch t.v, and I wouldn't have the thought that I should read a

book

I would just watch t.v. simple

I would be more happy, feeling less guilty for not being what my thinking

tells me to be

I would enjoy my life more

My mind attack: yes but what about achieving goals

you wouldn't have a goal, you will make no progress

If I wouldn't have a goal, i wouldn't make progress?

Is that true?

yes, we need a goal to motivate ourselves

Can I absolutely know that that is true?

usually these " goal " are referring to the outside world

like do stuff in the outside world

the goal is to have money relationships, more friend more more more

these are the goals I know

but If I were to archive all these gaols will i be happy?

NO, because my mind will tell me that I need more things

so, in that case maybe I don't want to play this game anymore

maybe if I wouldn't have a goal

I could just be Tami, is that good enough

can I just be me?

I think I had like that

that is a nice goal:

Tami watch t.v

Tami eats launch

Tami write on the computer

how is that for a goal?

and all of those thoughts

that comes as a camouflage to help me

as if they know more than what is

they know what is best for me

they know what is the right thing to do

I am not sure that they are mine

they are all cycled:

My parents told me it is good to read books

it is not mine, it is there's

Our society tells us that it is good to do sport

it is just a thought

that in my case goes to war with what is

Who would I be without the thought:

I SHOULD STOP WATCHING T.V, AND GO AND DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE!!!

IF YOU WOULDN'T STOP WATCHING TOO MUCH T.V, YOU WILL MAKE NO PROGRESS!!!

I would be a free women to live my live

less self judgment, more acceptance

TA

YOU SHOULD STOP WATCHING T.V, AND GO AND DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE!!!

IF YOU WOULDN'T STOP WATCHING TOO MUCH T.V, YOU WILL MAKE NO PROGRESS!!!

I should watch T.V

maybe it is a good thing, I don't know

I would drop the maybe

watching t.v is a good thing to do

as long as I am motivated to do it

Any ideas?

Love

Tami (I am going now, to watch my favorite t.v show: Love or money.

yahoooooooooooooo)