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Greetings pain group,

I have been sat on the side watching for a while. It is good to see new

members.

For those who are interested, my conditions haven't changed much. The sudden

bursts of breakthrough pain are causing me problems, I am taking 150% of my

allowable morphine. My doctor supports the increase but I need a pain

specialist to authorise it and I can't get an appointment!! Embarassingly I

have some people from another list send me packages with little gifts in

from time to time and I get the occasional postcard from my friends, these

little thoughtful deeds really, really make my day and bring me so much joy.

I was thinking that everyone I know who is in Chronic Pain like me spends

much of the time not feeling the best, we don't have good days, we have

awful days, terrible days, days we wish that we had never been born then

from time to time days that aren't too bad, not good - but a little better.

I honestly can't remember what a good day is. Then a postcard, envelope or

package arrives and in the midst of all my pain (often often anger at my

body for letting me down) there is a small island of joy and happiness for a

short time.

Today has been a bad day, pain levels have been at breakthrough strength all

day. When we got the mail, there was a thick envelope from France, inside my

French penpal had sent me heaps of postcards about Brittany and what really

made me feel good was that every night, when she and her husband were in

their hotel room. He would watch television and she would sit down and write

to me. WOW, I thought, on holiday, she is thousands of kilometres away and

she is worried about me. For about an hour, I could feel the pain rising,

but I was extrememly happy, I had a huge smile on my face. Yesterday, I got

a letter from Kaylene, it had two wonderful postcards in it, no letter (we

say everything we want to on email) and another island in the middle of the

pain fog formed and for 30 - 45 minutes, nothing really bothered me.

I was wondering, do other people feel this like I do?

Alan