Re: can't believe it either

[Guest guest]

Dawn,

Thanks for sharing so honestly. My explant is in a couple of weeks,

3/30. I have had some doubts in my mind, like, well, maybe the

antidepressants and the thyroid meds and the season and the this and

that are causing me to feel like I've ran a marathon even when I

wake up in the mornings. I've begun to rehearse the surgery in my

head daily, and it's a lonely place. My husband is mourning over the

loss of the big boobs, and he refuses to talk to me about my

decision to explant.

I've been looking through the Secret catalog and thinking,

wow, if I knew how much of my original breasts I might retain after

the surgery, I could buy some of those cute bras now. But I have no

idea what my breasts will look like after surgery, and that is a

little crazy-making in my head too.

I am certain that explanting will improve my health. But it is kind

of a mourning process, i.e. denial, negotiation, anger, sadness, and

acceptance. I guess I go back and forth and hopefully there is a

pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. J

[Guest guest]

J,

For the time being, after the surgery, plan to wear a

snug but comfortable sports bra 24/7 so the internal

scar tissue will work for you - rather than against

you.

After you're explanted, you'll " fluff " as the pressure

comes off your natural tissues. So, what you see after

explant, is not what you get. It will probably take

six months or more before you see the final results.

Unless they've had a mastectomy, most women are

pleasantly surprized at how good they look and how

much breast tissue is left.

Hugs and prayers,

Rogene

[Guest guest]

J,

Your really getting closer to the date here. I can only imagine what

you are going through in your head.. like me.

So when does the mourning process begin? I feel like it's beginning

for me now. Or is it after they are gone. I should find a book on

grieving I guess. I just want to be prepared emotionally. I'm

starting to cry as I write this. It's starting to become a reality.

Thank God I found you guys on this site. Imagine going through this

horror alone? Alone and to be told by others that there is nothing

wrong with you, you are a hypochondriac.

I don't know what I will look like either post explant but when I

spoke to at Dr. Feng's office, I explained to her my situation

and how long the implants have been in and she said I should go back

to pretty much what I was pre poison sac.

So, with that, I had to have this pretty little ( and they are

little) bras. I got the one's they call The Very Sexy. They Are very

sexy... it's my favorite bra! It makes any small woman look shapely.

It comes in all these pretty colors too.

In my mind I think that if I have these bras now, I have hope for

mentally living through the process of this all. Very strange how

the human mind works.

I never imagined I would be getting these things out for good, I

never imagined that I would have to admit that this is the problem.

Question for you J, Were you on thyroid medication prior to the

implants or did you acquire this mishap after the implants? I'm

wondering how many of us had to get on thyroid meds post implantion.

I wouldn't have even gotten on them at all if it weren't for my

aggressive persistence with the doctors.. All my labs have been

squeaky clean normal.. unless ofcourse there are certain tests which

would not be normal and I have'nt had them. And truthfully, I don't

even want to know if something shows up bad, it'll only give me

something else to obsess about all day long.

))))hugs((((

Dawn

> Dawn,

> Thanks for sharing so honestly. My explant is in a couple of

weeks,

> 3/30. I have had some doubts in my mind, like, well, maybe the

> antidepressants and the thyroid meds and the season and the this

and

> that are causing me to feel like I've ran a marathon even when I

> wake up in the mornings. I've begun to rehearse the surgery in my

> head daily, and it's a lonely place. My husband is mourning over

the

> loss of the big boobs, and he refuses to talk to me about my

> decision to explant.

> I've been looking through the Secret catalog and

thinking,

> wow, if I knew how much of my original breasts I might retain

after

> the surgery, I could buy some of those cute bras now. But I have

no

> idea what my breasts will look like after surgery, and that is a

> little crazy-making in my head too.

> I am certain that explanting will improve my health. But it is

kind

> of a mourning process, i.e. denial, negotiation, anger, sadness,

and

> acceptance. I guess I go back and forth and hopefully there is a

> pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. J

[Guest guest]

-In finding this site, I know in my heart that there really must be

a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

Dawn

-- In , " crazycanoe1 "

<crazycanoe1@d...> wrote:

>

> Dawn,

> Thanks for sharing so honestly. My explant is in a couple of

weeks,

> 3/30. I have had some doubts in my mind, like, well, maybe the

> antidepressants and the thyroid meds and the season and the this

and

> that are causing me to feel like I've ran a marathon even when I

> wake up in the mornings. I've begun to rehearse the surgery in my

> head daily, and it's a lonely place. My husband is mourning over

the

> loss of the big boobs, and he refuses to talk to me about my

> decision to explant.

> I've been looking through the Secret catalog and

thinking,

> wow, if I knew how much of my original breasts I might retain

after

> the surgery, I could buy some of those cute bras now. But I have

no

> idea what my breasts will look like after surgery, and that is a

> little crazy-making in my head too.

> I am certain that explanting will improve my health. But it is

kind

> of a mourning process, i.e. denial, negotiation, anger, sadness,

and

> acceptance. I guess I go back and forth and hopefully there is a

> pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. J

[Guest guest]

Hi Dawn...I had my explant 3/03. Before explant I had the same blood tests as you had done. Everything came back normal. My General is a friend of the family so he has been trying to help. He still thinks I am nuts though! Anyway, he thinks it's stress and my hair will stop falling out in a few months now that I don't have them in. I am not on any thyroid medication YET! I am not going down without a fight! I have an appt. with an internist on the 28th of this Month. I am hoping she can help find out what is going on with me! The only symptom I have is chronic hair loss and it has not stopped since surgery...yet! I have faith that it will. I was perfectly healthy going into this, and some how it messed with my system enough to make my hair fall out! I think other tests might prove that it is my Thyroid and after the 28th, I hope to have some answers. I will keep you informed!

Marie

Re: can't believe it either

J,Your really getting closer to the date here. I can only imagine what you are going through in your head.. like me. So when does the mourning process begin? I feel like it's beginning for me now. Or is it after they are gone. I should find a book on grieving I guess. I just want to be prepared emotionally. I'm starting to cry as I write this. It's starting to become a reality.Thank God I found you guys on this site. Imagine going through this horror alone? Alone and to be told by others that there is nothing wrong with you, you are a hypochondriac.I don't know what I will look like either post explant but when I spoke to at Dr. Feng's office, I explained to her my situation and how long the implants have been in and she said I should go back to pretty much what I was pre poison sac. So, with that, I had to have this pretty little ( and they are little) bras. I got the one's they call The Very Sexy. They Are very sexy... it's my favorite bra! It makes any small woman look shapely.It comes in all these pretty colors too. In my mind I think that if I have these bras now, I have hope for mentally living through the process of this all. Very strange how the human mind works.I never imagined I would be getting these things out for good, I never imagined that I would have to admit that this is the problem.Question for you J, Were you on thyroid medication prior to the implants or did you acquire this mishap after the implants? I'm wondering how many of us had to get on thyroid meds post implantion.I wouldn't have even gotten on them at all if it weren't for my aggressive persistence with the doctors.. All my labs have been squeaky clean normal.. unless ofcourse there are certain tests which would not be normal and I have'nt had them. And truthfully, I don't even want to know if something shows up bad, it'll only give me something else to obsess about all day long.))))hugs((((Dawn> Dawn,> Thanks for sharing so honestly. My explant is in a couple of weeks, > 3/30. I have had some doubts in my mind, like, well, maybe the > antidepressants and the thyroid meds and the season and the this and > that are causing me to feel like I've ran a marathon even when I > wake up in the mornings. I've begun to rehearse the surgery in my > head daily, and it's a lonely place. My husband is mourning over the > loss of the big boobs, and he refuses to talk to me about my > decision to explant. > I've been looking through the Secret catalog and thinking, > wow, if I knew how much of my original breasts I might retain after > the surgery, I could buy some of those cute bras now. But I have no > idea what my breasts will look like after surgery, and that is a > little crazy-making in my head too.> I am certain that explanting will improve my health. But it is kind > of a mourning process, i.e. denial, negotiation, anger, sadness, and > acceptance. I guess I go back and forth and hopefully there is a > pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. JOpinions expressed are NOT meant to take the place of advice given by licensed health care professionals. Consult your physician or licensed health care professional before commencing any medical treatment. "Do not let either the medical authorities or the politicians mislead you. Find out what the facts are, and make your own decisions about how to live a happy life and how to work for a better world." - Linus ing, two-time Nobel Prize Winner (1954, Chemistry; 1963, Peace)

[Guest guest]

Hi. I have gone through all the same emotions, and still feeling them. I miss my old big breasts sometimes, and right before I was to be put out, I was putting on my gown, and looked at myself in the mirror and thought to myself, "they will be gone in a few minutes" and I was very sad. But right before he put me under my PS said, "Are you sure you want to do this? Because I can just remove the capsule and refund your money. You don't have to do this". This is when I knew what I really wanted to do, because immediately and without thought I said, "No, I want them out of me", and he said, "That is what I needed to hear. I will do my best job on you. You won't be disappointed". And when I woke up, my favorite nurse was by my side (the only one who isn't augmented in the office, and the prettiest", and the first thing she said was, "You look like me now!" which made all the difference in the world. And it reminded me of a

cute Pixar short that I watched before watching "The Incredibles" with my sons that basically said that you can do whatever you want in life. It doesn't matter what is out there, it matters what is in your head and in your heart. If you truly believe in yourself, you can be and do anything". This is what is keeping me going through the natural mourning process. Yes, I still cry once in awhile, and still am mourning my larger breasts, but am learning to love and embrace the real me! And I think that is the greatest gift of all.

Hugs,

Cristinadaldre <dawn.aldredge@...> wrote:

J,Your really getting closer to the date here. I can only imagine what you are going through in your head.. like me. So when does the mourning process begin? I feel like it's beginning for me now. Or is it after they are gone. I should find a book on grieving I guess. I just want to be prepared emotionally. I'm starting to cry as I write this. It's starting to become a reality.Thank God I found you guys on this site. Imagine going through this horror alone? Alone and to be told by others that there is nothing wrong with you, you are a hypochondriac.I don't know what I will look like either post explant but when I spoke to at Dr. Feng's office, I explained to her my situation and how long the implants have been in and she said I should go back to pretty much what I was pre poison sac. So, with that, I

had to have this pretty little ( and they are little) bras. I got the one's they call The Very Sexy. They Are very sexy... it's my favorite bra! It makes any small woman look shapely.It comes in all these pretty colors too. In my mind I think that if I have these bras now, I have hope for mentally living through the process of this all. Very strange how the human mind works.I never imagined I would be getting these things out for good, I never imagined that I would have to admit that this is the problem.Question for you J, Were you on thyroid medication prior to the implants or did you acquire this mishap after the implants? I'm wondering how many of us had to get on thyroid meds post implantion.I wouldn't have even gotten on them at all if it weren't for my aggressive persistence with the doctors.. All my labs have been squeaky clean normal.. unless ofcourse there are certain tests which would

not be normal and I have'nt had them. And truthfully, I don't even want to know if something shows up bad, it'll only give me something else to obsess about all day long.))))hugs((((Dawn> Dawn,> Thanks for sharing so honestly. My explant is in a couple of weeks, > 3/30. I have had some doubts in my mind, like, well, maybe the > antidepressants and the thyroid meds and the season and the this and > that are causing me to feel like I've ran a marathon even when I > wake up in the mornings. I've begun to rehearse the surgery in my > head daily, and it's a lonely place. My husband is mourning over the > loss of the big boobs, and he refuses to talk to me about my > decision to explant. > I've been looking through the Secret catalog and thinking, > wow, if I knew how much of my original breasts I might retain after > the surgery,

I could buy some of those cute bras now. But I have no > idea what my breasts will look like after surgery, and that is a > little crazy-making in my head too.> I am certain that explanting will improve my health. But it is kind > of a mourning process, i.e. denial, negotiation, anger, sadness, and > acceptance. I guess I go back and forth and hopefully there is a > pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. JOpinions expressed are NOT meant to take the place of advice given by licensed health care professionals. Consult your physician or licensed health care professional before commencing any medical treatment. "Do not let either the medical authorities or the politicians mislead you. Find out what the facts are, and make your own decisions about how to live a happy life and how to work for a better world." - Linus ing, two-time Nobel Prize Winner (1954, Chemistry;

1963, Peace)