for those w/experience, hypersensitive?

[Guest guest]

Ok, I admit I can be hypersensitive about things sometimes. It's like

I am a boxer and always trying to dodge the hits, but sometimes

misjudge and think someone is walking up to hit when really they are

just walking up.

Anyway, lately with my blue feelings, I see I am so hermit like and

stand-offish and somewhat as though I am depressed. Well, nada is

going around making all kinds of connections with people, and plenty

happen to be with moms in the homeschool group that I never get to be

around b/c of my work schedule. Now get this, my daughter had a

homeschool dad be her confirmation sponsor just recently. Guess who

nada is more friendly now with? The wife of that homeschool dad.

The wife asked nada to go to a religiousmeeting with her. I kind of

found out from nada (don't know how much of it is true) that she just

hapepned to call up this mom and talk about stuff, and in the process

the mom asked nada to go to this religious meeting every Tuesd. now

nada knows about this particular religious meeting b/c it is with a

religious group I am a member of but don't get to go to b/c it's

during our homeschooling time in the morning. So, to me, it 's like

nada is trying to take over this new family b/c we have establishd

with them in a way (the dad being my daughter's sponsor) and not only

that, but she wants to also become enmeshed in this religious group I

am a member of just b/c it's something I am a member of. I mean all

these past years she had no interest in doing such thing. Nada tells

me " You wanted me to find people to be friends with besides you and I

do and you seem all upset about it " Well, I do want her to be

friends with people besides me. I happen to be upset about it b/c it

appears that she is trying to enmesh with people I have anything to do

with so that she can flaunt how they think she is so friendly and

wonderful, etc. I don't know if I should be truly upset about it

like i am. I absolutely hate it nada picked up on that one, b/c that

is something she can try to continue to play on just so that I can

continue to be miserable (even though she acts like she does not want

me to be miserable).

Today I took my daughter to ride a horse at the stables (the owner is

the one where nada stalls her 3 miniatures. The owner does not have

time to ride her own horse so wants my daughter to as she knows

daughter rides well). Of course allthis communication of owner

letting anyone know horse needs to be ridden is through nada. I go

over there with daughter and nada wants to come, too, so she comes.

She acts all friendly with anyone and everyone who walks by. I just

could not stand it any more b/c to me, it seemed she was just doing

this to flaunt to me how friendly she is to people and how they like

her, etc, and I am just a sour puss all keeping to myself. No, I

don't tend to just walk up to strange people and strike up a

conversatoin. That is just me. They may think I am stuck up b/c

sometimes that is what happens. Now if they were to ask me a

question or start talking about something I would get on a roll. Me

starting it is not a very likely happening. I have been that way my

entire life. Nada now just takes advantage of that to make it appear

I am stuck up or depressed or mentally unstable, whatever.

It really is annoying. I think I may be a little hypersensitive

about this, but I can't seem to get UNfrustrated. If you have been

in this boat, what on earth have you tried to get out?

Now, I do remind myself of what Sylvia said - don't need to have

constant positive responses to know that I am worth something. When

I feel like this, I tell myself I am worth a lot and don't need anyone

else to tell me so.

I just hate nada flaunting around me, if that is what she is doing

(feels like it). I just read something in a magazine that really

made me feel kind of better. It was talking about heroes in

everyday life, and there was mention of heroes who never get in the

headlines, and one of them was a single parent. I think KOs also

ought to be on the list.

Thanks!

Theresa