I'm going no mail for a while

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Dear group;

I'm going no mail but keeping the subscription in Yahoo Groups so I don't

forget about these groups.

It seems that everything I've tried to do or start lately has resulted in

pain and grief and causing me to be edgy. I guess I'm not ready to do much

right now.

Even a person saying they don't like the color of my hair or the spelling of

a word as an example of simplicity of it sets me off sometimes. I'm

fighting hard these days to repair the " damage " in my life and get back

self-control / discipline / normality. And to sort the kernal from the

chaff of what I've discovered about myself the last 5 years and what I've

heard or learned.

I just don't know when I'll be ready or well enough (if ever).

The one guy I rented a room from said he wouldn't evict me if it meant I

would wind up in an insane asylum. I feel close to that condition though I

cannot do physical harm to myself or others which is what would qualify for

internment.

My mother is gathering dust sitting in a storage closet at a cemetery back

in Santa and apparently my life is in a similar situation as well.

Randy Garrett

Antioch, CA USA

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