Ladies - a newbie needs some reassurance from our old members!

[Guest guest]

Dawn,

I wish all the women who've been a part of this group

would come back right now and tell you how they're

doing. . . Many have moved on with their lives and are

too busy now to spend much time with us. . . But

that's OK too . . . It's just once in a while we need

them to reassure the new women that things REALLY will

get better! They do drop in every so often though!

I sense in you someone who is determined to get better

and who will make a committment to do so. You're not

blinded by the medical dogma that implants are safe -

although I think you wish they were!

No one can tell you how long it's going to take to

feel yourself again. If you're like me, your health

will be good, you'll be able to do everything you ever

did - BUT you will always have to be more careful with

your health, mindful of getting deep sleep, exercise,

good diet, chemical exposure, manage stress and anger,

etc.

You will gradually learn what makes you feel good, and

what makes you feel worse. . . i.e., you'll be in

touch with your body more than you ever thought

possible. But life will be good again!

Hugs and prayers,

Rogene

--- Dawn Aldredge <dawn.aldredge@...> wrote:

>

> Hi Everybody,

>

> I think I must be in shock or something. It is less

> than one month until

> the explant. I go over the scenario in my head over

> and over again. The

> scenario is how I was quite healthy prior to

> implants but sick two

> months later. I ask myself these questions all day

> long, and I mean all

> day longer. It’s exhausting.

> The questions I ask myself to which there are no

> answers:

> Why out of 5 girls that I know, am I the only one

> who got sick?

> Will my hair stop falling out?

> Is it falling out for some other unknown reason?

> Will my hair grow back?

> Will I recover?

> Will I be able to go back to the way I was before

> and not be a slave to

> thyroid medication at supraphysiologic dosages?

> Will I then be able to overcome this stubborn

> systemic candida

> infection?

> Is it really possible to be ME again after all I

> have put myself

> through?

> Will I be able to live up to the standards and

> demands my husband is

> putting upon me once the implants are out?

> Will I then be able to give him

> dinner, sex ,

> conversation and a bedtime not before 10pm?

> Will I stop being so debilitated by this tiredness?

>

> I look forward to what I see as the beginning of a

> new life for me. I

> want to be me. I don’t want to give up control of my

> health to foreign

> objects.

>

> On the other side of the coin though, they look good

> in a dress. OH

> BOY!!

>

> But what I have allowed them to take from me was not

> only my health, it

> has been valuable time spent with my children,

> especially the little

> one, she is only 3 ½. . I have given up valuable

> time to spend with my

> husband. We’ve grown apart somewhat because of the

> health problems. I

> think he is in some type of mourning also about

> losing the boobs, even

> though he knows we’ve tried everything else to get

> me healthy, so this

> must be done.

>

> I was feeling pretty lost today so I went to

> ’s secret and

> bought three new bras, size A. I just had to have

> them. I need to have

> something to hold on to. I don’t exactly know why I

> need to have those

> bra’s right now. I know it’s a psychological thing

> because my mind is in

> such turmoil over this.

>

> Yeah, one of the hardest things ever in my

> life…..BUT it could be much

> worse, much worse. My husband and children are fine

> and that’s what

> matters.

>

> I’m getting alittle bit more freaked out as the days

> pass. I know I am

> not making a mistake with the explant but every once

> in awhile I have

> this little voice of doubt that tells me I am going

> to be freaking sick

> anyway, so what’s the point. I hope that voice is

> wrong.

>

> Dawn

>

> Dawn

>

>