To Kate

[Guest guest]

Thank you Kate,

I appriciate that you are trying to help me. I am not so sure that

it is a depression I am having. I am under medication. I do the

inquiry on my thoughts. And it has helped me in some way. But I

still feel very unhappy. My story is that I´m actng in ways that are

not so kind and loving to myself. Maybe I just want things to happen

faster than they does. I want to be able to feel that inner peace

that I hear other experience when they are doing the work. Inner

peace is something I haven´t felt for several months.

Lots of love to you too,

> > I am just crying and crying, what is wrong ? It´s like I´m being

> > cracked into a thousands pieces. I want my old life back! I used

to

> > be a such a happy woman. My last four years have been filled

with

> so

> > much happiness. And there wasn´t a problem in my life I didn´t

> think

> > I couldn´t put up with. The only thing I thought that could

break

> me

> > was if my daughter would die.

> >

> > I liked my self, very much. I thought of myself as a strong

capable

> > woman that lived a very happy life. And that happines came from

> > inside of me. Many tough things happened to me, but not once I

> > thought of me as unhappy. " Ok, my boss is an ashole, I´m still

> > happy " . " Ok, that guy didn´t want to see me anymore , I´m

> > happy. " " Ok, my student´s parents are telling lies about me and

> > putting me down, I am the most happiest woman on this planet " .

> >

> > And so I had a depression. At least that was what people were

> > telling me. I wasn´t scare. And the fact is I didn´t suffer much

> > from it. I was just not as a used to be, but still happy. But

> > everyone around me suffered. My sister, my daughter and a buch

of

> > other people. We don´t want you to be like this, they told me.

> This

> > is really hurtful to us. I understood that I had to do something

> > about it, because I didn´t want to see them in pain. What to

do?

> > Well, destiny or something brought ´s book into my hand.

This

> > is great I thought! So I started reading, and thought: This

could

> be

> > a way out of the depression!

> >

> > Now I have been doing the work for about three month and I can

> > honestly tell you that this has been three months of hell. And I

> > just want to let you know that I don´t blaime this on or

> > anyone else. I am just telling my story. Once a happy woman-now

a

> > very unhappy one. I used to know what made me happy. Suddenly I

> > didn´t. Suddenly I start to question everything I had believed

was

> > true.

> > This is me today: Confused, miserable, a looser, and not happy.

Not

> > happy at all. I just want to go back to the time when I never

had

> > heard about the work. To the time I was happy.

> >

> >