Help!

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Hello,

I'm a male in my mid thirties. It's my first post on this forum.

I believe, as my mother is likely to be a BP, that therefore I am a

non-BP. I have an older brother that basically always did everything

wrong, I was supposed to do everything perfectally and was very

praised for that.

I realize that I always had a big lag of confidence in myself about

making a lkiving. I thought that it was because I left school at a

very early age. Although I'm successful, I save a lot because I

always feel that I will have to rely on my savings to survive in the

future. I'm a bit obsessed about my work as I feel that it is the

only thing in my life that really matters.

I'm very weary of getting married and having children as that sounds

very definitive and that I would have to accept the rules of someone

else! I always keep control of myself even though I can feel very

angry sometime about things that aren't really worth it.

What I really want to know is if all that is really me or if I do all

this because, as a child, my mother " programmed " me to act that way?

Is it really me? How can I know? If that's not the case what can I do

to go forward?

E.N.